Monday, December 12, 2005

Voiceless Hymn at the Moment of Madness

Karena mimpimu hanyalah milikmu,

Yang akan membawamu menuju cahaya pengharapan

Sekalipun dalam terowongan yang paling gelap

Sebab hatimu adalah kepunyaanmu

Yang selalu membimbingmu dalam segala keraguan

Walaupun perasaan itu masih tertidur dengan lelap

Jangan dengar kata mereka

Karena mimpimu bukanlah milik mereka

Bukan pula peduli mereka

Jangan acuhkan bicara mereka

Karena hatimu bukanlah kepunyaan mereka

Tidak juga kepentingan mereka

Maka mulai saat ini, hapuslah keraguan itu

Dan jangan pernah menengok ke belakang

Melangkah lagi, sekali lagi

Biarkan kamu menjadi dirimu

Karena seorang kamu adalah hanya dirimu

Special Thanks to Mr. Not Hyde Fans :)
~Whoa, tasteless indonesian lyrics X(, but hey, i am just trying!~

Sunday, December 11, 2005

My Fantasy-Class in RPG World ^o^!


Pretty cool, huh? Even though i am passionate enough to be a swordsman (or swordswoman?), Archer is more likely fitting my natural personality. Huhu, i should not put an extra effort to take this matter seriously. It is just for fun anyway, made for you by Quizzila ^o^.

~Spoiler alert for those who aren't into RPG XD~

Friday, December 09, 2005

Lamest Day, Pitiable Day

Why I always carry out unnecessary mistakes and unworthy flaws? As for today, I did it again! I made so many things go unwell. Okay, let’s see how awful they are:

L’Oreal E-Strat Challenge

Dearest my beloved honorable partners, I am so sorry for making you nuisance at all times. I was collapsed at our working time, thus really cannot overcome the case (which we should do collectively). Things are going worst when I have other crucial things to do. Again, my sincerest apologize will go to both of youT_T.


Again I feel very guilty for this commitment. Afterwards I irresponsibly breached it. Having told so many people that I would join these seminar series, in fact I didn’t attend them. Speechless all the times aren’t really worth, but I am really sorry for such inconsistency. I was trying hard to finish any other deadline in the last minute, but it really didn’t much work. Even I myself cannot manage my schedule properly. For the second time, I am very regretful for not joining this eventT_T.

Solar Innovation 2006~Publication

Lamest design at all times! I hate myself for this excessive confident. I must know before that I am just a photoshop beginner; therefore I should realize that it will not helpful enough to handle all tasks of publicity section. In result, I just can manage to create failure works all over again T_T.

4) Student Assistant (Interviewer)

I keep violate the deadline given. But fortunately, this employment is finished already. Not to mention that I am so relieved, still I do some unnecessary mistakes for this essential job. Why I keep doing mistakes, is there something I am able to do without any flaws? AnythingT_T?

Ikastara Job

It is all about constructing the research design. Finished 75% already; however I still have no time to complete it perfectly. Argh, I am yearning of holiday!T_T

~Still pondering, what was the start of all these? Perhaps it is impossible to seize the answer now, from deep within the bottomless river of time~

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Lunasea brings Lunacy!

You know, it's said that in reality
No one is able to love
When I met that frightened you
I finally understood that meaning

OMG, Lunasea is deliciously poisoning my current thought! Like any other j-rock songs, it unconsciously blows up my mind and brings away my soul into the mystifying feelings of Ryuichi's vocal. I am referring to its song titled 'I For You', the closing song of very popular J-Dorama.

If I was born
Only to meet you
I wonder if I could change
I want to tell you, from my heart

I just love the lyrics. When it comes to j-rock, every single words in certain songs become very very fabulously meaningful for me. And this time it shows it. Even though this song is so so mellow-ish, it doesn't bother to its loveliness at all ^_^.

Sadly, Lunasea is disband already. My deepest condolescenes for all their beautiful works in the future. Nevertheless, still their gorgeous melodies and harmonious rhytems stay everlastingly in my memories ^_^.

