A Quick Note, For Now...

I loathe it when my mother talked to me pertaining to marriage issue...

While hasty generalization sometimes misleads, I personally thought that most ladies perceive marriage until certain point they become a bride -and doesnt really take into account that life must go on after the fairy tale like-wedding, and it will be tough. Reality bites!

Parents, most of them, wish for their kids to be the creme de la creme of the society, especially girls, to be princesses, that own everything from head to toe: from lavish crown to fancy gowns. From stable job and perfect soon-to-be spouse. As if education and physical attractions are not enough, they demand status.

As for me, I am not a realistically ambitious person yet not a strong believer of status either. I just want to be happy and make an endeavor to do the best (and not to be the best -there is a difference!). Why fight for status when it doesnt make a single bit of happiness? Why follow what society thinks while you yourself take all the impossible burden. We are humans, not Hercules who could accept the divine 12 godly tasks. We just want to be happy, ne?

I left my stable job up there, get out from my comfort zone, and make myself blindfolded of all the expectations i could never fulfill. I descend to the land where everything is still uncertain, but I am sure that I will be fine! The mantra is "i dont care, as long as I am happy!". Dont force me to "catch" a random guy, appear as if I am ready to settle down, make an effort to be domesticated, while I am not the one suitable for that role -for now! The difference between mature and childish is: responsibility. As long as we are responsible of our life, and not being a burden to others, that is called an adult! And an adult, could really do everything they wish for, because they are likely to be responsible of their own mess!

Currently, I have never put myself in this situation before. I really DO struggle, academically and financially -and i cant think of anything besides those two. Language issue is my biggest impediment (i never thought that it will be this hard), and secondly, the people. People in my cohort are really the top of the top, both academically and socially. They are both future leader and academicst, party goers who also spend their weekend reading papers. I feel like an insignificant dust over here xD.

Nevertheless, i enjoy the feeling, no, I am grateful for this feeling. We are alive when we are struggling to live :). And after I succeed to conquer all these, I believe that I alone could survive nuclear ;)

Demoralised to the Extreme

I just BOMBED my last test, was lethally INJURED, almost SOLD to the black market and being DEVOURED with no traces.

Perhaps the result was not that bad, but I am dissapointed with myself. I took the wrong path with less cautious strategy. I loathe to think that people do have limitation -HELL NO! People are extravagant, complicated creature created by God; with all the perfection and subtlety. Hence, I refuse to believe about the constraint of human being's ability. We can achieve what we really want, and that will depend on the sacrifices that we are willing to make!

~I continue to fight!~

One of the people that I respect the most told me this :

I mean, you can be a super duper dumbass, but you're cool with it. Karena orang2 seperti ini extra-ordinary. Yang ordinary adalah orang yang berusaha terlihat seperti orang pintar =p

Affirmative. I am perhaps an extreme airhead, but at least I am cool. I don't try to be artificial; I am just trying to chill and enjoy everything. I am no genius and never intend to impersonate one; hence I am cool because I am contented with what I am =p.

~Everything is bright...~

Then she ended her speech with this :

Dearest sister. Orang orang seperti kita ini adalah ignorant dreamer. After all apa yang kk bilang bla bla diatas may sound like an excuse. So ignorant about kenyataan sebenarnya. But who cares ? this is our life. We dream. We happily chase it at any cost. We defy all the common sense that getting in its way. We fall 7 x times but get up 8 x times. We live our life to the fullest and dont leave any single regret behind. We are ever-lasting dreamer after all!

That's equally as epic as Oprah Winfrey's speech in Stanford Convocation *grin*. I almost forgot that I am not good at giving up. I have faced aplenty of adverse situations which are worse than this, and still survived. This.is.nothing. This is neither life-threatening nor dead or alive situation. I won't die because of this alone -exception if God has other plan =p. I won't give up! I am now an ignorant dreamer who will eventually upgrade to everlasting dreamer! But I will continuously challenge myself to be not only a dreamer but also an achiever! God is in His heaven; I am consistently pursuing my dream; all is right with the world.

I have dreams and I don't care about the world.

Having said that, I will again DESCEND to the earth to settle my VENDETTA! I'll go and CONQUER that again next December. Behold, the immense power of an avenger! *sounds of thunderbolt* Revenge is a dish best served cold!

