Down the trails of the beats,
roar along lions and tigers.
Yonder the glowing sky is a paradise.
A youth lost in the prison of loneliness asks:
Weakness and anger, are they enemies without shape?

("Eulogy of a Chivalrous Youth" –ALI Project) Ending Theme of Code Geass
~Translation by Police Grammar

Goodness!

'Code Geass : Lelouch of the Rebellion' is so damn cool!

Police Grammar has encouraged me to watch this series. At the beginning I wonder whether this anime depicts some aspects of fan-service or such -Police Grammar’s all time favorites-, but after watching the first episode I am truly captivated by its twisted storyline, gorgeous characters design (as they were made by CLAMP), twisted storyline, swift and heartbreaking battle, twisted storyline, stunning soundtracks and more importantly twisted storyline =P.

It has tons of Bishounen afterall (Aaaa kakkoi na Lelouch-kun to Suzaku-kun!! *nosebleeding*)

Conversation between God and a Sinner :

“O Dear God, I’ve committed those 10 unforgivable sins, what should I do to redeem my sins?”
(Sounds of thunderbolt and earthquake) “Redemption, O’ Thou shalt study until thy last drop of blood!”

And here I am, altogether with some devoted single fighters to commit loyalty for Examination Wisdom. Studying until half die in Canteen, right after Library was closed down.

Karina, Business/3rd year (double major in Banking& Finance and Accountancy) -still single^^-
I'm lucky to have her as a neighbor, since she sometimes miss-called me in the morning (just to find out that I was felt asleep again after receiving her calls) and nicely hogged me a seat in the super crowded Library every morning. Really admire your tremendous effort and down to earth-ness. Good luck for you, girl ^^.

Apret, Business/3rd year (Marketing), but currently studying English Literature just to pursue a Minor.
Er, honestly speaking i'm not that fatso as appeared in the photo, but sometimes certain angle can make you look fat. No, I mean I'm not fat ever since there's no standard deviation in my current weight. And, did i mention that i'm not gaining weight during exam period? Oh well, perhaps readers could take myopic lenses to prove that i'm not fat. Oh whatever!

Dhana, Civil Engineering/3rd year, Mr. Absolute Histrionic^^
I can understand well if girls commit narcisstic acts, but not for guy! Amongst tons of my exam photos in my Handphone, two third of them were his photos. Aaaaaaaa *killed by his unevocative narcissm*.
Anyway, all the best for exam^^.

Doni, Electrical and Electronics Engineering/3rd year
A rumor stated that he will undergo his attachment in Accenture *sounds of fireworks*. He keeps refused to take picture, this time I finally get his. Good luck for you!

Actually there are some people coming with us, but since i were not able to catch their images then i feel sorry for them^^.

Went to Royal Danish Embassy to apply Visa, and was quite shocked to find out that its processing time for Indonesian takes about 2-3 months *fainted*, while Singaporean needs only 1 week for proceeding. Meanwhile, I’ve issued the ticket already. Gosh, I hope everything goes well at least 2 weeks before my departure.

Had a short chat with Au Rora regarding this matter (along with its dilemma and ‘theatrical twist’), and she said firmly “just find your own path”. Thanks girl ^^.

I will be going for exchange to Copenhagen Business School Denmark in Spring semester. Primarily I only take 1 core Marketing subject (but am thinking of joining Danish Course and English Oral Presentation for Business –in order to improve my awful expression in English-).

Reasons to apply:

1) Copenhagen sounds cool anyway ^^
2) Man, it’s a part of Scandinavian country, means tons of grotesque medieval castles and gorgeous palaces were there! (screaming of a Role Playing Game fan ^^)
3) I’m fed up with German and French and intend to learn Danish
4) I want to banish this Singlish accent T_T
5) I aim to gain international exposure and become Indonesia ambassador
6) Going to somewhere in the state is much expensive
7) Going to England is troublesome, since we should apply for additional Schengen Visa and are unable to travel along the entire Europe as easy as those staying in Germany, France or such

Nah, that’s all a lie!

Only the first and second points come from the bottommost of my heart. No 3 is definitely a lie! No 4 is really inevitable! No 5 is one rubbish sentence I wrote in the essay and resume. No 6 and 7 are additional lies ^^.

Anyway please cross your finger on me *sobbing*.