You've been hurt too much,
but we'll still make it in time
I love you from my heart
I want to wipe away the pain that falls on you
Everything is I for you

(* in red taken from 'I For You' by Lunasea)

Why it was really a struggle to find Lunasea's pics -_-'

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Impulsive Buyer goes to Johor Baru

Even though I am already sophomore in NTU, I never visit Johor Baru for sure. Not to mention that I am so ashamed, finally after so many detriments wait ahead I go there along with Karina, Wewoen, Adilla and Fika. Yatta!

Somewhat I feel that JB is a reminiscence of Jakarta, or particularly, terminal blok-M. The smells, situational areas and the people (off course) are more likely stimulated us to instantly think that we are here in Jakarta.

But what I am trying to say here is, I find so many stuffs I’ve been hunting for such a long time there. After so desperately leeching in mIRC, and crazily pursuing ‘it’ in so many anime stores, i coincidentally discover ‘it’ in JB. ‘It’ is referring to completed anime series namely Yami no Matsuei ^_^. With cost only 15RM worth for a beautiful anime series and style, feels like I have found a precious treasure.

Moreover, I luckily notice so many cute novels in such a bargaining price. Every single novel costs 5RM only! Yay, my shopacholic instinct naturally leads me to buy 3 novels once in a time. Finally I can buy novel after timeless waiting in uncertainty ^o^.

Those reckless and impulsive acts are really my fatal mistakes! I bring $10 only, which means I should borrow more money to cover up my leaky budget.

For Karin,Wewoen, Adilla, I am so sorry for hastily being your thoughtless leecher. Next time I will come with any back up plan for such condition!

Monday, December 05, 2005

Secrecy in the Silent Night

I saw your face beneath the pale of the moonlight
Your warmest smile was not there anymore

I noticed your tears under the silence of the night
Those crystallize tears quietly began to flow

Wishing to wipe away your tears
With all my sincerest gentleness and tenderness

Yearning to embrace your fears
Extending both of these hands towards yourself and your heart

Can I erase your pain? Please give me a chance!

But then again I was afraid of seeing you
Just for talking with you, I had no courage
Just to gaze at you, I remained in cowardice

Even if my love had reached the ends of time
It will never and never certainly reach you

Along with all my painful unspoken true feelings
Altogether through my deepest melancholy and treachery inside
All that left behind was just the frozen me…

..and my frozen heart

Note :
Give me a 'woo'. This must be the lamest english lyrics you've ever seen T_T

Sunday, December 04, 2005

A Cry in The Air

Indonesian mode : ON
Spoiler Alert status : green

Aku tidak begitu ingat dengan jelas, kapan tepatnya aku mulai menulis.

Yang kuingat adalah, ketika aku merasa sedih atau gundah, segera kuambil pena dan mulai menulis. Akan kutumpahkan semua perasaan yang mengikat itu ke dalam kertas. Bahasaku memang masih sangat berantakkan, dengan frase yang juga tidak terlalu bagus, namun semua tulisan yang aku buat memang bukan untuk publikasi, alias hanya untuk konsumsi pribadi –maaf kalau kedengarannya terlalu egois-. Semua itu karena aku kurang tahan berlama-lama dengan kebanyakan ide yang menumpuk di kepala. Yah sebelum semua ide itu menghilang dengan sia-sia, tak ada salahnya kan, aku burn ke dalam sebuah tulisan yang tidak berharga =).

Sejak kelas 1 SD, aku suka menggambar (dan membuat komik pada saat itu juga). Kebiasaan itu terus berlanjut hingga aku SMP. Saat-saat itu memang momen yang paling produktif, karena aku mempunyai begitu banyak teman (dan juga rival tentunya =P) dengan hobi dan ketertarikan yang sama. Dan saat SMP itulah aku menulis novel pertamaku. Mengapa novel? Hanya karena aku tidak mampu membuat cerpen. Bukan apa-apa, cerita sederhana bisa menjadi sangat panjang bila aku tulis. Aku tidak bilang bahwa kisah-kisah tersebut bermutu, tapi aku begitu asyik sehingga tidak sadar telah menulis lebih dari 40 halaman saat pertama kali :S. (cerita yang jauh dari kategori ‘bagus’ sebanyak 40 halaman? Dapat kau bayangkan betapa membosankannya T_T).

