Devils Walk in the Strawberry Fields

2009-11-20T00:54:00.003+08:00

I didnt mean to abandon the blog, just that the overwhelming presence of Facebook, Twitter and the such had impeded me to write in this medium.

Anyway, my old computer in which i kept my shitty arts has long been dead. I coincidentally stumbled upon an old art, made when i was still in-between job in Singapore. It is a pity that i couldnt do any kind of graphic design in my brand new HP mini 2133, since the processor's performance is tad too weak. Maybe it is the right time to sharpen my manual skill in arts.

I am artistically productive when I have nothing to do x(

* Speaking of psychological framework, this post is a form of self-denial. My scattered brain is no longer able to digest any rigorous academic paper nor write a proposal with scientific approach, hence the post :(

** I once promised myself to enroll to a part-time diploma program in manga-writing or animation design when I reach Japan. I am in Tokyo now and still have to postpone the plan until-God-knows-when :(.

2009-08-02T15:52:00.007+08:00

Jakarta: an unspoken truth

Jakarta regional authority budgets a 28-billion rupiah custom house for the Vice Governor, claiming that the amount is reasonably cheap for a Vice-Governor level. The Vice Governor too, supports this decision, stating that the house's strategic location would help him to work closer with the Governor on a daily basis.

source: detiknews

At the same time, displacement happened in Cengkareng, West of Jakarta. The picture envisaged a child trying to find his pencil for school tommorow. This is just a random displacement captured by media, there are still numerous displacements happen beyond media attention.

source: detikfoto

Could we at least reduce this hypocrisy please?

2009-07-30T17:06:00.003+08:00

Okay, i admit that im so stressed out in the midst of exam fever, hence the changes in layout.

We need positivity!

Other adjustments will be carried out after i am done with this whole damned thing. BANZAI!!!

2009-07-30T01:02:00.003+08:00

Ready Steady give me good luck!!!!

Goodluck charm @ Kiyomizudera Kyoto

Yeah i need good luck. I am on exam fever TT___TT

2009-07-23T01:46:00.001+08:00

Ponder

As a woman, do I lack of emotions? :S

2009-07-21T22:14:00.004+08:00

As an individual, I believe that I am pretty meticulous…

… except during exam period, where books and papers are simply everywhere. I did that on purpose to ignite my passion to study! Sadly that attempt was a total futile, as that disorganized chaos has turned me off. In the end I procrastinate a lot and feel like doing nothing!

BAHHH!! CHAOS!!

Anyway, I abhor examination but I heart papers, written assignments and presentation. The feeling of working on the written exam embodies the feeling of being locked inside a chamber of gas, waiting for a slow and painful death *sobs*. That explained why I have never prevailed in written examinations, and I am glad that I only have papers left for this semester.

And my paper revolved around Russia and its central Europe communist allies in an effort to pursue financial liberalization during perestroika and glasnost period. It was really complicated that I’ve regretted to choose that topic. Moreover, I feel my writing skill pretty much deteriorating lately, as I found it hard to choose the right words (dictions) to convey deeper meaning on the issues. And that counted to double work!

ex-East Germany`s Berlin Wall

It is just recently that I fancy the old Marxism-Stalinism’s centrally-planned economy. I believe that the ultimate goals of this is to foster equality and prosperity for the people –but the external factors such as global integration prevents them to do so! Two years ago, I travelled to Bratislava and Prague, and couldn’t help to ponder about the fallacy of socialism. At that time I had a limited knowledge about this, so I couldn’t appreciate the history as much as I did now. I am really keen to revisit Central Europe’s post communist countries with sufficient information in hand, and that will be my next travel plan. The question is how to get the money…

Random corner @ Bratislava. Creepy ne? ;____;

But before that, I have to finish this paper! No more sleep for the next 6 hours!

2009-06-30T00:26:00.004+08:00

'Ekonomi Kerakyatan', 'Ekonomi Pro-Rakyat'; what was that again?