Apratz’ Top 20 (Recent) Random Facts

- I recently feel like crushing myself to the MRT train, jumping into the railway when the train is coming for the sake of curiosity
- I will then make myself conscious by reciting prayers afterwards (??)
- I am paranoid of blood-spilling (haemophobia?)
- I recently think of putting the corrupt government officials in the chamber of gas so that they’ll undergo a slow and painful death
- I am pretty morbid and sadistic at times
- But in fact, I am no fearless at all
- In 5 years time, I see myself as an academic researcher doing a PhD
- I am not good at giving up
- I often overreact toward everything, and make people annoyed afterwards
- I am an extreme headstrong, who won’t hesitate to pester others
- I think I am the most unromantic person in the world
- I think of Facebook and Friendster as a tool to boost up one’s pseudo self actualization
- I respect people because of intelligence above everything
- My mother said that I am the most insensitive person on earth, and I think that might be true
- I hate it when people being a busybody yet I feel like being one for most of the time
- I love Math and Science subject(s), but am suck at them
- If I strike Toto and win $100,000 the first thing I’d do is giving them for charity
- (yet I am never ever interested in trying Toto)
- I am no culinary adventurer and often end up eating the same thing over again
- I hate it when people show their poker face and fabricate their attitudes –I am a strong believer of ‘be-yourself’ slogan
- I wonder what initiates me to do this –because I think this is stupid -_-“

WTF man, I'm a novel ESTJ?

Your Expression Number is 8

Driven and ambitious, you have the potential to reach great things. You're both good with money and good at getting things done quickly. You are an excellent leader and a great judge of character. Full of energy and confidence, you undertake projects that seem impossible. Dependable and determined, you are able to understand the bigger picture. Even if you are not in a position of power right now, it will fall to you. At times, you can be very materialistic - and obsessed with status and power. While this isn't always a bad thing, you sometimes take it to the extreme. In order to be truly happy, you must balance the material and spiritual in your life.

What's Your Expression Number?

I won't give a damn for fortune reading or numeric chasm whatsoever, but i was fairly shocked when i tried this. It suits my MBTI personality as an ESTJ!

I do believe that people can change -in fact people always change! When i was still in Uni -being a fail student-, my MBTI profile was somehow skewed to ESFJ (a compassionate, caregiver archetype) and depicting sympathetic, warm-hearted and loyal personality *vomit blood*.

As i stepped into a dreadful corporate world, i turn into a very sensible individual, with overt judgement towards something. I used to be very competitive and unsecured over something trivial. I am being quite aggressive and set too high standard of myself -which makes me emotionally drained and blames on myself afterwards. To be honest, i'm getting tired of this. I want my old self to resurrect!

I bought some books about self-help during Jakarta Book Fair about a month ago. The titles revolve around 'finding your success', 'getting back your old self', 'smart and smarter', 'Self Hypnosis', 'Finding your dream', 'Hell at Work' (oops!) et cetera, et cetera. I haven't had time to catch up with everything. I hope I can cover some after i take my bloody GMAT.

I AM AN ACUTE NARCISSIST !!!

I had a graduation photoshoot with my hi-school batch who just graduated this year! My Convocation gown has already covered by spider-net and few cockroaches because of the long awaiting! (nay im exaggerating :p).

Esplanade!! Argh hot hot never apply sun-screen lotion -_-"

Gullible 'Angel', heh heh heh XD

His special ability is : Gossiping and taking pics of himself, im just his casualty

'Asal-tapi-koq-jadinya-nyeni' pose

The girls

Im sure that one day if i become a granny, i'll show my grandson these pics ^o^ *corny!*

Anyway, i am looking forward to wear another Convocation gown in the next 2 years; in the different school, different style, different country with more advance 'title'...

This is getting more serious, i mean- dead serious!

I've been sick for the past 2 days when I reached Jakarta. It was not an ordinary health problem -i suppose, since I never experienced that kind of thing in the past (I had weird stomach-pain that makes me hard to breathe and even triggers me to vomit when I start eating). It was until today that I managed to see a Medical Oncologist, in order to find out more about this sickness. The result was more serious than I thought : problems lie not only on the gastric but also liver (and a bit on the bile). I will undergo a holistic medical check up on Tuesday later on.