Saat duduk di bangku SMA, aku baru merasakan betapa sakitnya dikhianati orang-orang yang harus kau anggap keluarga. Jika kau jujur, kau akan dibohongi, jika kau percaya, kau akan dikhianati. Dan saat itu, kau harus benar-benar bergantung pada kekuatan sendiri. Aku tidak melebih-lebihkan, apalagi mengada-ngada. Setidaknya, itulah yang kurasakan ketika pertama kali menginjakkan kaki di tempat itu. Kala itu, menulis memang benar-benar menjadi obat yang mujarab. Ia akan setia mendengarkan keluh-kesahmu, bahkan ia akan menjadi tempat dimana kau memutar kembali memori-memorimu (baik yang ingin kau ingat ataupun kau lupakan). Perlahan tetapi pasti, akhirnya aku bisa menempatkan diri dengan benar di tempat itu, pastinya dengan tetap menjadi diriku sendiri.

Hingga sampailah kini di bangku perkuliahan. Kehidupan metropolis yang pathetic, benar-benar menjauhkan aku dari menulis. Bukan, menulis yang kumaksud disini bukanlah menulis esai ataupun laporan, tapi menulis apa yang ingin kau tulis dari lubuk hati terdalam. Lagi-lagi aku tidak pernah bilang bahwa aku menikmati menulis tentang segala esai dan project yang berlebihan menyita waktu, tenaga dan pikiran =).

Dan akhirnya aku baru menyadari euforia yang sedang terjadi di dunia tulis-menulis. Betapa anak-anak muda sekarang begitu gencarnya menulis, hingga muncullah beberapa genre baru dalam dunia kepenulisan. Teen lit? Chick lit? ataupun Metro-lit? Jujur saja, aku sedih melihat hal tersebut. Sedih yang lebih kepada iri. Mereka telah memulai dengan berani. Mereka telah selangkah lebih maju. Meninggalkan aku disini yang masih berkutat dengan segala kepenatan dan kehampaan. Aku ingin seperti mereka. Aku ingin kembali menulis. Walapun aku sadar, mungkin tulisanku begitu tidak pantasnya untuk dibaca, namun setidaknya itu akan menjadi obat kekosongan yang melanda selama ini =).

Dan sekarang, saat ini, Singapore, hari Minggu, 4 Desember 2005 pukul 11:36 pm, aku mengambil pena dan sebuah buku berwarna biru yang telah lama aku simpan.

Akupun mulai menulis... lagi.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Meine Liebe : Pretty Guys Rulez!

I find myself stunning to this irresistibly new mini-series. The main reason lies on its characters and characters again! Not just it’s enriched by the 5 deadly gorgeous guys (a reminiscence of Weiss Kreuz and Gundam Wing series) but more importantly, this series has NO girl takes part on the whole story (seems like paradise to me *slurph*). The title ‘Meine Liebe’ stands for ‘My Love’ in Deutsch.

This epic story has very elegant and lovely artwork, no wonder since the characters designer was Kaori Yuki-sama, my favorite manga-ka ever. The music is prominently good afterwards, the classical style with certain modification to Japanese music. The story started in the year 1935, in a Germanic country called Kuchen. There lies Rosenstolz Academy, as a highly reputable military institute whose selected students are eligible to be the candidates of parliament. The chosen students are labeled Strahl, and there goes the story about our 5 beloved Strahls to overcome the chaotic turmoil in both of their circumstances and deepest hearts inside.

Guys may hate this typical of series, but girls might love it the most! I warn you guys, don’t watch it just to contempt. If that’s so, better mind your own business and get a life*.

* Very sorry for being rude, I’m too exhausted to be mocked just because of my weird taste of guys >_<

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Japanese Rocks, Anyone?

Gravity is on the increase
As a time goes by
My body returns to the earth
There is sky up in the air
My body is in your sky and
Your life is in my cosmos
We never come close to each other
But here we exist as it is

(Kasou ~L’Arc-en-Ciel)

I am a big fan of any western music when I was in primary school. Watching MTV everyday was a must for me, in result, i was occupied with my in depth knowledge about all kind of western music at that particular point of time. It was a proud I can remember most lyrics of the popular songs. Thus it was inevitable that I have so many girl friends ~the most chic, stylish and hip one~, since we shared the same interest about any western stuffs.