Disclaimer: Just an argumentative prose from a struggling Kenkyuusei, with no means to offend certain someones or certain things.

Presidential election is crawling nearer, and media recently is just too overwhelmed by a bandwagon war; between Neo-liberalism and State-owned based Economy or 'Ekonomi Kerakyatan' (pardon the mismatch, as i couldnt find any better translation).

So what was this 'Ekonomi Pro Rakyat' or 'Ekonomi Kerakyatan' again?

If 'Ekonomi Pro Rakyat' is meant to give a total liberty for a state-owned enterprise to run a business for the sake of topping the economic welfare, total nationalization of the economy will leave a limited role for private saving, and imply a serious restrictions on private economic activity.

This will consequently result in huge structural distortion, remarked by the presence of monopolization, olygarchy system, economic autarchy and centralized investment decision. The economy will strongly be exposed to domestic-oriented market, sooner or later be separated from other market by international currency inconvertability, trade restrictions and moreover, encourage state monopoly in foreign trade.

The burden of social spending in the name of fair wealth distribution will be astronomically high, relative to the level of economic development. Government should offset the big expenditure mainly by domestic production, as foreign trade is being restricted. On the latter part, the state's budget deficit will be very large, and government will employ monetary expansion to cover the deficit, mainly by increasing money supply which will lead to an increase in inflation. Well, my dear, this is again, the prelude of a crisis!

This -infact- was what happened to Russia pre-Perestroika years.

So are we going to re-employ plausible system that is already proven to be wrong? :)

I believe that Indonesians are smart enough on not to make a wrong move again; to be trapped in a misleading jargon called the 'Ekonomi Kerakyatan' or 'Ekonomi Pro-Rakyat'.

2009-06-16T23:33:00.003+08:00

Open Letter From A Hardcore Boediono Fan

For those pompous opportunists who accused Boediono with the stupid jargon called 'Neo-liberalism', I would like to ask Thou the following:

1) Indonesia's foreign debt management's history since its first time de-regulation economic policy in 1971
2) Indonesia's trade balance performance eversince
3) Indonesia's composition of current account deficit since the financial liberalization in 1983
4) Indonesia's sound monetary and fiscal policy prior to Asian Financial Crisis in 1997
5) How would you define crony capitalism (in fact this is the main culprit of the massive external debt phenomenon)
6) Outline of Indonesia's Letter of Intent to IMF by Mar'ie Mohammad in 1997

If thou could answer the above without citing textbooks or wikipedia, and made a great presentation over them, I will whole-heartedly respect thou and re-think my stance for Mr Boediono (lies)

Yours Sincerely,

2009-06-12T21:48:00.004+08:00

Evidence

What do you need, in order to prove that you are more capable than others?

I would say, credentials....

As a strong believer of meritocracy, I won't admit a person to have a native level of English unless he could bring a perfect TOEFL/IELTS score as an evidence; to be capable of reading 1000 kanjis, unless he could bring a JLPT level 2 certificate; to have an expert level of monetary economics unless he graduated with Masters/Doctorate level in Economics.

Having said that, If I were to choose a leader, I will choose those with accountable credentials, such as good track records or outstanding achievements in their fields. I would choose those who are proven to be better than I am. Show me your resume, prove it, and there you have my respects :).

And as long as I am still sane, I won't admit under-achieved leader candidates with no academic credentials. I am a scholar, and I won't chose any leader with no scholastic ability! How come you believe on someone with less capability than you are -using a credential as an indicator.

There are so many intellegent people being a Public Relation for that mentioned candidate, and I couldnt help but to think that they made a stupid move. I would say it is like a college student choosing a secondary school student to be a president for their Student Union.

Isnt it stupid?

I guess Indonesia's political situation is hard to fit the common sense though. I hope it's really a common sense, and not just my self-proclaimed-know-it-all-sense.

2009-05-28T22:59:00.003+08:00

Ndeso

I just noticed that I could do this with my cell phone.

