Okay, i admit that im so stressed out in the midst of exam fever, hence the changes in layout.

We need positivity!

Other adjustments will be carried out after i am done with this whole damned thing. BANZAI!!!

@#$%^&*())*&^%$$#$#$#@!!!!!!

I am so stressed out lately (and am not emotionally stable). I am a person who'll strive for the best if and only if i follow certain norms and rules; and when those specific guidelines were absent at any circumstance, i'll be totally clueless thus don't know what to do. I really feel like living in the 'Lucy in the sky with diamond'-world x(.

I feel like dying my hair. Any suggestion/comment on what colour to take will be very much appreciated. Muchas Gracias!

Demoralised to the Extreme

I just BOMBED my last test, was lethally INJURED, almost SOLD to the black market and being DEVOURED with no traces.

Perhaps the result was not that bad, but I am dissapointed with myself. I took the wrong path with less cautious strategy. I loathe to think that people do have limitation -HELL NO! People are extravagant, complicated creature created by God; with all the perfection and subtlety. Hence, I refuse to believe about the constraint of human being's ability. We can achieve what we really want, and that will depend on the sacrifices that we are willing to make!

~I continue to fight!~

One of the people that I respect the most told me this :

I mean, you can be a super duper dumbass, but you're cool with it. Karena orang2 seperti ini extra-ordinary. Yang ordinary adalah orang yang berusaha terlihat seperti orang pintar =p

Affirmative. I am perhaps an extreme airhead, but at least I am cool. I don't try to be artificial; I am just trying to chill and enjoy everything. I am no genius and never intend to impersonate one; hence I am cool because I am contented with what I am =p.

~Everything is bright...~

Then she ended her speech with this :

Dearest sister. Orang orang seperti kita ini adalah ignorant dreamer. After all apa yang kk bilang bla bla diatas may sound like an excuse. So ignorant about kenyataan sebenarnya. But who cares ? this is our life. We dream. We happily chase it at any cost. We defy all the common sense that getting in its way. We fall 7 x times but get up 8 x times. We live our life to the fullest and dont leave any single regret behind. We are ever-lasting dreamer after all!

That's equally as epic as Oprah Winfrey's speech in Stanford Convocation *grin*. I almost forgot that I am not good at giving up. I have faced aplenty of adverse situations which are worse than this, and still survived. This.is.nothing. This is neither life-threatening nor dead or alive situation. I won't die because of this alone -exception if God has other plan =p. I won't give up! I am now an ignorant dreamer who will eventually upgrade to everlasting dreamer! But I will continuously challenge myself to be not only a dreamer but also an achiever! God is in His heaven; I am consistently pursuing my dream; all is right with the world.

I have dreams and I don't care about the world.

Having said that, I will again DESCEND to the earth to settle my VENDETTA! I'll go and CONQUER that again next December. Behold, the immense power of an avenger! *sounds of thunderbolt* Revenge is a dish best served cold!

Emperor Lelouch Owns the World

My beloved Indonesians,

Justice the founder of my fabric mov'd:
To rear me was the task of power divine,
Supremest wisdom, and primeval love*

Abandon your choice for presidential election
No, forget the presidential election!
Indonesians won't be needing democrazy!
Indonesians will be needing dictatorship!

Let me be your one and all ruler
Let me be your Emperor
Emperor Lelouch thereby ordered you to be my slave!
HAIL ME!
HAIL ME!
~All hail Emperor Lelouch!~

-__-"

I wont be held captive because of treason, WILL I? *run*

Oh okay, i'll back to the cave, be a 'good' Hikikomori and resume my study.

(*Taken from Dante Aligheri's The Divine Comedy)

PANIC PANIC!!!

My flatmate and I are currently having GMAT-GRE fever. I once discussed with her about GRE vocabularies this afternoon during crazy GMAT-GRE drill in Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf Holland Village, and ended up mistakenly referring 'prodigy' as 'pedigree'.

And 'prodigal' as 'prodigy'

And 'officious' as 'spacious office' (dari Hongkong! iya gw tau!)

And 'abhorrent' as 'abhorrer'

T___________T

We are so stressed out until the waiter asked us to leave because the cafe didn't favor people studying and hogging the seat while so many costumers are coming. Bah!

