Zombified, Mummified, whatever

I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is there anything I can do rightly?

Anything?

Beginning of 20s Crisis

Apratz is still alive, safe and sound! My deepest apology for being completely vanished in the blogsphere, If anyone cares by the way. Do you care? Do you?

Anyway, work is really overwhelming. Recently I was totally zombified by overloaded tasks. Well, it is not that job is redundant; it is me who did it super slow. I myself is an utter slowpoke *sobbing*. I wonder how long will it take to familiarize myself with this business.

Quite sometime, I feel like loosing senses in certain things. I become less sensitive to others, thus reluctant to spend more times to meet counterparts and friends during weekend. I worked wholeheartedly during weekdays, and when weekend comes, I feel like spending time for myself only, and not others. I will be sleeping throughout the whole day, watching anime and reading anything worth all by myself, which made me a sucker in social life,

I realize that I can’t let myself entirely buried by this routine. Working is my x-priority, yet it is my current obligation since I need to payback the Tuition Fee to the Government by working 3 years in here. There’re so many things I want to accomplish in this super short lifespan. That’s why I don’t want to see myself doing the same thing all over again in the next 10 years. Frankly speaking, girls has less responsibility compare to guys in terms of life contingency plan, so I should say, 3 years working is more than enough.

Hopefully I can get enough capital when that time comes; afterwards taking Postgraduate study will be my choice in order to support my life contingency plan. Then easier said than done, I will build up my own company in Indonesia to support community development as well as being a University Lecturer at the same time. Life is so perfect on the top of the paper, but still every second that just passed needs to be fighting for.

Now I sound like I am in the midst of 30s :(.

Taken For Granted

Ok, I was getting tired of all this.

I was always there, when people need me to lean them a shoulder to cry on. I was –in most occasion- trying to give people the best possible outcome that I could do to lighten their troubles. I had always been a good listener for most of times, a caregiver, a provider, and sort of things (that sounds like a self-proclaimed but devil may care for this time around!).

I do believe that good friends must always be a solution oriented, a constructive minded individual who always express their help in a more realistic way, not just a daydreamy being who always sugar the problems with comforting words. I just try to be a good friend (according to my own perception of ‘a good friend’).

And now, I think I was being hated because of that.

Sasuke-kun Doushite?

Enough with Gaara, now my issue is Sasuke. Pardon my wild imagination, but honestly i do think that Naruto is overflowed by invisible shounen ai aspects in here and there.

The first scene involving Naruto and Sasuke is the kissing scene, then moved to Haku and Zabuza (and please notice their uncanny relationship), then came to Lee and Might Guy (sort of admiration at the beginning but my instinct told me more than that *grin*, afterall they are not my cup of tea), afterwards it was Gaara and His attendant (forgot his name, pity!), then Sasuke and Itachi's grostesque relationship (boohoo, it is forbidden love!), next was Sai and his brother (gee, why there're so many boyxboy relationship? in fact it works well to attract fangirls *grin*), et cetera et cetera and finale, Sasuke and Naruto!

"Wake up Naruto, or else I kiss you!"

Even though there's almost zero improvement in SasukexNaruto relationship, i still can satisfy myself with Narusasu doujinshis or fanfics that scatterred around the net *happy*.

Joy to the World, Weekend Has Come!

Last friday I catched 'Stardust' in The Cathay after working hours. I went with couples of abnormals -typical stressed over work and stressed over exams people-, except myself by the way. I wondered with some guys who still had exam period by next week but they (as if) committed suicide by going for a movie. Fortunately exam for me is so yesterday *laugh frantically*, instead, I need to do neverending projects everyday *turn laugh into tears* .

these are the Freaks

'it is here', 'it is there', 'it is cold!'

Anyway, for thou who hath seen Stardust and played Final Fantasy series, I want to share something (not so) interesting. If you notice the Sky Pirate in Stardust, did it resemble the Sky Pirate in Final Fantasy XII ? And what's wrong with the Captain character, he is soo Balfear (minus the freaking scary fetihism of course). Afterwards the shape of the ship really embodies the flying ship in Final Fantasy IX. These are solely my commenting, done without any research, so please don't bother to make rebuttals. I think Neil Gaiman himself is an RPGamer :p.