Then something triggered me to come up to the turning point of all those stuffs. I just realized that most western music and stuff merely led us to conspicuous lifestyle and worthless way of life in most of their lyrics and PV (promotional videos). I often witness their very absurd PVs about sex, kiss and sex again. Otherwise they only talked about sickening violence, overflow erotic dancers, or excessive horrible chicks. I’ve been wondering since then, what was the ‘cool’ of all these? Then I stared at their lyrics, and found coherence similarity linking their lyrics and PVs. The lyrics mainly talked about love with the reckless and hasty words I’ve ever seen.

I turned out subsequently to watch anime series instead of MTV programs, and discovered the in-depth and poetic lyrics in both of the opening and ending songs. Most of the lyrics implied about harmonious relationship among people, attached by the strong feelings towards companions, altogether with the humble and vigorous passion to face the hard life. It blew up my mind at once. I was really impressed about those gorgeous aspects of Japanese songs, and thus explored it passionately. Additionally, the evocative PVs were again causing me to unconditionally love them! Mainly the PVs were aesthetically meaningful. Even until now, I’m still keeping myself stunning all over again to the beautifulness of J-songs.

I don’t say that all J-songs are flawless, while all western songs are tasteless (it’s all regarding to our own preference, of course =P). For an instance, I’m focusing myself to Japanese-Rocks. I just desperately love their music –not all music though, but mainly their style of music!-, and keep on dreaming that someday I will become one of them XP.

Classic Formula, Invulnerable Impression

I’ve been longing for some excellent series lately. Referring to some kicking recommendations from the magazines, the series named Gundam SeeD had been #1 series in Japan in the last 2003. Since I even haven’t glanced to it, I decided to screen and witness if that series are really worth to watch. And yes, it is.

The story used to be a classic formula; best friends who inevitably forced to be enemies because of war (remember the pairings of Naruto-Sasuke in Naruto and Jowy Atreides-Hero in Suikoden II). The chronicle was getting more and more complicated since the story makers diligently added some unexpected side stories and unforeseen stuffs. The main character was namely Kira Yamato, who is strained to fight his childhood friend, Athrun Zala. Focusing on the war between Natural (the ordinary human beings) and Coordinator (the superiors, derived from finer genes creation), these series were somewhat remind me of sort kind of racial discrimination.

I love this typical of story. It makes me whimper a night and day, since the storyline is bursting by such agony and anguish feelings within the characters. Furthermore, I feel emotionally attached to particular characters. Towards an end, I declare that this series is truly really definitely absolutely extremely worth to watch! Enjoy the story and catch the pleasure =).

Monday, November 21, 2005

Yesterday and Today


I whispered your name in my last tear drops,

Following your cries into this everlasting labyrinth

I painted your name with my nearly-drying blood,

Echoing your grieves within this endless universe

Towards the silence, gazing at my ephemeral future

My tomorrow would never come

I called you hopelessly, I called your name


Now that I lost my wings, unable to soar

Now that I lost my soul, powerless to lament

It is a perfect moment, before I disappear

Just one question, My Dear..

Will you put those flowers in my grave?

~Just written in my sleepless dawn~
I want to sleep normally *sigh* T_T

Sunday, November 20, 2005


I am doing photoshop recently after drooling at some works in Devianart. This is my 2nd photoshop colouring. (My sincere gratitude goes to Bro Adityo for such wonderful tutorials ^O^). This work is very plain and dull (i'm too discourage to blend up some striking colours X(.)Perhaps it's still a long way to go to become a great illustrator, but i am trying hard to fulfill my child(ish) ambition.

My second gratitude for today falls to Mr. "Not Hyde Fans" for such motivation. Someday i'll show you Hyde's 'true power', at that time no regrets are allowed! Haha XD.

Today i am more likely to spend much time doing Photoshop again ^o^.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

"If I were meant to be an angel, I'll surely be an angel with the black wings.."