Ju On mode

AWESOME!!! SUGOI!! YEAHH!!! (ndeso)

Frankly speaking, I am a cell-phonelogy inept. My predecessor cell-phones have only been equipped with basic functions such as calling and sms (and sometimes camera), as I wont give a damn with trying something new and hip.

But even though my current phone is the cheapest of all, it still can manage to do things that put me in an awe. I love Japan and its technology.

2009-05-26T22:37:00.002+08:00

Got this from Anna. Thank you very much. It was really an inspiring speech :).

Quoted NTU Computer Engineering Club President, Xiao Yuhong:

"When you are choosing a university or a major, instead of worrying about the distance you have to get to campus, or the rank of the university, or whether people will hire you after you graduate, you should concern more about this:

Think about what kind of person you want to be upon your graduation, then think about whether your choice of university and major enable you to be the person you want to become."

I am a Business graduate from Nanyang Business School. I am thankful for all the experiences, as it made me who I am today. But i would never conform with the framework they promote the graduates, for everybody to climb on the corporate ladders, and to be a highly paid top executive with so many zero digits on the monthly payslip and work and work from 9 to 5 everyday even sometimes during weekend. I didnt say that it is morally wrong, in fact I really show high respect for those who could manage that highly maintained life (because I couldn't). I took a Bachelor Degree not to be a corporate slave, as that is not the end of my journey, and not the whole purpose of my life. I dont want to work when everybody said I should. Nobody could feed themselves if they do not work full time, i do understand that. I think some people feel the same with me too.

But here is one thing, if you want to break-free, be optimist! Be a risk averse person. In a stockmarket, those assets with high risk could probably produce a high return of investment. The question is How? The truth is there, the fact is here, problem lies on how to play the card, you had in hand. How to manage the highly risky investment into an astronomically profitable one? It is the same thing with life. The more risky decision you have, the more effort you put into it, the sweeter the reward you would get in the future. And remember, reward is not only tangible, but also intangible. Everyone should play their own card, but not all the game is beautifully played ;).

If the first attempt failed, dream big and try again! Don't complain, just work harder; as the time we spend whinning would not make us get closer to our ultimate goal. Time is finite -and there's no turning back-, thus more precious than any gold, hence spend it wisely. Luck is when preparation meets opportunity. Do your best to reinforce the luck. Always endeavor to put the best on everything, as you wont know when the opportunity would come. Don't obsess on what people think and don't take yourself seriously -coz nobody does. Think positive, open yourself, be honest. Afterall, we are just a mere powerless human being who needs help from others. Always know where we are, and never give up.

If all else fail, praise yourself who have undergone such hardwork, be proud of it, thank the God, dream big, and try again! Dont complain, just work harder. And everything would be the same with the previous paragraph. Even though you didnt get everything in the end, please believe that you have successfully developed your personal growth, and that is an intangible asset. You have reached higher level of maturity and survival skill from what you are before, so it is not a zero sum game. Congratulations on gorgeously playing the card game :).

Finale, I would like to congratulate all NTU graduating class of 2009. Congratulations on reaching another important leap in life. There are so many things that await you outside, so let's play the game :).

2009-05-24T22:17:00.004+08:00

"Anata no yume wa, nan desu ka?"

I am recently turning Sho Sakurai's obsessed fangirl after watching The Quiz Show, and craving for the weekly dose of HonmaxKamiyama. Despite the slight BL aura, its worth watching. So i do recommend you to check that out xD. And the tagline of the dorama is the above, "What is your dream?" (it sounds less cooler with the English translation, bah)

Anyway, one of my dream is not just to be able to read the original Japanese manga, but also to own it. Lucky that the cheap second-hand bookstore is everywhere here, and the prices are amazingly cheap. Last wednesday i went to one at Akihabara, and found X manga for 53 yen EACH! I bought like 16 volumes at once. Now the problem lies on my atrocious Kanjis and how to swiftly improve it xD.