Please don't try this at home!

Hair-Extreme Makeover

I just had a hair-extreme makeover when I was in Jakarta. Recently most people commented that I do look alike this guy *grinning widely*, especially the hair :

Anyway, thank him for the inspiration *giggle*.

NB
For Thou who hath seen me, admit it XD! I feel like taking over the role of Haruhi in Ouran TV Drama (as if it exists) or the girl-disguised-as-guy tipe in HanaKimi Drama *being throwed by thousands of kunai*.

A Slowpoke’s Grief

Have you ever encountered this problem?

Colleague : What do you want to eat for lunch?
Apratz : Oh I am going to washroom very soon.

Or…

Colleague : What do you do during weekend?
Apratz : Yes, I know weekend is two more days!

Okay, that’s true story indeed. I noticed that I am very slow to catch what people asked (I perceive different things of what people perceive, that’s more accurate way of saying). No, actually I always perceive the wrong things of what people said! This is beyond communication problems, this is brain damage ;_;. I have no idea what to cause this, in fact this bothers me a lot especially during conversation at work (in fact, though I don’t really give a damn regarding casual conversation, it still makes me sad somehow T_T). Moreover, I hardly catch up with works though boss and colleagues are super nice. I always make mistakes in every report I have done! If you have the best colleagues and manager, then you will even give your life to not disappoint them.

I think there’s something wrong with my ear (perhaps I need to wear hearing aid? For God’s sake I am still 21!), or does it lie on my brain? (Maybe I have too many unconnected brain cells or is this derived from family bloodline? *stabbed by shurikens*). But thanks to friends of mine, now I realized the causes of all this.

1) If you are working with numbers, and numbers, and … (did I mention numbers?), while you are not number crouching typical of person, then most likely you will encounter this problem, which is simply called ‘Lethal Unconnection’. We used to call it ‘kaga nyambung’ amongst the Martians up there by the way.

2) If your work is overloaded, and you are still not expert enough to maintain your tasks, while you think of newest episodes of Naruto or Gundam 00 everytime you go for work, then this suffering belongs to you.

Most bloggers always claimed that blogger ought to write something positive or at least advantageous for the readers, instead of just writing lovey dovey story or self proclaimed achievements that make readers vomit thus want to kill the writers. If Naruto said ‘This is my way of ninja’, then I said ‘this is my way of blogging’ *lol*. I do express something beneficial to all of you! Sounds super corny? This is my way of blogging… blogging… blogging… *echoing*.

Meanwhile, tomorrow is Monday *sobbing*. Overloaded work has called me and waited to kill me T_T.

Ergh, what is with this post?

A slowpoke, but it doesnt grief...

Hi Everyone!

Apratz will be having a sudden short-holiday in Jakarta, starting from Wednesday nite to Sunday nite (7/11-11/11).

Reasons mainly because, work is overloaded! I have had enough with work overtime (and even I use my Holy Sunday to learn and study the research materials!) graaaahhh I am stressed over them! I need blood *turns into werewolf XD*. Luckily office will be closed due to renovations and Deepavali holiday. My company rocks ^o^!

So I guess, enjoy your days as I will be enjoying them too for certain ^o^.

Regards,

Apratz

What Naruto boy has a crush on you and what do the Naruto characters think of you?

Gaara has a crush on you! In the exams he hated everyone except there something special about you!