I guess, this is the result of my bad quality of life that I lead ever since I was a kid, and my current job nature happens to make things even worse.

Now I come to a very serious question.

Shall I quit my current job?

I am a.... (what?)

You Are An ESTJ

The Guardian You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker. Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them. You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities. Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done! In love, you tend to bring stability to relationships. You feel comfortable being in charge, and you enjoy being a provider. At work, you take charge. You thrive in structured environments and don't mind enforcing the rules. You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective. How you see yourself: Realistic, stable, and pragmatic When other people don't get you, they see you as: Rigid, bound to rules, and a bad listener

What's Your Personality Type?

Saw this test in this blog. Last time I tried this test, I was an ESFJ. In conclusion, I have changed from 'Feeling' into 'Thinking' in less than 2 years time =S.

Hair-Extreme Makeover

I just had a hair-extreme makeover when I was in Jakarta. Recently most people commented that I do look alike this guy *grinning widely*, especially the hair :

Anyway, thank him for the inspiration *giggle*.

NB
For Thou who hath seen me, admit it XD! I feel like taking over the role of Haruhi in Ouran TV Drama (as if it exists) or the girl-disguised-as-guy tipe in HanaKimi Drama *being throwed by thousands of kunai*.

What Naruto boy has a crush on you and what do the Naruto characters think of you?

Gaara has a crush on you! In the exams he hated everyone except there something special about you!

Here is what the characters think of you:
Sakura: I met her once she seemed nice, but later on I learned she can be a little nasty at times. Lee: Full of Youth! But she gets annoyed easily.Tenten: Hm, I guess she is cool.Neji: I don't mind her. She doesent say much though.Shino: She does not mind my bugs so shes ok.Kiba: I don't really know her that well.Akamaru: Bark! (Shes fun at times)Hinata: I don't mind her, she seems nice but she is a little mean to me about not speaking up..Itatchi: ...Who?(The rest of the akatsuki don't really know you either) :(Ino: I like her! We gossip ALL the time! I just did not like it when she said that I looked "fat" in this outfit! Sai: We joke all the time about Naruto. Suprisingly, she gets along with me!Kakashi: She is a wonderfull student and is always focused on her goals!Gai: She is very talented! However, she could lighten up on the insults of me and my spandex!Asuma: She is a good kid.Sasuke: I like her. We talk sometimes and she is like me, but thank goodness she is NOT obessed!Kurenai: I like her, she can actually keep my students in line when I'm away!Tsunade: I like her, she reminds me of me a little.Jiriya: ..I can wait untill she is 18.Orchimaru: Heh, Heh. I have plans in stored for her..Iruka: Shes a smart kid! She always got As on her tests and quizes!Naruto: Ugh! I don't like her at all! She has a lot of nerve!!Shikamaru: I don't really care for her. She always is with Ino and they look at me then laugh!Choji: I don't like her! She is mean!Gaara: I like her a lot! She is pretty cool and just my type. She makes a lot of pain go away.Temari: Well, I don't mind her and Gaara has some feeling for her.Kankuro: She is kinda nasty! However, when ever she is close by Gaara seems to lighten up a bit.
Take this quiz!

Madness, madness, it seems that I will be a Tsundere type in anime/manga female characters, but this result is super interesting XD *grin*

THE TEMPEST

No, this is not the title of one of Shakespeare’s Masterpiece.

I just experienced devastating event lately. My ex-rummie claimed that she just cut her hair nicely, well done by the senior hairstylist. Given the condition that my hair was so dry and frizzy and messy and so on and so forth, I was so tempted to cut my hair as well. I keep telling myself how I need to reward myself for such hardworking and hardship that I’ve encountered with (that’s bullshit *grin*).

And then I cut my hair.

And then I realized that the cut is so unladylike.

And then I was so depressed!

now it is like this

The cut is really really bishounen-like. I do look like Haruhi right now (minus the adorableness of course *sobbing*)! Now I don’t feel like meeting people at least until 2 weeks from now on.

Okay, perhaps I may look cute if I was a guy, but that doesn’t mean that I want the boyish cut! Luckily Anes gave me hairtonic to stimulate hair growth (and I drink Natur-E everyday!). I want my old haircut back ;_;.