mountainous manga vs few textbooks LOL

And believe it or not, i went to Meido Cafe afterwards. I MUST BE CRAZY AND CANT STOP TO THINK HOW COME I ENDED UP BEING THERE. Well, Francois, a Canadian guy, asked me to go with him. We stayed with the same Host Family, and that's how i managed to know him. We went to @homecafe, the most famous meido-cafe at Akiba. The feeling of going to that place is just so wrong but i think everybody would enjoy it. At first the Meido would ask you to choose the menu, and talked with superlatively cute voice and motion (and thats called 'moe'?). Then when the food comes, they will again do the same manouevre and ask us to follow their 'moe' gestures before tasting the food. Oh i guess i have to lock myself at the library until 9PM everyday to redeem my sins TT__TT.

2009-05-19T22:40:00.003+08:00

How to win an interview?

The answer is Be Yourself.

What a cliché! We all love cliché nonetheless! Superhero movies teach eclectic stories about good and bad deeds, and that happens for centuries. Bollywood movies depict hilarious cliché of abundance out-of-place rain and trees, and that still sells. Cliché represents mainstream and majority, hence the 95% significance! Cliche's voice is people's voice hence God's voice! (baka)

Most of the time I always win an interview, and its no lie! Be it a job interview, a committee interview, or any random interview. Though I must say that not everything ended up successfully, at least I still think I managed to impress the interviewer. During my undergraduate studies, I attended every career workshop held by the schools, and got advices on how to dress up and win from head to toe. Everything works out in theoretical way, starting from the style of handshake, how many accessories acceptable for wearing a suite, how appropriate the distance when facing the interviewer, how to dress up in formal suite for a specific hair/skin/body shape. In the end I became pretty much exhausted and do it on my way instead.

Lets think about it, imagine, an interviewer facing a bunch of job hunter with same attitudes and styles, same color of suites, same speaking tone, same body language, same hairstyle and makeups. I really pity the HR and the bosses out there, as they will face the same doppelganger over and over again.

I didn't say that my grades are on the top, or my English is so superb that I could sway the interviewers, or my leadership capability is so exceptional that I could run as a candidate presidency :p. Hell NO, its just a super average Jane we talked about, with mediocre brainpower and run-of-the-mill leadership skill plus legendary messiness. But one thing is that, I would always try to be honest, and be myself, no matter what the situation is. Who need a straight A student with rocket science capability, if she or he cannot work in a team, or cannot cope with stress? People will need those who can trust others, can delegate tasks to others, and can work with others. Image and first impression are a crucial importance and its an absolute 'Yes'. However, in the end, its 'You' that matters the most! Lets cross check with HR people (and pardon me if I made the wrong perception. I am no HR afterall xD).

And its just last week that I got my first time coldsweat before attending a scholarship interview (I have never had this feeling before). This was different, the interview is conducted in Japanese, and I just learnt Japanese for 1 month. YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME, HOW COME I ATTEND AN INTERVIEW WHILE I HAVENT EVEN DONE THE ORAL TEST???? well anyway, the Vice President himself will come and see me. While I am sure that I will successfully butcher the language, this is my last attempt:
1. Try to talk 100% in Japanese no matter how atrocious the speech would be
2. Write myself a 4 pages CV in Japanese and MEMORIZE it before the interview
3. Jot a possible Q&A for interview, and again, MEMORIZE it
4. Smile and be honest xD
5. Recite prayers inside, and believe that God will help ;___;

It was due to God's benevolence that I managed to secure the scholarship last Monday. This has been a good lesson for me, that #4 and #5 work out better than #1-3. Though I might say that impression does count, but whats more important is your inner rich and personality. And I would testify that :).

And I sincerely thank God, and Sumitomo Mitsui Banking Corporation, for having faith on me.

2009-05-07T20:55:00.004+08:00

Need Help

Anyway, I am currently working on a research proposal about pegged-currency (and floating currency system) across both western and eastern hemisphere, as a way to minimize the impact of currency crisis in the future. I am still a newbie into this field, so if anyone read this and is willing to help, please tell me any good books that talks about the above.