Here is what the characters think of you:
Sakura: I met her once she seemed nice, but later on I learned she can be a little nasty at times. Lee: Full of Youth! But she gets annoyed easily.Tenten: Hm, I guess she is cool.Neji: I don't mind her. She doesent say much though.Shino: She does not mind my bugs so shes ok.Kiba: I don't really know her that well.Akamaru: Bark! (Shes fun at times)Hinata: I don't mind her, she seems nice but she is a little mean to me about not speaking up..Itatchi: ...Who?(The rest of the akatsuki don't really know you either) :(Ino: I like her! We gossip ALL the time! I just did not like it when she said that I looked "fat" in this outfit! Sai: We joke all the time about Naruto. Suprisingly, she gets along with me!Kakashi: She is a wonderfull student and is always focused on her goals!Gai: She is very talented! However, she could lighten up on the insults of me and my spandex!Asuma: She is a good kid.Sasuke: I like her. We talk sometimes and she is like me, but thank goodness she is NOT obessed!Kurenai: I like her, she can actually keep my students in line when I'm away!Tsunade: I like her, she reminds me of me a little.Jiriya: ..I can wait untill she is 18.Orchimaru: Heh, Heh. I have plans in stored for her..Iruka: Shes a smart kid! She always got As on her tests and quizes!Naruto: Ugh! I don't like her at all! She has a lot of nerve!!Shikamaru: I don't really care for her. She always is with Ino and they look at me then laugh!Choji: I don't like her! She is mean!Gaara: I like her a lot! She is pretty cool and just my type. She makes a lot of pain go away.Temari: Well, I don't mind her and Gaara has some feeling for her.Kankuro: She is kinda nasty! However, when ever she is close by Gaara seems to lighten up a bit.
Take this quiz!

Madness, madness, it seems that I will be a Tsundere type in anime/manga female characters, but this result is super interesting XD *grin*

A Series of Unfortunate Events :
Amidst Gaara, Lelouch, Rainy Days and Bus Stop

Work is overwhelming, I am suffocated, unable to breath, I need holiday! Aaanyway…

My parents claimed that they loved to watch Naruto series on Global TV every weekdays night, in which I found it very peculiar. They even can best recall the weird names of the characters. So my freak behavior is really derived from family bloodline *lol*. And recently, I re-watch Naruto (and helplessly foolishly addicted again) starting from the period of Chuunin Exam. I was really taken by it, afterall that explains why I seldomly appear online at msn *grin*. But this is not the core topic petulant me would like to nag about.

Nowadays weather is just bad. During one worst rainy days, stupid me wore High Heels. After working hours, I rushed and ran to the nearest bus stop, so that I can get home safely and switly to watch the newest downloaded episodes of Naruto. That time rain poured badly.

And then with all my remaining power after overwhelmed myself with relentless work, I dashed to the nearest bus stop.

It was raining very hard and I ran with my high heels.

The bus came, and it was about to depart. Afterwards I boosted my speed.

My speed was superb enough, though I wore high heels. Ran Apratz, Ran!

And then I was slipped, doing little but elegant salto in front of everybody there. It was an embarrassing yet magnificent move! I can be a ballerina with it, or being a female ninja would also do! Gaining my balance, I dashed to the bus.

The (stupid idiot moron brainless crappy) bus just nastily ignored me. It went with its becursed smoke, leaving me alone in the midst of the rain.

All of a sudden I realized that all people in the bus stop just gazed at me, showing their weird smile as if they just saw a circus jester making dense moves. Some of them even couldn't hide their laughter!

I was not insulted. I was super duper miserably insulted.

Graaah, I feel like Gaara who is about to devour all people inside the shelters with his ‘Sand Coffin’ technique. I stared at them with glacial look and razor-sharp eyesight. I feel like killing! *sociopath mode*. O’ mine Holy Sand, you can do as you want, devour all these sacrifices! I exist to kill people; I want to prove my existence! Kill!

-_-“

Nay, Gaara is less intellectually stimulating. A second later, I feel like being Lelouch, using his Geass and ordered everyone to ‘jump inside the nearest dustbin!’, so that they all can suffer similar humiliation, experience my shame! So everyone, I won’t kill Thou unless Thou hath hop to the super dirty garbage and humiliate Theeself with unbearable embarrassment! I ordered theeself to jump!

Nothing happened. It was still me standing there, amidst the rain, and snowed under the humiliation sight by people inside the bus stop.

Moral of the story :

1) Girls are not advisable to wear high heels, run to catch the bus during rainy days at the same time.

2) Too much watching anime is damaging, especially if Thou hath freak bloodline bestowed by Thee family

Got this greeting from somebody :

Wassalamualaykum warahmatullah...
Semoga salam persahabatan yang hangat tersampaikan pada kamu di esok hari ketika surya menyingsing fajar
Semoga kucuran kebahagiaan juga terus mengalir dari-Nya sebagaimana matahari yang tetap terus bersinar setiap hari.

dan semoga senyuman selalu tersungging dalam segala kesempatan mengiringi kebahagiaan yang senantiasa mengalir bagai semilir Angin AC di sini.