(images on the top is Copenhagen Business School from inside that i got from googling^^)

10 Commandments of Exams :

1) Thou shalt not watch any anime during exam period
2) Thou shalt camp in library until its closing time
3) Thou shalt not involve in sinful gaming activities
4) Thou shalt not watch L'Arc-en-Ciel AWAKE Tour in Library PC -_-"
5) Thou shalt not download any scanlation during exam period
6) Thou shalt not open anime/manga conversation with your study mate in library
7) Thou shalt not touch IRC, especially Rizon channel
8) Thou shalt not oversleep and overweight during exam
9) Thou shalt study until thee last breath
10) Thou shalt study and study and study (and not opening blogger.com and type this whole rubbish!)

What a sin, what a sin, what a sin. O’ God I beg your forgiveness.

Whatever, I just don’t care anymore.

I am currently tagged by Peace Maker Kurogane and enchanted by Okita Souji’s high level of evocative charisma. In fact, Okita Souji is a living legend prodigy who joined Shinsengumi, a special force of the late shogunate period in Japan. He is the captain of the 1^st troop in Shinsengumi. He looks jovial and childlike in person but turns out to be a cold blooded demon when he is on duty. His dual personality makes him super cool, no wonder countless of manga artists are deeply inspired by him ^^.

Soujiro Seta, my favourite character in Rurouni Kenshin does resemble him so much, ever since they shared the same swordsmanship skill (as they both possess Kikuichi as their wielded famous katana), though Soujirou is just a fictional character.

However Okita died at the age of 25 because of tuberculosis (his illness was discovered when he was coughing blood and fainted in Ikeda-ya affair *anybody who watch Rurouni Kenshin OVA definitely will recall this scene*).

These photographs are to familiarize yourself with Souji-kun ^^

Okita Souji in Kaze Hikaru ~a manga by Taeko Watanabe
He looks manly in this series.

Okita Souji in Rurouni Kenshin (Samurai X)
He is really Soujiro Seta's doppleganger (well in fact Soujiro is inspired by him anyway ^^)

Okita Souji in Peace Maker Kurogane

I love this portrayal the most! Souji-kun is really gentle and soft^^.

By the way, why Souji-kun is always associated by bishounen and childlike images (even gorgeous at sometime)? Even though I know for sure that the real Souji might not be that good looking as those fake portrayal =P.

Went to Tegar's blog and was purposely trying this test =P.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	Low
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	Low
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	Low
Dependent Personality Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High

Thank God, at least i am still normal *lolz* (and more importantly, i AM NOT NARCISSISTIC!) XD

When poison pills seem to be more celestial than heavenly fruit…

Today I was being scolded by my Literature lecturer. Well, she mentioned that my structure of essay is wholefully messy and wild, the entire expression of English is at faulty, and that is uneven called a piece of work. I was stunned and suffocated at that moment. Knowing that you’ve done poorly for the thing you love is an utter pain. While I was sitting in the library, I even cannot concentrate for a single moment, especially when those commentaries wandering in my empty mind.

But the thing is, I intend to take Literature module due to my lack of understanding in English, and I want to improve that so badly. I am keen to write and love to read, though those motives might not enough to be proficient in Literature.

Luckily, Bro Hamid has returned my self esteem by saying that he never heard about someone majoring in English Literature turn out to be a million dollar writer and noble receiver. We write because we want people to understand what our thinking is, and to meet that particular aim, no need to produce an ‘A’ literature essay, as everybody can write everything they like. That is, -pardon the pun- indeed true! Hail Bro Hamid!

By the way, just walking to Ddee’s blog and trying this test =P

You Are a Bright Star Soul

Like a shining star, you have no trouble being the center of attention In fact, you often feel a bit hurt when all eyes aren't on you You need to be number one in everything, no matter how trivial And it's this ego that both hurts your confidence and helps you acheive You're dramatic and a powerhouse of pure energy You posess a divine quality or uniqueness that's hard to define A natural performer, it's likely you'll become famous in some circles. Just learn not to take everyone's reaction to you so personally! Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul and Prophet Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

My goodness, I am not an exhibitionist. In fact I am just a shy and tacit girl T_T

Examinations and Wishes : A Tribute

To : Apret
Buat rummie gw, cayo FYP-nya. Ganbatte yaaa
~ Rummie yg mau ditinggalkan

Fur my lovely roomie, thank you very much and please cross your finger on my FYP. Good luck for you as well; I know you will be able to make it in exams (since you can endure to push yourself that hard). And if everything goes well, you will miss me for one whole semester =).

