Please Don’t Go With the Wind

No matter how much heaven wants you for its sake
Another me will always try to catch you
So that you won’t be disappeared with the wind

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These recent months I have been very busy looking for good story that I favor so much. Kindly note that it has to be bloody, angsty, has blatant ‘boys love’ aspect and full of controversy and lethal twist, so I guess it won’t be that easy to find at least one.

And then I am thinking, hey, why don’t I create one?

And so, it has been completed around 60% of total. Initially I planned to submit this so-called novel to one of teen-literature competition back in Indonesia, but then again, I got so pessimistic considering that it might not be suitable with the local taste. Moreover, the deadline will be on the 6^th of March. Well, looking at my current workload that enables me to work overtime until the end of March, I think that is not possible to aim for that competition. Let’s try to be more realistic (if not ‘pragmatic’). Forget that baby, lets make it for the personal consumption purpose instead!

Since I am a geek for those psychological and murder issue, the storyline has been centered around the themes of angsty, murder, unconditional love (and pretty much normal love as well!), not to mention it has abundant of characters having problems with obsessive compulsive, dependent, histrionic, pedophilic, narcissistic, emo =p, split personality disorder, superiority and inferiority complex, suicidal, psychotic, anti-social, and schizotypal (stop right here, otherwise I might end up copying from psychology textbook).

However, currently I am not in the mood to write, as the project has been discontinued since the beginning of February due to my crazy workload. As soon as I am done with office business, I will start writing again.

* pardon the lousy illustration, it was made above a failure report paper during working hours T_T

I feel like writing stories.

In times of adversities, insomniac, anxiety and such, myriad peculiar inspirations swell in my mind. They come up in the form of stories –sad, intriguing and angst plot to be more exact (I have no idea why I sweat so much when trying to build up lovely and pleasant plot T_T).

First Plot :

Rhapsody of Lady Murasaki

My name is ‘death’, coz my parents want me to be dead

And I want you too, to be dead

Toru, A popular composer meets a strong-willed boy-prostitute in a night club, whose fearless eyes leave him with great impression. The day after, he meets a street performer having the same eyes (and not to mention face) with him. Interestingly, he doesn’t seem to know him as well as their previous meeting. His name is Sai. He is very decent and shy but he can sing very well.

Toru then tries Sai to sing his composed songs, and he can perform it naturally without hesitation. Toru then reform a band called ‘Lady Murasaki’ with Sai as vocalist and lyricist, while he acts as just an outsider and let the band gains fame with their own effort. It is not hard times for them, since Sai’s angelic voice has power and his lyrics are so transparent and honest, both a reflection and satire of contemporary society nowadays. ‘Lady Murasaki’ becomes an icon and is loved by so many people.

Strange things happen when ‘Lady Murasaki’ released their first complete-album. A number of suicides in the town begin to increase steadily. By the time they released their third complete-album, most of their fanatic fan-girls are killed, either by committing suicide or having unnatural death. This is questioned by Toru who has neither evidence nor proof that ‘Lady Murasaki’ itself is involved. He wants to meet Sai but is unable to; since they are getting very popular.

‘Lady Murasaki’ is going to have a large-scale live concert. Toru is watching them rehearse, and suddenly realizes there is something strange with Sai. The one sings in podium is no longer Sai, that heavenly voice, those deadly moves, that infectious fiery glare, those are him. Him, whom Toru met two years ago. He noticed Toru’s presence and then smiles to him.
“Welcome to the world of the dead, Toru”.

Story ends, I don’t know how to go afterwards >_<. I should spare more time to ponder and fantasize *slapped by rottentomatoes*.

It seems like I am a maniac of death issue =S. The truth is, I AM very paranoid of death, and even write these things make me shiver *it’s true*. I’ve been thinking about this plot long time ago, and I guess it has more twists at that time (but I already forgot). The second plot is in progress, I’m still thinking of the appropriate names and title (but the theme is still around murder and death issue *boohoo*).