These are my old haircut. I look manly, no? *grin*

Human Beings are Awesome, Nothing is Impossible

Feels like centuries not updating my blog, well, as stated previously, I am dead busy. Having finished my temporary research work in US Consulting firm, I will be working permanently in a UK Market Research firm as Research Associate starting from early October.

I used to be a weak thinker eversince, especially when it comes to numbers. Admittedly, my whatsoever psychological tests always show that my right brain is dominant. Right hemisphere often interprets information through creative and visual cues. It is true that I am suck at Maths, and Sciences (as portrayed in my devastating grades back then).

However, I’ve encountered many number crunching activities lately, especially when working on the research issue. I saw numbers, a lot of them, when investigating about derivatives product, tax, mutual funds, stock exchange and those banking-finance terms. Moreover, I was dare to apply for a research position in every company that I applied. Afterwards, I took the brain-test again to check what my hemisphere favors the best, and voila, now I am the left-brained!

Apret, you are Left-brained

Most left-brained people like you feel at ease in situations requiring verbal ability, attention to detail, and linear, analytical ability. Whether you know it or not, you are a much stronger written communicator than many, able to get your ideas across better than others.

It's also likely that you are methodical and efficient at many things that you do. You could also be good at math, particularly algebra, which is based on very strict rules that make sense to your logical mind.

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That’s not so me *vomiting blood*. Lookie, the sun will arise from the west if this happens!

Anyhow, I realized that human beings have impressive ability to adapt toward their environment, as I experienced recently. Nothing is impossible for human beings because we are the superiors, the most favorable creation of God Almighty. Everything changes, and the only thing stagnants is the change itself. Now I wonder whether I will become a bookworm, introverted, silent thinker in the near future. I will know soon enough >.<.

I was drawn to take this test upon finding it in Bro Fertob's. It was a bit exaggerating -i guess. Nevertheless it boosts my willpower and passion to face the future in bravery! Frankly speaking, I once vowed to master Tarot Card before I graduate, but that's just a pain in the ass kind of wish *giggles*.

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

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Anyway, my sincerest apology for no longer being actively involved in blogging activities (and not regularly visiting blogs in my friendlist. The truth is, I really want to keep myself abreast of all your journal and writings. Some friends even have deleted mine from their friendlist, due to only few clicks I made to visit them. I am dead-busy, I hope that I have 48 hours in a day!

On Being a (manga) artist

Recently I am too busy in involving myself in peculiar yet challenging money business activities. I was doing test and assessment for Research Analyst position in a US-based consulting firm, afterwards doing presentation, analytical and numerical test as well as interview for Research Associate position in a UK-based market research firm, and lastly immersing myself acutely as Temporary Research Assistant in an intergrated research about islamic banking.

I guess I am making myself further away out of the field I delighted.

Do I still have a chance of being an artist? *daydreaming*

I need to go home and think, hopefully ASAP. *crestfallen*

Desire.Less

Have you ever been into this state?

When we were a primary school student back then, we aimed for a prestigious secondary school…

When we were a secondary school back then, we endeavored for an exceptionally-good high school…

When we were a high school student back then, we strived so hard for getting into a first class university…

Starting from there on, all my passion and desire begin to fade away!

And then, after finishing University life, I have no more enthusiasm, no more exact life-planning continuation.

What kind of life shall I’m heading into, since I even begin to estrange my self identity? Why should I do this and that?

Why do I feel this, is this the result of my ‘introduction of corporate life’ that I encounter? What is a so-called real life?

I will be having a psychotherapy as soon as I go back home.

Self Proclaimed Anglophile

Contemplating at hilly Acropolis XD

I was a Greek geek when I was still in Primary school (thus I am a fan of Saint Seiya as well as those bizarre folklores of our humanish Greek gods). My curiosity was paid when I visited Athens-Thessaloniki two months ago. Right after, I have nothing left to dig up from them. So, my Greek era is over.

Notre-Dame du Paris

Painting of Marie Antoinette inside Versailles

Moving to secondary school, I am really into French stuffs. My interest in French was also slightly paid when I visited Paris for 5 days. In fact I was a bit disappointed with it, since there were so many constructions happening within the places of interest, including Versailles (and I have quite a bad experience with the people there). I did respect our notorious Emperor, Napoleon Bonaparte, and curse Englishmen who captured him on a battle at Waterloo England. I did admire our narcisstic sun king Louis XIV.