To : Apret
Apret, apret, apret, makasih yaa, buat insight2nya kemarin2. Met belajar buat exam yaa, semoga impiannya setelah lulus nanti tercapai, amin! All the best!
~Fika

Dearest Fika, the truth is you are the one who grant me those invaluable insights and advices. Going with the status quo is so yesterday, hence I should thank you in showing me how to cautiously deal with hesitation and respond quickly to the challenges. All the best for your final year, let’s save the best for the last! =)

To :Apratz

Apratz, makasih banyak bantuannya selama ini, mulai dari GL GTD8, makanan & snack-nya, ampe nasehat2 en dukungan morilnya. Aku doain moga2 hasil examnya memuaskan en sukses buat Exchange-nya ya!

~Dhana

Dearest my all-time best partner in crime, no thank me, thank you! Honestly speaking, you are one of my role model, as you can laugh in both joy and adversity, strive so hard to fulfill your recent ambitions and are able to position yourself within all situations (though needless to say, you are also a suitable colleague in gossiping up to date affairs and spreading grapevines in no mercy XD). I must thank you for setting me those fruitful examples. Really wishing you a grand triumph in doing exams =).

To : Apret
Sukses buat exam terakhir di NTU.
NB, beliin gw sepatu donk, Converse ya =P
~Orang Baek

-_-“ Dear Orang Baek, good luck for you as well, and hopefully this is really my last exam in NTU (and next semester’s exams will be done in Copenhagen =P). Later I’ll present you Converse keychains, until that time to come please bear with Hang-Ten T-shirt XD.

Untuk Fans setiaku
Konnichiwa! Katanya kamu penggemar berat saya yah? Padahal saya juga penggemar berat kamu lho!
Sukses FYP nya! Dan jangan lupa beli album saya yang terbaru
~Hyde

Dearest my cutesy wutesy Hyde, it is very sweet of you, coming down to Singapore and sending me this lovey dovey wishes XD.
In a nutshell, next time please just send me L’arc-en-Ciel’s concert pass for VIP guest, or else, your recent private live performance is also acceptable XD.
For your information, I illegally downloaded your latest album at the first day it was officially launched *evil grin*.

To : Apret
Allow Mbak, met exam! Karena lagi ngirit gw ngirim satu aja yah. He3.
~Vicky

Dearest my benevolent ex-neighbor, I’m truly delighted of your kindness. You never absent in sending me wishes in the past 2 years =D. All the best in securing job, facing exams and doing everything you want =D.

Perhaps thousands of thanks couldn't express how grateful I am for having you to strengthen and make me stand still in the midst of distress. Thank God for spilling over me with those people I love. Thank you =).

You're enveloped in a glass labyrinth
Together with the mist in hollow eyes

Slipping through my fingers
I breathe a pure white sigh in the night sky
The snow flying down began to paint a spiral on my upturned forehead

(‘In Forest’ ~La’Cryma Christi)

Since the first time I overjoyed hearing this song, I turned out to be a silent ‘Simpatia’ (La’Cryma’s official fans club). La'cryma Christi's early tunes are very dreamlike and multilayered with a heavy influence of Eastern mysticism and mythology. One aspect I love the most is their super-catchy melodies and deceptively atmospheric harmonies. Perhaps La’Cryma isn’t the top charters as Laruku or Lunasea, but their music is wickedly grooved in constant.

But I’m no longer mesmerized ever since they will be disbanded soon after finishing their very last live performance. I can hear resounding cries of Simpatia all over Japan T_T.

It's okay to act as if I know everything for now, right?
If doing this will change me who is weak.
This tears we had always have same taste
Someday, I'll laugh at the past when I have lied to become strong

(‘Liar’ ~Janne Da Arc)

At the same time I also develop one-sided love with Janne Da Arc, another J-Rock band. Their music is simply hard and complicated (each personnel seems to be superbly proficient of their specialties). Janne’s tunes are quite upbeat (and that’s very me! No wonder I feel emotionally attached to them, especially when hearing ‘Feel the Wind’ or ‘Dolls’), and more importantly, Yasu’s voice has character (though most of J-Rock vocalists definitely must have falsetto =P).

It’s time to reveal my Deviant Art account XD.

http://apret.deviantart.com

Please do take a look, and if you have any, please share with me and allow me to add you in my friendlist. (I never pay much attention to this account –no favourites, no friends, no devious comments, in fact it is very plain and booooring T_T)