I will be taking GMAT in 6 October 2008. It cost me a bomb so now im broke to the extreme. Total panic!! I hope my brain is usable by the time I have the test.

So Typical So Boring…

This post is dedicated to my sister who has secured a place in UGM – Accountancy.

Congratulation, Sis – even though I know that you won’t be reading this. Perhaps you don’t realize that I have been so envious of you! You possessed something that I am lacking of, which is perseverance and brain, and ability to conform. Unlike the moron yet adventurous me with tendency to jump prematurely into doing weird things, you can cope really well with your things and finish it smoothly. (inner self : Damn you lucky brainiac! Nerd! Geek! WTF with scoring almost 9 in all subject of the Final Exam and averaging almost 8.5 in the report card? You make me look even dumber! I always took remedial tests for lethal science subjects, and it occurred EVERY bloody semester! Do you think it’s fair? Hah? Haaaahh???)

The Moron and The Nerd

People said, like father like son, like mother like daughter (I made the latest one, whatever). All of my family members have destined to lead the path of an Accountant except for Yours Truly T_T. This family issue has been so typical and so boring for me. With Father being a Public Accountant, Mother has been a Corporate Accountant, Sister being an Undergraduate in Accountancy (and me being a fail business graduate). I think I am the only one going astray. In fact I got admitted into Business faculty by lucky coincidence. Initially I planned to enroll to Art Faculty in Bandung *grin*.

I think life will be merrier if the family composition satisfies the following :
- Father : Bio-molecular scientist experimenting on Frankenstein-look-alike
- Mother : Policewomen in seemingly 'The X-Files'-case department
- Me : Secret Agent cum Gundam Pilot cum Rock Singer (greedy? I am!)
- Sister : Nerd (that suits you, it wont change :p)

-_-“

Okay, sorry, I will wake up.

But seriously yes, instead of doing the same thing everyday, that will only profit gigantic firms and certain conglomerates; I think it’s the time to move on, to give back to the society and the countrymen. Yet, to where shall I jump will be a big question mark. I must get out from this comfort zone as soon as possible. And I am currently trying….

current mood : emo

I've been very gloomy in the past weeks. I have no desire whatsoever to do routine things. And I have no intention whatsoever to continue blogging. My life's been very boring lately.

I wonder if i could jump into a parallel universe and being a bounty hunter, sky pirate, Gundam Meister or Evangelion Pilot. That will truly make us treasure the true purpose of life.

Now i sound like a mix of Nara Shikamaru and Konata Izumi. Whatever *continue to hibernate during weekend*.

~O'God forgive my insolence. I need to be more grateful for all the things in life T_T.

The Never-ending Desperado Chronicles

Yesterday I've made a mistake at work. A very stupid mistake. A mistake that even an idiot perhaps won't do. And today, I was forced to go back to office to revise that stupid thing. Now i wonder where my brain is actually located, maybe it is there... (yes, there, nothing wrong with the location, just that the actual brain volume might be looked weird, whatever!)

Or perhaps the brain actually lies on the butt? I don't know *crying at the corner*

Anyway, i do really want to follow Homer's advice below. I think it is totally awesome, and even more critical, sinister, realistic (and not to mention much more brilliant) than Keynes/Nash/Smith theories ever...

You know what..?

1) It is already 11.42 PM. Midnight. (behold, Cinderella was about to turn back into a poor servant lady!)

2) Apratz just drank 2 bottles of Red Bull (equivalent to Kratingdaeng for those who aren't familiar with). With her determined gaze, she's pulling her hair up and wearing her old-fashioned specs.

3) It's time to get back to work, She feel kinda energized already.

Fact : Due to some dorky mistakes she has done, Apratz needs to redo her work within a super tight and merciless timeline *sobbing*. Kindly cross your finger on Apratz, as she's currently being zombified and ready to devour whoever passes by on her (it seems that she's going to have mental breakdown very soon. For pacification sake, let's call nearest mental hospital before everything is too late).

OSU!

I am damn-seriously tired...

O' Dear Holy weekend, please come faster....

Zombified, Mummified, whatever

I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is there anything I can do rightly?

Anything?