Napoleon III's Apartment inside Musee du Louvre

I was eager to know more about the French Revolution and how Marie Antoinette was captured during her escape (some said because of her perfume : The Falling of the Rose, whatever) and ended up in guillotine. But that’s it, after knowing a bit about those all, it is the end. I am no longer curious, although I love playing board game called ‘Guillotine’ for the sake of my insanity, since the game told us to chop off head of French aristocrats as much as we could *laugh frantically*.

Recently I am head over heels to anything about the kingdom of Britannia (what I mean is Great Britain, consists of Scotland, England and Wales, and not Britannia kingdom as portrayed in ‘Code Geass’ *grin*).

Godchild, I luuuurve the concept!!!!

1) I was pushing myself to continue buying GodChild series even though I was running out of money, because it is a perfect combination of psychotic, artistic, wicked yet touching and adorable historical dark shoujo manga of Kaori Yuki with SUPER DETAILED Victorian England themes on it. Not to mention that it has gorgeous bishounen-resembles-young Hyde- Cain C Hargreaves along with his charming faithful butler. (Adilla, if you read this, let’s chat night and day about dark-angst and occult stories XD).

taadaa, familiar portrait of Westminster, as shown in Harry Potter the movie

2) London is still my ephemeral city because of its relentless charm and appeal (Okay, this is very subjective). Even though I have visited London for 5 days, I do have a strong willingness to come back there sometime and go inside Westminster Abbey, something that I didn’t do last time. I want to join the Jack the Ripper walk which was held around Westminster area. I want to see mausoleums, tombs and those freaking scary stuffs again with my very eyes.

A torturing device during England 19th century, any idea how to use it?

a killing device *heartthrobs*

3) I am passionate to buy historical references for London’s Necropolis building, Gunpowder Plot, Tudor Era’s scandals, The Great Fire and studying Victorian era. There’s so much to tell, so much to learn about that, though the cost of the book was lethal, and borrowing the book from National Library isn’t my style. (Adilla, if you read this, let’s go for a book hunting again next time XD).

4) Cosplay! I do intend to cosplay in Gothic-lolita style though I cannot (I am not able to perform it physically and financially). I will definitely kill you if you laugh at me *throwing circus knife*. The gothic Lolita style is actually the normal style of little girls’ clothing during the Victorian and pre-Edwardian era. They are so adorable that I cannot take my eyes of them.

5) I am so upset of myself for not fulfilling my minor in English Literature yet I struggled so hard to complete the modules (and was gotten awful grades as a reward).

Foggy London and London Bridge

6) I am currently writing a supposed to be long story depicting Victorian era, a fiction, dark fantasy to be more exact. I did long research just to plot the background story and setting. It is as tiring as studying for the sake of Exams *big grin*.

7) And so on and so forth.

Hence, I become self proclaimed Anglophile starting from now ^o^.

*Anglophile: a person who is fond of English culture.

Convocation Day!

How was my convocation day? It was both exciting and saddening =p.

With precocious Adilla, my best buddy and my FYP partner

She is still very young, 19 years old and completing her bachelor's degree! What a genius! I am always grateful to have her at my side, as she's more modest and mature than me though I am older than her XD. Thanks, thanks for everything ;).

With Aninto, most probably brilliant guy I'm closest with, a good advisor in times ;)

Thanks for giving me advice and everything while I'm lost, thanks for countless deep chats, thanks for everything ^o^.

With Aconk, my 'Angel' XD, you've done your role impressively, I would give you an A ^o^

With Dhana, a brotherlike guy who always lend me a hand while I need

With Adilla and Otaku-sama, duo weirdos with bizzare yet enlightening points of views ^o^

With Karina, damn smart pretty lady, i really adore her and am going to miss her so badly

I am always being her burden in times, when we were applying for accommodation, registering for extra curricular activities, constructing resumes and cover letter together, copying tutorials (i was copying her by the way), studying together for exam, gossipping anything worthwhile to during the dull nights, etc. She's always there, without even scolding or blaming me at all for my mistakes. Thank you very much, I am going to miss your kindheartedness T_T.