I know that Krugman's the Return of Depression Economics as well as Greenspan's Age of Turbulence are pretty good, but its not too scholarly written. I need the more technical one, but it has to be pretty recently written. Oshiete kudasai! (_ _)

2009-05-07T17:46:00.005+08:00

Do (Not) Judge Book From Its Cover

During golden week my hosuto fam went to Tohoku for Holiday. They intend to drag me along, but honestly i was too tired of traveling due to the latest Kansai trip as well as the crazy workload that I must finish. I stayed at a friend's apato around Chiba. She was an ASEAN Scholar in Singapore, and went to Japan with Monbusho scholarship. On the late night casual chit chat, she mentioned about how Singaporeans dress up is way too casual. They won't spend much effort on outer appearance as they are already contented (and confident?) of what they are.

While, again, hasty generalization sometimes misleads, I second this. I think of Singapore as the land of meritocracy. As long as you have what it takes, images won't be that important anymore. If you are smart, people wouldn't dare to badmouth you. People respect you because you do have something intangible to be proud of. I might be wrong, but this is what i perceive. And this is what i praise from Singapore. When I was in Singapore, I always wear bermuda, school's T-Shirt and not to mention slippers everywhere. This habit starts during my Undergraduate studies, whereby a technological university is (in)famous of having the most number of students dress up too casually as they dont really care. Despite being a business student -who supposedly dress up glamorously-, other students often perceive me being Engineering student xD (so i look that smart huh? LOL). But some problems persist when I went back to Indonesia. I still dressed up that way -as its damn comfy and i cant deny-, even when I went to saloon, shopping malls, and hospitals xD.

Gembel! Rasanya pol banget xD

One time during my break, I had fallen ill and went to a nearby hospital. As a courtesy to the patients, Doctor sometimes involved in a casual conversation. In my case, it went up like this:

Doctor: Are you a high school student? College student?
Me: Nay. I am working now.
Doctor: (disbelief) oh... where do you work?
Me: err... Singapore.
Doctor: Maid? Domestic Helper?
Me: ..... (speechless) er no, I am an Analyst
Doctor: huh?
Me: (grin)
Doctor: (still in disbelief) but you work in Singapore, so I assume you must be a domestic helper!
Me: =___=

Same thing happened when I cut my hair at the saloon. And I was once being perceived as a maid too, when I arrive at the airport.Bah, whats wrong with people? Or is it whats wrong with me? Whats wrong with all the ugly bermudas and casual school's T-Shirts? Well, i cant deny being a slave/maid/helper, as a matter of fact, i do help my boss working on projects right? ;___; Still, I do hope that people stop underestimate others just by looking at their outer appearance -this is one of Indonesian's pittfalls, they care MUCH about images. They are far from being a civil society (hasty generalization rules! xD). No matter how lowlife I am, If i dress in Armani suites, people will gasp when glancing at me! No matter how much god-forsaken debt i have, if wear lavish jewellry and go to country club often, people will respect me. So its easy to buy respect afterall? xD

Tokyo! Mantan Yakuza

But now that I am in Tokyo, my fashion sense do improve radically. I feel like there's an obligation to dress up, even though I dont know why (peer pressure?), especially during blooming spring, when the atmosphere turns out very sweet and pretty with sakuras everywhere. I suppose it's because people here dress up very well, so it does have a positive impact on my side.

Nonetheless, the weather is getting warmer pretty recently. During summer, I think my old habit would come to emerge naturally, with super casual dress such as slippers, school's T-shirts, and bermudas xD. O' Summertime, please come soon, I really miss my slippers!

2009-04-28T21:24:00.022+08:00

(Rizaldi asked me to record a travel journal while in Japan, so here comes xD. Rizaldi you better read coz I have spent my opportunity cost writing this stupid journal xD)

To Live is To Travel, quoted HC Andersen....

.... but it was not necessarily applicable towards certain people, particularly a first semester Kenkyusei/Daigakuinsei who just starts the semester, and feels like dying.