Thank you very much! I am touched ^o^.

Dear Fellow artiste (or anybody who is interested with manga),

There will be a manga illustration showcase :

KALEIDOSCOPE!

27.10.07 – 28.10.07

MY.PLAYGr0und @ Suntec City Mall, 3^rd level

Open Gallery, Cutting edge artists, and Manga Workshop

Be there =D.

Anyway, I submit one plain art. When I watched Gundam 00 and heard the term ‘Celestial Being’, this is what comes to my mind. It was completed in just 2 hours plus (since I was in the edge of due date to submit the art). It is psychotic, hence I like *grin*.

THE TEMPEST

No, this is not the title of one of Shakespeare’s Masterpiece.

I just experienced devastating event lately. My ex-rummie claimed that she just cut her hair nicely, well done by the senior hairstylist. Given the condition that my hair was so dry and frizzy and messy and so on and so forth, I was so tempted to cut my hair as well. I keep telling myself how I need to reward myself for such hardworking and hardship that I’ve encountered with (that’s bullshit *grin*).

And then I cut my hair.

And then I realized that the cut is so unladylike.

And then I was so depressed!

now it is like this

The cut is really really bishounen-like. I do look like Haruhi right now (minus the adorableness of course *sobbing*)! Now I don’t feel like meeting people at least until 2 weeks from now on.

Okay, perhaps I may look cute if I was a guy, but that doesn’t mean that I want the boyish cut! Luckily Anes gave me hairtonic to stimulate hair growth (and I drink Natur-E everyday!). I want my old haircut back ;_;.

These are my old haircut. I look manly, no? *grin*

Gundam 00, L'Arc-en-Ciel and Loveless...

I am currently head over heels over DAYBREAK’s BELL, L’Arc-en-Ciel’s newest singles that’s being used as an Opening Song of Gundam 00. It sounds merely like Larc in the old days, but Hyde’s vocal becomes better for certain. And, did I mention the lyrics? It was so painful, miserable, and morbid (and thanks to Otaku sama for the translation). The PV is super cool as well, how come Hyde still looks that hot in his 38 O_o ?

I think Gundam 00 resembles Loveless a lot (lookie, Setsuna is definitely Ritsuka without cat’s ears *lol*). Still the storyline will create much controversy as Gundam 00 brought over issue of ‘war of God’ and ‘war to stop war’ after Gundam SeeD erects issue about racism as portrayed in the conflicts between Natural and Coordinator (Am I right to put them into this?).

Nevertheless, my impression toward the first episode of Gundam 00 isn’t as moved as when I was first time seeing Gundam SeeD 1^st episode, when Kira met Athrun in a very heartbreaking way. According to Mr Kiasu’s prediction, ‘Celestial Being’ will suffer conflict of interest from inside, when some youths insist to stop the war and join the bigger entity, while the others decide to go ahead with the status quo. In the end they will kill each other for sure to defend their idealistic views *laugh frantically*. Oh, how I love bishounen in despair! Though to be honest, I hate to wait for 50 episodes to complete T_T.

DAYBREAK'S BELL

hey, is this the only way we can meet? isn't it sad
even at my death, I'd never even wish to end your life ...please

even fate is engulfed into the sunken ocean

wishes, ride on the wind and sound the daybreak's bell!
like a bird, my wishes over their airspace
may they protect you, you who cross beyond the endless wave to face tomorrow
My life I trade in for your pain
O Conflict, cease!

hey, why do people repeat and pile their mistakes?
they don't progress and anyone can spill blood, it's spiteful

with flames they punish each other, on earth that belongs to none

Should a crystal clear future come, even weapons would be adorned with flowers
My wishes over their airspace
someone shake me awake from a nightmare
if only it would come true My life I trade in for your pain
how much must I pray to reach the heaven?

now, morning glow reflects me and the ocean

don't look back, take flight! carry this thought, soar in that sky
no one can shoot down wishes

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Everyday I listened to this song in the office. Now feels like vomitting to listen to it again *bleh* >.<

Selamat Idul Fitri 1428 H
Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Batin

I'm not good at expressing it into words, but please do extend your hand and open your heart, I'm asking for forgiveness =).