Somebody said those words to me when i was on High School. I just found someone who was pretty similar to me. She had same hobbies, interests and even similar way of thinking with me.

We used to talk much about things we liked, figures we adored, and stuffs we were crazy with, and most of the time our surroundings couldn't catch up our deep conversation. It seemed like we have our only world, and nobody is allowed to be inside. (hey, i am still straight, please omit those negative feelings!). And yes, before my graduation, she said those words to me.

I noticed the hidden meaning and poetic senses behind that quotation, but i didn't know what was that. What was the term 'black wings' stands for? And, what 'angel' she did mention there? It still remained in such curiousity at least for me.

I do hope that i can reveal those latent meanings when I ask her. But too late to realize that i might never meet her anymore. She was just missing (or went somewhere unknown ~though i myself cannot explain why~), and leaving those words flow in my mind, with myself keeps grasping the true meaning behind.

~And even until now, i am still waiting to see her again sometime and somewhere~

Friday, November 18, 2005

Cool Stuff =)

~I love anything bishies look-alike~

Just now find Hyde-sama's doll. Glad to realize that this androgynous doll is even more cute than Barbie's and whatever its counterparts. Hyde-sama is strikingly beautiful in his ages, no wonder he becomes the field of inspirations for lots of manga-artists.
Anyway, this is his appearance in 666 album (specifically in Hello PV ~correct me if i wrong~).

Thursday, November 17, 2005

10 Things I hate [about myself]

Some people claimed that scorning your inner (and outer) self all over and over again means you are not grateful enough to the Creator. To all my honorable peers, i have no intention to even think about that. I just want to stun for a moment, and ponder at my sightless future.

1) A proscratinator by nature
Oh well, i even cannot hinder it anymore. I am lazy, too lazy to make any progress in my life. I am 'last minute' person, hated by all my group projects and study mates. So please be careful if you find my name lies on the same list as your project mates' name. Ladies and Gentlemen, if you have some tips and tricks to instantly overcome them, please let me now.

2) Sarcastic and Evil
Most people I know comment about my sinister and sarcastic responses when I talk to them. I do that unintentionally. Please do forgive me and understand me for those stupie flaws. Frankly speaking my dear, i just reflect my critical opinion and honest conviction. I am not intend to hurt you =)

3) Unrealistic Daydreamer
I am good at nothing, and all i can do is just dreaming on. Keep saying 'I wanna do that' 'I really can do this', will not really work in real life. Oh yes, i think i'm going insane T_T.

4) I.G.N.O.R.A.N.C.E
"It has nothing to do with me" or "It's none of my business" things keep fullfill my head. It just flows instinctively, though i discover the lousyness and valueless feelings there. Eventually i try to erase them and rewrite my mind with the warmer sensitivity and caring attitude.

5) Excessive Negative Feeling
Those feelings make me sick all over the time. I often judge someone without thinking further. Most of those sensitive thoughts are remarkable by hostile and adverse feelings toward others. I do realize that my prejudice seems silly and groundless though i still cannot bear it. Perhaps this explain why i often feel in such solitude and loneliness.

6) True Bohemian
Wonderful side of me. Bohemian is a term for lazy, pathetic, messy, result-focused, abstract in mind, truly disorganized, and other eccentric traits of Bohemian artists (Da Vinci? Michaelangelo?). I must be proud (or shame?) for this honor.

7) Self Centered Person
Sometimes I always consider anything according to the 'cost-benefit' analysis. If i can gain profit with, then I will do, if it goes vice versa then i will leave. Is it wrong to be that kind of analyzer? I do believe that the world isn't covered with just black and white sides, but also the gray area in between.

8) Weak Hearted-Weak Brained
I indeed cannot bear to drop away my tears when watching touchy films. Most of the times i use my wrecked emotion rather than my logical thought. Sometimes i do misrepresent things when it comes to my sincere feelings, and it certainly becomes my serious mistakes.
Nevertheless i am not saying that i have that 'logic' either T_T.

9) Stupid Defender

No comment. I am very critical about what i believe in life, and thus protect it 'till my last breath and blood (what the &^*%^). Unfortunately, i often defend any unessential thing, which seems to be ridiculous. Again, the stupie side of me.