Two genius brothers that I admire (and will always be), thanks for coming T_T

I once saw them when I was still an innocent first grader, and I wasn't even popular at all while being the moving grass, but they were the first to approach me as if giving me silent support to 'pursue' them. Right after that, I passionately joined the English Debating Squad in order to regenerate their position as the senior debaters. Thanks very much bros.

With Bro Hamid, my perfect gossip partner

As if being a news seeker wasn't enough, he claimed himself as 'the man closest to god of gossip'. Well, that's a joke. He is a brother, a friend, an advisor, a helper, an assistant, a servant.. (stop it XD). Thanks very much for granted me your critical views while I was still in Copenhagen. Thanks very much for collecting my invitation card, thanks for everything, promise me that the gossip won't ever be stopped until we draw our last breath, hauhahaha XD.

With Bhro, a guy without 'heart', my gullible 'Mortal' ^o^

With Tegar, a 10,000 dollar guy XD

With Rizaldi, the guerilla night-chatter, benevolent helper =)

With Roomie, my super duper hillarious roomie ^o^

She's the best roomie ever (while I am the worst T_T). She's a hardworker, a meticulous yet ultra friendly and energetic girl, whom I leant so much from. Thanks very much for your kind attention, extra care, advice, everything, and everything. A Putu makes Apret, Apret XD. Thanks for the graduation gift as well. Please graduate as fast as possible so that we could be in the same roof again!

Some members of Superbatch65ers, I'm going first =)

It was such a memorable moment when you saw a lot of friends coming down to congratulate you, even if they have to wake up very early in the morning =). I feel very much loved and appreciated. Thank you very much!

But it was miserable that I ought to leave the school ;_;. I am not a working person, I am a learning type (slow learner to be more exact). I do love to learn everything instead of working >.<.

From now on, it is Apret, Bachelor of Business (Honours) *absolute narcisstic mode=on*

P.S. I too much enjoyed myself taking pictures with friends that I don't have any decent picture with my family!!!! *sobbing*

[Apret, B.Bus (Honours)]

Copycatting from my dearest’s blog =p, since I am not creative enough to write serious thing XD.

Alhamdulillah, that long and winding journey ends here. So this is just an acknowledgment for some parties that have been so helpful during these three years :

• Allah SWT, for everything you have given me until this moment. I do believe that you have planned the best thing for me throughout my life. Alhamdulillah, and I know that You are the most merciful, the most compassionate, so I won’t stop to ask You for everything, since human beings like me are so fragile and powerless

• My parents, for every support and prayers. My parents never ever asked me about how my Exam was, or how did I perform academically, instead they only told me to “eat more, rest more, pray more”, coz they understand how hard my effort was, so they disinclined to pressure me by asking questions that made me distress =).

• My sister, who always scolding and mocking me when I were home, and tell me about how clumsy I am (but I know that deep down inside she is admiring me *big grin*).

• My Applied Research Projects partners, Adilla Anggraeni and Abdullah Rubaet Chowdury. I am so sorry for overwhelming you with this, ever since I flee to Copenhagen, both of you have tried hard to accomplish those mundane tasks without my presence. Thank you for all of your understanding, we are a perfect team indeed (according to MBTI test =p).

• My wonderful and talented NBS fellows who always encourage me to work hard and chase them, Karin, Wewoen, Melissa, Ronal, Nancy, Fieda, Anes, et cetera, et cetera.

• My NTU fellows especially 2004-2005 batch (my batch)

• Superbatch Sixtyfivers, we entered college at the same time, but I am so sorry that I will be out 1 year earlier than all of you. The truth is, I don’t want to graduate, I want to still enjoy school-life. I don’t want to enter the dreadful corporate life =(.

• Those who killed my boredom by entertaining me via msn every night, Otaku-sama, Rizaldi, Bhro, my roomie *grin*

• Fellow bloggers in my friend-list =).