I didn't go back home this Eid since I am still in probation period. Moreover, all of my flatmates went back to Indonesia, so I was all alone. It was saddening ;_;.

Chrono Cross : A Question from the Amok Flows of Time

Currently playing this, since I haven’t completed it in the past. Chrono Cross is rated 10 by gamespot.com. Tha game is perfect in terms of storyline, graphics, gameplay, and music (Yasunori Mitsuda composed the scores!).

The story follows the 17 years old Serge, a fine young man of Arni fisherman village. When he was doing sort of contemplation in the seashore, suddenly something feels wrong, he saw flashes of past images wandering within his mind and the ocean waves seemingly devoured him until he collapsed at once. Soon after he gained consciousness, he went back to his village just to find the fact that Serge is no longer exist. According to the villagers the real Serge was drowned when he was 7, and his mum died afterwards. Other peculiar things kept on happening until he realized that he was somewhere in another dimension. He needs to go back to his real world in order to claim his very existence. But before that, (as a typical RPG) he will find this and that, and twists here and there. Don’t ask me about the ending since I haven’t completed it yet. For more infos please visit wiccapedia (wiki for witches :P).

The problem is, I played at night during workdays, and the fact that this month is Ramadhan makes things super worst! I should have been practicing religious activities instead of using my spare time to play RPGs. Nevertheless, as long as I don’t miss taraweh and 5 times prayer every day it shouldn’t be a problem *grin*. Since I was in Junior High, Ramadhan will be my busiest time playing game.

... about working?

First day of work is great by the way. Doing basic research stuffs as well as familiarizing myself to the company business and practices. I need to force myself doing number crouching. The problem is, playing RPG eventually makes your mind assaulted with combos blank and blur even though it sharpens your senses. But I love doing market research instead of doing sales job *vomiting blood*. So let’s hoping the best for this.

Suikoden III : Between the Manga and the Game

I spent the last 10 days in Jakarta, Indonesia in purpose to take brief vacation before start working permanently. The Ramadhan in Jakarta feels so real and apparent as one can easily find religious program in almost all TV stations everyday, especially right before breaking the fast or during the sahur time. I sense emptiness eversince I went back to Singapore, as I couldn’t find similar things in here.

My one of the best RPG in Playstation 2

I waste my time to replay my Suikoden III and choose Hugo as my ‘Flame Champion’ (previously it was Geddoe that I picked) as the review somewhere on the net has stated that the different Flame Champion chosen will change our entire perception toward the storyline. And it surprisingly true.

The manga, simply wonderful and detailed

The thing is, I also read the Suikoden III manga by Aki Shimizu (which made me broke since the books are quite expensive *_*), and I noticed quite major differences amidst the plot. Honestly speaking I fancy the manga more than the game in terms of storyline. Below are some differences that I managed to take note:

1) In the manga, Zexen Knights led by Salome has committed coup’d’etat in Zexen Federation and arrested the Council while in the game, out of nowhere the Zexen Federation joins forces with Grasslanders and never mentions the corrupted Council anymore.

2) In the manga, the Great Hollow of the Lizard Clan was finally fallen to Holy Harmonia Army while in the game, the place is safe and sound.

3) In the manga, Caesar Silverberg even flooded the Duck Village in order to slow the Holy Harmonia Army and make the ways for refugees from Grassland, while in the game, the place is still safe and sound.

4) In the manga, Albert Silverberg is the strategist of Bishop Sasarai, before he deceives Sasarai in the end and joins forces with the masked bishop, while in the game Albert sides with the masked bishop since the beginning.

5) In the manga, Bishop Sasarai is truly powerless and nearly dies after he lost the True Earth Rune. He’s almost killed by Yuber before Nash Clovis comes and rescues him. The whole army of Holy Harmonia is taken from him by the order of Hikusaak, while in the game, it makes no differences that Sasarai lost his Rune or not, since he is still fresh and powerful as ever and leads the whole army of Holy Harmonia.

6) In the manga, Luc replaces Sasarai as Bishop and takes his whole army unit by the order of Lord Hikusaak (in order words, he controls Harmonian Army!) while in the game he goes quartet with Yuber, Albert and Sarah without Harmonian Army.