10) ......
Empty space! I will add later, hehe. Still lots of hatred feeling remain out there XD.

Please do not hesitate to add one. I just want to fix them honestly =). I hope that i can change.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Diving Through Insanity

I lose control
My heart skipping a beat
Touched by a gentle wind,
I look up at heaven

Is it me who losing my mind? Who am I? What am I? It feels like I’ve lost my sense of everything.

I lose control
Going to be shut off
Even you don't recognize that
I'm on the verge of breaking

Yes it is about the time. We are all going to be perished. The die is cast. Though the existence of human being might be both in bliss and sadness, can i just stand motionless in between? I am both doomed and troubled.

Good morning Mr. Fear..

I can't see you Mr. Joy. I can't find you Mr. Smile. Everyday i always knocking on your doors, but all that left behind is just the benevolent Mr. Fear with his hollow smile.

What stimulates me are scars I've lost
I can't even control my arms Ah
A sun that's burning out,
Shadows stained black

Still with my innocent sight, covered with baleful darkness, i run and seek for the truth. Why should we all cry to the light, while darkness surrounds us maliciously? We are diving in insanity, desperately seeking for the truth but find the lies only.

When I noticed this
I laughed

I hopelessly find no end. Forever swaying in the cruelty of life, breathing in the air of vain, it seems like i just can feel nothing. Staying emotionless as always, showing an empty smile at all times, and closing my mind for eternity. Even standing at the abyss of hell but still I am yearning of heaven.

I died then my instinct was born..

Could you give me the light?

**(in red)taken from 'Shinsoku~Loose Control' by L'Arc~en~Ciel

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Shallow Sleep

It was a very calm night when i dreamt about him. More or less about two weeks ago.

I just did my usual things before i slept. Nothing special. Studying like dying, boring like hell. Yeah, nothing stimulated me to imagine any extraordinary things. Afterwards I went to sleep while trying to forget all those damn exam anxieties.

At that point of time in my dream, i see someone running in haste. He wears sun-glasses and sophisticated leather jacket. He is so fair, with the glittered black hair covers his head. It is a rainy, gloomy afternoon, so i don't obviously notice his presence.

Surprisingly, that man comes to me and speaks in his odd accent. He opens his glasses, and i see a pair of gorgeous eyes hidden there. "Err, do you know where to call a cab?"

Firstly i feel a bit suspicious. i don't talk to stranger. But seeing that chaste eyes I straightly escort him to seek for a cab. "I'll call one for you," said I plainly.

Later the cab comes. But instead of saying "thank you" that strange man whispers, "You go with me! Won't you?". His notorious eyes glance at me. And I have no other choice to refuse his favor. Yet i nod deliberately without any single word and follow him enter the cab.

The atmosphere is so cold, and we remain in silence. Finally after a while he speaks to me in a very low voice ~again, with such a funny accent~. He escapes from his work. (what a pity, i comment in mind. so many people lost their jobs, idiot!) Then he takes a deep breath, saying that he finds only emptiness and meaninglessness in his current job. He often feel in such hypocrisy, pretending to be modest and chaste. And those feelings tortured him enormously. In response, i can only smile and tell him how lucky he actually is. I often see him abathed in the spotlight, shining as he is. We talk much, and those conversation is meaningful enough for me in learning about the vagueness of humans' fate, along with their discrepancies.

Okay. Maybe that occassion might not seem so special. But what makes me astonished is, i remember those conversation very clearly. I notice his accent, deep breath, fragrance, altogether with my sense of curiousity when i talk to him. Even I memorize the white sleeveless shirt beyond his leather jacket. Moreover I recall what i wear significantly. It happens to me as if it were real. Too real to be true.

After all, I thank God for giving me that unpredictable sights. Dear readers, surely i'm not that freaky to dream about someone i adore with. I also not that crazy to let the unrealistic mind poisoning my radical thought. It just happens naturally. Lastly i have to admit that i enjoy that pleasure so much =).

He~who comes to my dream~
(Don't laugh u fool! It's not like you think about! It is purely a coincidence!)