• And you, yes, you, who are currently reading this! I would like to thank everyone but you (who I haven’t mentioned before). I am very sorry since I have limited ability to memorise

And after hearing insightful conversation in Canteen 2 last night, with him and him as main speakers, I got the conclusion that, no matter how bad your grades are, you are still a holder of bachelor degree *grin*, as you will only see this in the name card :

Apret Cantik dunkz, B.Bus (Honours)
Desa Sukamakan
Kecamatan Sukamiskin
RT 5 RW 3
Phone : 0809999999

And not like this :

Apret Cantik dunkz, B.Bus (Honours)
(With First Class loh, hore hore hore yeyeyeyey!)
Desa Sukamakan
Kecamatan Sukamiskin
RT 5 RW 3
Phone : 0809999999

Or like this :

Apret Cantik dunkz, B.Bus (Honours)
(First Class loh, EUREKA pula! Keren khan?horeee horeee)
Desa Sukamakan
Kecamatan Sukamiskin
RT 5 RW 3
Phone : 0809999999

-_-“

Anyway I ought to sleep right now, since I feel like my brain doesn’t function normally.

HOW CAN I AM NOT TANNED?

My roomie scolded me for not paying extra care attention to my skinface (now it was horrible, I think =S). And I assume that this is because of my Greece trip =(.

It was burning in Acropolis! Burning HOT! Anyway, this is the famous Pantheon

It was (again) super duper HOT! HOT! (and stupid me wearing black T_T). Taking stairs to hilly Acropolis

Aegina Island, pretty small island nearby Athens (see how i look like, PHANTOMED DARK!)

In case you didn't notice, the sun here is super STRONG and FIERCE, though it seems gloomy

Please look at my hand and voila, see the differences!

Give me back my Copenhagen-fairness T_T...

Somebody has raised an interesting issue: why my blog turned into periodical traveling journal instead of personal one?

“Even at his most powerless, man’s existence is never without meaning”
(Luc in Suikoden I)

To be honest I hate to bitch about anything damaging both my mind and heart. If something bothers, I shall sleep and forget everything since popular belief said that ignorance is a bliss. But please forgive my insolence; since I need to grief for a moment.

I’m sick of being under-estimated and an oblivious subject. I am just a human being with very limited patience. I hate conflicts so much that I prefer to conform rigidly even though I dislike those. I don’t want to sweat my stuffs over any detrimental issue. I will say yes though my heart says no. I just want to hinder quarrels so badly, and that’s all.

I thought I never looked down at anybody that I met (or at least, am trying hard to), because I notice that everybody has his own strengths and weaknesses. They must be having something that we don’t have, and the same thing applies to us, so why start to compare and claim that one’s the greatest?

I realized that I’m nothing, and still nothing compared to others, but please, there’s no advantage of bitching about my weaknesses and acting as if Thou are the most righteous of all, the infinite individual, the absolute one, the most perfect being, Oh~. We never know what will happen in the future (and what will happen to Thou and me next).

I have met so many superior wannabes, several ungratefuls and plentiful arrogants. It is saddening yet frightening that one can be so proud of oneself while one is actually just a helpless being for the Creator Himself.

I am so upset of myself that I just can nod at something I disgrace (and afterwards laugh at my hopelessness).

I am not powerless. I just wish for harmony to hinder dispute.

And I don’t detest superiors, really.

Bishounen Crisis

I am about to lose my sanity, every plot and idea that I could ever think about is anomaly. Today I spent my time procrastinating and watching Haitsu-fanservice* in Youtube. Everything is overwhelming with bishounen** and shonen-ai*** (I urge to go to psychiatry!). Alas, I blame the distress over my very least preparation of exams which caused me to release an immense negative energy X(.

I desperately need to study and not fantasize over bizarre plot! Argh!

Footnote :
* A slash-attraction (often put emphasis on sexual appeal) meant to fascinate fans in the live shows or concert, usually did by J-Rock bands. Haitsu is abbreviated from Hyde and Tetsu, players who commit the fan-service.
** Beautiful guys in school-aged
*** BoysxBoys homogenous relationship, specifically the more warmth and light one

Here are facts for today!

Fact no 1
The image is the result of doing a side job while studying at the same time, using my digital camera (whose battery-charger was foolishly left in Sist’ Myra’s place in Amsterdam). Hurrah, I don't need a scanner to manipulate my drawings!

Fact no 2
Doing brute force and battle royale in sending resumes to 7 companies in one day (since I adopt Julius Caesar’s Vini-Vidi-Vici which means I come-I see-I conquer! I bumped into careerhub.com, I saw countless job opportunities, and I sadistically applied everything that matched my preferences XD). Please cross your finger on me ^o^.