7) In the manga, Franz is accused for being traitor and facing death sentence by making contact with Geddoe Cs, while in the game, Franz salvages the whole Le Buque people by informing the Fire Bringer and Flame Champion to help him.

8) And so on and so forth (I couldn’t remember because it is too many)

Overall, I enjoy both as they complement each other. And my all time favorite Military Genius in Suikoden Universe is Caesar Silverberg (felt sorry for Lucretia Merces or Shu).

Suikoden II ending that breaks my heart ;_;

Nevertheless, this game didn’t succeed to make me cry a night and day as I did on its previous predecessors, Suikoden I and II. Though the fact that Luc is becoming a bad ass hurts me, since he was my favorite mage in the previous installments. I shocked so badly when getting the bad ending of Suikoden II, especially when Jowy dies! (FYI my email id Camus of Matilda is derived from the finest gentleman in Suikoden II *grin*).

Gorgeous FF XII with worst dungeon system *_*

And I prefer to replay my Suikoden III instead of continuing my Final Fantasy XII just because it is getting draggy and too long! I even have forgotten my main mission throughout the game since I was too busy doing Hunting to collect money, and the dungeon is super long *bleh*. I must admit that I was enchanted by the beginning of the game but after painful long walk from one dungeon to another, I feel sick *_*. But I promised myself to finish this, since I never ever managed to complete Final Fantasy series (it is always stuck in the last Boss Battle, mentioned Kuja or Sephiroth).

In conclusion…

Sometimes I questioned myself of being overly attached with fictional characters. And my conclusion is because their character is so strong, and the development is very well, quite sometimes it is impossible for a normal human being to behave like that. Most of the time they become reflections of ideal self made by human being; a selfless hero, a tragic antagonist or a miserable anti hero. And the more strong the character, the more I feel like knowing them since so long.

And I deny the assumption that gamers are childish; as it is horrendous stereotype made by circumstances around. RPGamers, to be more exact are mostly the thoughtful and tactful type since they are used to any kind of wars, conflict of the throne, tactical battle, and any other type of combat resulting countless of victims (so let’s think to minimize the casualties in every case we’ve encountered in our life!). I always respect the responsible gamers, who are able to balance their time to play as well as to socialize in the society. I hope that someday gaming as hobby is as prideful as playing golf as a hobby.

Not a First Mover

Recently addicted with X tv-series. Okay, I was outdated, it is a 2001-2002 anime series. I followed X and the rest of Clamp’s creations since I was on Junior High, so my era was already over. But after finding out the animes online and downloading them, now I was hooked once more!

I noticed a high resemblance between Kamui and Lelouch, not just the character design but also the personalities as well, afterall they are both Clamp’s twisted characters : lunatic, wicked, hideous, what’s more can we expect?

Suddenly my right hemisphere works hard to capture inspiration, then I draw and draw and draw (using conventional watercolour pencil since I have no scanner anymore). I concluded that my artistic ability isn’t as wretched as I thought. Now I am more passionate to join the art courses, yessh!

My 'Fusion of Lelouch and Kamui' *lol*

Weekly Events

Contemplative or Suicidal? You decide :P

First weekly event, went to Bukit Timah Reservoir to do a lunatic hiking. The valley was lethal to be climbed! I thought I was dead of exhaustion upon the outing ended. It seems that I am too old (and no longer considered youth) since I was often out of stamina.

Majestic IAF 2007

Secondly, went for Indonesian Art Festival 2007. It’s a crystal clear that only Tari Piring and Tari Saman that attract me the most, but in fact I was wrong. Everything was super pretty and splendid, especially that super hilarious ‘Extravaganza’ as fillers, kudos to him and him and him as some of the main casts.

Pretty Ushers of IAF feat. Apratz

In the end I was not able to catch a picture with the performers, since they urged to go back to campus immediately as the bus was waiting impatiently. It was saddening, but I managed to meet and greet some old friend (and seniors) that I’ve never seen for so long.

Alumni of SMA X :P

Oh, and I wrote the IAF booklet, particularly the description for each performance. I created them so hastily that I wasn’t yet satisfy with the results.