And That's all?

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Let's get started READY STEADY GO!

Peers, i made this post before starting my exam period. I guessed about the end of October. Nothing to say, nor nothing to expect, i just wanted to flood up my new blog. Take ur time and enjoy urself! ^O^

Exam is coming nearer, and it is really frustrating. I cannot bear the catastrophic tempest in my brain, also cannot afford this worrying heartbeat. Some people said having 5 of course struggle in this semester is not really depressing. But hey, please remember the discrepancies of our brain power and capacity.

Let's further elaborate more about those culprits!

1) BM212~Cross Cultural Buyer Behavior
A core subject for Marketing student. Still, my mind is going tardy when facing this subject. This consumer behavior study is a collaboration of Psychology, Marketing and Organisational Behavior (extremely complicated although it might not seem as it is *sigh*) Moreover, the exam worth 50% only! And it may demolish my hope to get a good mark, pondering that my assignments are really disastrous.Erm.. hopefully i can get tranquility when i work for the exam.

2)LG80~German lv 1
The biggest impediment for this sem! I should know before that i'm not really inclined to take languange subject! And that intention has showed its vengeance.I'm fed up with German already. German is really tedious (for me, at least)! If i can repudiate it, i will certainly drop it. No excuse! But then again, no regret is allowed. Finally i should deliberately put an extra effort to overcome this detriment. Next time i will stipulate my study plan better and consider it very carefully. Let's hope for the best T_T.

3)HL102~Surveys of English Literature
I love Shakespeare. I like John Milton. I adore Geoffrey Chaucer..Yes. Indeed.Nevertheless, that doesn't really mean that i should extract their works words by words and line by line. That should make a fuss in my crowdie schedule. Sometimes Lits are elusive, otherwise they are boring. Thus i'm just starting today to catch up the material~oh good! (it seems i'm only mourning over and over again from the 1st line X( ).My finale, i like Lits, but unfortunately my poor English has been my major drawbacks in facing Lits. Crossed your finger to help me overcome this exam, k? =p

4)AB213~Research Methods
The exam worth 30% only, i remain speechless. This is the second layer of Statistic subject. Fulfilled with lots of analysis and descriptive studies. Sadly, my quiz is another disaster for this subject.I afraid my courseworks aren't sufficient enough to cover my mark. Moreover, i even haven't touched it until this sec. Oh yes, perhaps starting tommorow isn't really a bad idea. Thanks for reminding me to gaze at this baleful subject! T_T

5)BM211~International Business Environment
My overall impression in this subject is quite ok. It helps broaden your knowledge about how the MnC's gained success for conducting business in some unanticipated countries. However, the materials are overwhelming, the case studies are boundless, and the problem solvings are very extensive! Thus i'm getting anxious day by day. After all, this open book exam is on the last day. I cannot say a word, let's save the best for the last!

6)AB214~Business and Managerial Communication
Talk, speech, presentation, report, memo, formal letter, email, participation, how to express your mind in courtesy, how to behold your company in certain circumstances and conditions...Good News : No exam! I'm soaring to heaven, yayayaya!Bad News : worst written assignment, disastrous presentation, horrible class participation, poor grammar, dreadful speech, devastating way of communication! (huh, did i mention all? XD)

Yea yea that's all folks. Again, good luck for your exam. Let's hope for the best. Enjoy your exam time. Remember, freedom is waiting ahead! Hahaha XD.

Let's get started for the exam!
Let's get started READY STEADY GO! =p

Hey! Finally I've made a second blog! In the midst of distress and woe I intend to erect something to boost up my mood. My infectious blogger friends have made me choose blogspot to express my dull mind. After attempting FS blog, i move out to another blog provider, hoping that this new field would be more colorful than my first generation XD.

Actually i despise myself for being so poor in English (both oral and written, indeed!). My Biz Communication tutor always encourage me to write and speak in English as much as possible. Still, in this dismay situation i keep feel deterring and discourage. What i'm trying to say is : don't directly blame myself if you find any gramatical errors or unnecessary phrases in this text. I bear no malice towards anybody who reads it, truly XD.

And from now on, my tale of woe and bliss will be continued...