Sakuras at Tokodai

Gosh, I think Japanese is the hardest language EVER! I have committed more than 4 hours a day just to learn Japanese (2 hours everyday during the intensive class, and at least another 2 hours at night to catch up the materials). This misfortune happened after I took the Japanese Placement Test. I had no idea of what I have done to the answer sheet, but the result shows that I got the class which pre-requisite is to have mastered more than 200 kanjis. WTH! (Pardon my bad bad bad English, coz i feel that my English is zettai gradually deterioriating in here. Eh, zettai is not an English word? whatever.. iro iro kotoba wa shikatanai yo). In fact, i never really study Japanese before, coz I am easily bored and just quit impulsively (I am infamous of being restless, in terms of moving prematurely toward other commitments without really finishing the previous).

I am zombified everyday. I study until very late, say 3-4 AM, and then wake up early morning to catch the superuber crowded morning train, and thats quite a turn off. I want to scream out of loud "HEY I AM DAMN TIRED, GIVE ME YOUR F***ING SEAT!!!!" but thank goodness am sane enough not to do that -coz I dont think that people do understand English anyway. This is just my third week and I feel like I study for the exam everyday. In fact, I am always in Trans-Am/SeeD/Trance/Sage mode, and wondering if i will be easily burnt out in the latter time.

But...

A couple of really good friends, my nakama, went to Japan for holiday, and I cant resist the temptation to travel together. HC Andersen is damn right, To Live is To Travel! I have to travel in order to live (Obaka!) Consequently, I missed my 3 Japanese and 1 International Econs Class, and now I feel like devour people coz I have to catch up for so many things. Nevermind, Golden Week is coming and I will use my time wisely. I promise. Hopefully xD....

In a nutshell, we covered greater Tokyo, Nara, Osaka and Kyoto. Here comes the brief report...

Tokyo

Asakusa, Kaminari-Mon

Ueno Park, Eki Mae

Asakusa inside

Went to Asakusa and Ueno Park before heading to Akihabara. Asakusa looks like Japaneses Chinatown for me *grin*, while Ueno, being attractive of its shrines and park, is not really interesting without the overwhelming Sakuras.

Akihabara is still my most anticipated destination. I bought 3 BL mangas for 100 yen each (Obaka Obaka Obaka, Setsuyaku jyanai yo!), and found superduper cheap Gundams (1000 yen only for Athrun's Justice 1/100 scale! And 100 yen for Exia and Friends 1/144 scale!). Graaah, I hate of being bimbo! I have to hurry find out the part time jobs!

Shinjuku

Kabukicho!!! LOL

Went to Shibuya and Shinjuku at night. Spotted an interesting nightlife at Kabukicho (plentiful of hosuto kurabu LOL!!!!). Lucky that I read Tokyo Babylon before coming, coz CLAMP's vivid depiction of Tokyo is almost precise. Tokyo is all about modernity and ancient at the same time, whereby the modernized citizens still take out various superstitions.

Venice Doppelganger

???

Disney Sea tengah2

NAKAMA POSE!!!! YEAH!!! (One Piece Reference)

Spent a day at Disneysea, which reminded me of Epcot at Florida, USA. Fooling around with deadly rollercoasters and thrilling attractions such as Tower of Terror, Journey to the Centre of the Earth, Indiana Jones, et cetera, et cetera.

Kyoto

The day after i rushed for classes, I had a test before taking Shinkansen to Kyoto (bah, what a bad bad bad Daigakuinsei I am). Kyoto is reaaaaaaaly pretty, especially if thou art fond of ancient Japan; mentions samurais, wars, temples, shrines, onmyoujis, geishas and all (abundance of depiction at the mangas).

Awww Beautiful Geisha

Ryan D'Massiv?

Mesmerised by Gion area in Kyoto, a place whereby so many geishas are still existed. I feel like being brought back to the ancient Japan and enter the PeaceMaker Kurogane's world (or mention any other similar manga in here).