Playstation 3 booth

Lastly, I went for Asian Game Convention in Suntec City Singapore! Some people said that it was disappointing, since people are more willing to explore the developers’ booth instead of the consoles’ (but everything there was only the consoles’). There’re lots of Online Gaming booths there, though the graphic was super awesome, I am not into Online gaming.

Mascot of Asian Game Convention 2007

The Playstation 3 booth had nothing much that I noticed except the gorgeous Tekken 5. I want to know more about the next dazzling installment of Suikoden or Final Fantasy (or Chrono series or Tales series and so on and so forth), but I couldn’t find any info with regards to those.

Backdrop of Ragnarok Online

Tired yet happy weekends! I wish I have more time to sleep and enjoy myself at home =D.

Human Beings are Awesome, Nothing is Impossible

Feels like centuries not updating my blog, well, as stated previously, I am dead busy. Having finished my temporary research work in US Consulting firm, I will be working permanently in a UK Market Research firm as Research Associate starting from early October.

I used to be a weak thinker eversince, especially when it comes to numbers. Admittedly, my whatsoever psychological tests always show that my right brain is dominant. Right hemisphere often interprets information through creative and visual cues. It is true that I am suck at Maths, and Sciences (as portrayed in my devastating grades back then).

However, I’ve encountered many number crunching activities lately, especially when working on the research issue. I saw numbers, a lot of them, when investigating about derivatives product, tax, mutual funds, stock exchange and those banking-finance terms. Moreover, I was dare to apply for a research position in every company that I applied. Afterwards, I took the brain-test again to check what my hemisphere favors the best, and voila, now I am the left-brained!

Apret, you are Left-brained

Most left-brained people like you feel at ease in situations requiring verbal ability, attention to detail, and linear, analytical ability. Whether you know it or not, you are a much stronger written communicator than many, able to get your ideas across better than others.

It's also likely that you are methodical and efficient at many things that you do. You could also be good at math, particularly algebra, which is based on very strict rules that make sense to your logical mind.

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That’s not so me *vomiting blood*. Lookie, the sun will arise from the west if this happens!

Anyhow, I realized that human beings have impressive ability to adapt toward their environment, as I experienced recently. Nothing is impossible for human beings because we are the superiors, the most favorable creation of God Almighty. Everything changes, and the only thing stagnants is the change itself. Now I wonder whether I will become a bookworm, introverted, silent thinker in the near future. I will know soon enough >.<.

Marhaban Yaa Ramadhan,

Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa Ramadhan.

Semoga menjadikan kita insan yang lebih bertaqwa.

Mohon maaf atas segala kesalahan dan kekhilafan saya selama ini =).

I was drawn to take this test upon finding it in Bro Fertob's. It was a bit exaggerating -i guess. Nevertheless it boosts my willpower and passion to face the future in bravery! Frankly speaking, I once vowed to master Tarot Card before I graduate, but that's just a pain in the ass kind of wish *giggles*.

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

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Anyway, my sincerest apology for no longer being actively involved in blogging activities (and not regularly visiting blogs in my friendlist. The truth is, I really want to keep myself abreast of all your journal and writings. Some friends even have deleted mine from their friendlist, due to only few clicks I made to visit them. I am dead-busy, I hope that I have 48 hours in a day!

On Being a (manga) artist

Recently I am too busy in involving myself in peculiar yet challenging money business activities. I was doing test and assessment for Research Analyst position in a US-based consulting firm, afterwards doing presentation, analytical and numerical test as well as interview for Research Associate position in a UK-based market research firm, and lastly immersing myself acutely as Temporary Research Assistant in an intergrated research about islamic banking.

I guess I am making myself further away out of the field I delighted.

Do I still have a chance of being an artist? *daydreaming*

I need to go home and think, hopefully ASAP. *crestfallen*

Desire.Less

Have you ever been into this state?

When we were a primary school student back then, we aimed for a prestigious secondary school…

When we were a secondary school back then, we endeavored for an exceptionally-good high school…

When we were a high school student back then, we strived so hard for getting into a first class university…

Starting from there on, all my passion and desire begin to fade away!

And then, after finishing University life, I have no more enthusiasm, no more exact life-planning continuation.

What kind of life shall I’m heading into, since I even begin to estrange my self identity? Why should I do this and that?

Why do I feel this, is this the result of my ‘introduction of corporate life’ that I encounter? What is a so-called real life?

I will be having a psychotherapy as soon as I go back home.

Self Proclaimed Anglophile

Contemplating at hilly Acropolis XD

I was a Greek geek when I was still in Primary school (thus I am a fan of Saint Seiya as well as those bizarre folklores of our humanish Greek gods). My curiosity was paid when I visited Athens-Thessaloniki two months ago. Right after, I have nothing left to dig up from them. So, my Greek era is over.

Notre-Dame du Paris

Painting of Marie Antoinette inside Versailles

Moving to secondary school, I am really into French stuffs. My interest in French was also slightly paid when I visited Paris for 5 days. In fact I was a bit disappointed with it, since there were so many constructions happening within the places of interest, including Versailles (and I have quite a bad experience with the people there). I did respect our notorious Emperor, Napoleon Bonaparte, and curse Englishmen who captured him on a battle at Waterloo England. I did admire our narcisstic sun king Louis XIV.

Napoleon III's Apartment inside Musee du Louvre

I was eager to know more about the French Revolution and how Marie Antoinette was captured during her escape (some said because of her perfume : The Falling of the Rose, whatever) and ended up in guillotine. But that’s it, after knowing a bit about those all, it is the end. I am no longer curious, although I love playing board game called ‘Guillotine’ for the sake of my insanity, since the game told us to chop off head of French aristocrats as much as we could *laugh frantically*.

Recently I am head over heels to anything about the kingdom of Britannia (what I mean is Great Britain, consists of Scotland, England and Wales, and not Britannia kingdom as portrayed in ‘Code Geass’ *grin*).

Godchild, I luuuurve the concept!!!!

1) I was pushing myself to continue buying GodChild series even though I was running out of money, because it is a perfect combination of psychotic, artistic, wicked yet touching and adorable historical dark shoujo manga of Kaori Yuki with SUPER DETAILED Victorian England themes on it. Not to mention that it has gorgeous bishounen-resembles-young Hyde- Cain C Hargreaves along with his charming faithful butler. (Adilla, if you read this, let’s chat night and day about dark-angst and occult stories XD).

taadaa, familiar portrait of Westminster, as shown in Harry Potter the movie

2) London is still my ephemeral city because of its relentless charm and appeal (Okay, this is very subjective). Even though I have visited London for 5 days, I do have a strong willingness to come back there sometime and go inside Westminster Abbey, something that I didn’t do last time. I want to join the Jack the Ripper walk which was held around Westminster area. I want to see mausoleums, tombs and those freaking scary stuffs again with my very eyes.

A torturing device during England 19th century, any idea how to use it?

a killing device *heartthrobs*

3) I am passionate to buy historical references for London’s Necropolis building, Gunpowder Plot, Tudor Era’s scandals, The Great Fire and studying Victorian era. There’s so much to tell, so much to learn about that, though the cost of the book was lethal, and borrowing the book from National Library isn’t my style. (Adilla, if you read this, let’s go for a book hunting again next time XD).

4) Cosplay! I do intend to cosplay in Gothic-lolita style though I cannot (I am not able to perform it physically and financially). I will definitely kill you if you laugh at me *throwing circus knife*. The gothic Lolita style is actually the normal style of little girls’ clothing during the Victorian and pre-Edwardian era. They are so adorable that I cannot take my eyes of them.

5) I am so upset of myself for not fulfilling my minor in English Literature yet I struggled so hard to complete the modules (and was gotten awful grades as a reward).

Foggy London and London Bridge

6) I am currently writing a supposed to be long story depicting Victorian era, a fiction, dark fantasy to be more exact. I did long research just to plot the background story and setting. It is as tiring as studying for the sake of Exams *big grin*.

7) And so on and so forth.

Hence, I become self proclaimed Anglophile starting from now ^o^.

*Anglophile: a person who is fond of English culture.

NBS Convocation Ball :
An Old School Affair

The Fullerton Hotel Singapore

The Ballroom, Lower Lobby
Saturday, 28 July 2007

This is the end, but this is also the beginning

Karina-Wewoen-Melissa-ApratZ-Nancy-Adilla

Thanks for colouring my dull life within the past 3 years, and making my days not so gloomy. I am going to miss all of you =).