Inari Jinja... I liiiike

Kyoto Eki

Small shrine at Kiyomizudera

Inari Jinja

Next day, run to the Kiyomizudera as well as Inari temple. GOSH THEY ARE SO DAMN PRETTY!! Nevertheless, I found Inari Jinja more appealing due to its tranquil environment, unlike Kiyomizudera that is so touristy.

ONMYOUJI!!!???

Kiyomizu

Inari Jinjaaaa

Nara

Contemplating... gosh life is so tough yet here I am fooling around

New nakama: Tony Chopper

Have no idea why we ended up being in Nara. Reason being is because our two Oniichans are the big fan of Lucky Star and intend to run a weird errand: do the Lucky Star pilgrimage at Nara (whereby Konata CS went for a study trip to Nara).

Lucky Star pose!! LOL

freak Onii-chamas

Nara's mocchi is the best mocchi i have ever tried! And a lot of maccha flavor tidbits could easily be found around Kyoto-Osaka. Tanoshikatta!!!

Osaka

Osaka Castle

keren deh, LOL

One word for Osaka is, unique! The people, the food, and the culture. Osaka is the place for having fun! We covered just Osaka Castle and Denden Town.

Tried Okonomiyaki, Yakisoba as well as Takoyaki in here. SO DELICIOUS! Had a great time too listen to Osaka-ben (Osaka's accent everywhere LOL). And, Osaka is real Osaka with a Karaoke session -and this is where the unfortunate event began.

Takoyaki hunting

Dotonburi

Had a crazy Karaoke session, sing plentiful of Anime and Japanese songs (GOSH I AM SO DAMN HAPPY!), ranging from GReeeeN, Orange Range, One Piece's Crazy Rainbow Star, ARASHI's, Naruto's, Code Geass', Gundam's to AKB48 =___=. But, we missed out the last train to Kyoto and had to spend a night as vagrants! Hostel or Hotel are so expensive that we choose not to opt for it, and finally we went to Manga Kissa to wait until morning to catch the earliest train.

And so, my dearest Nakamas went back to Singapore and Indonesia last Sunday. And i feel like those fun we had are just fatamorgana (SOBS!!!!). I have to deal with the reality: crazy workload and tough life. Zettai sabishii desu kedo, GANBARU YO!

Oh sh*t, its already 1 past and I have to prepare for today's classes. GRAH i need another holiday (Obaka-sama, please die).

2009-04-20T21:28:00.003+08:00

A Quick Note, For Now...

I loathe it when my mother talked to me pertaining to marriage issue...

While hasty generalization sometimes misleads, I personally thought that most ladies perceive marriage until certain point they become a bride -and doesnt really take into account that life must go on after the fairy tale like-wedding, and it will be tough. Reality bites!

Parents, most of them, wish for their kids to be the creme de la creme of the society, especially girls, to be princesses, that own everything from head to toe: from lavish crown to fancy gowns. From stable job and perfect soon-to-be spouse. As if education and physical attractions are not enough, they demand status.

As for me, I am not a realistically ambitious person yet not a strong believer of status either. I just want to be happy and make an endeavor to do the best (and not to be the best -there is a difference!). Why fight for status when it doesnt make a single bit of happiness? Why follow what society thinks while you yourself take all the impossible burden. We are humans, not Hercules who could accept the divine 12 godly tasks. We just want to be happy, ne?

I left my stable job up there, get out from my comfort zone, and make myself blindfolded of all the expectations i could never fulfill. I descend to the land where everything is still uncertain, but I am sure that I will be fine! The mantra is "i dont care, as long as I am happy!". Dont force me to "catch" a random guy, appear as if I am ready to settle down, make an effort to be domesticated, while I am not the one suitable for that role -for now! The difference between mature and childish is: responsibility. As long as we are responsible of our life, and not being a burden to others, that is called an adult! And an adult, could really do everything they wish for, because they are likely to be responsible of their own mess!

Currently, I have never put myself in this situation before. I really DO struggle, academically and financially -and i cant think of anything besides those two. Language issue is my biggest impediment (i never thought that it will be this hard), and secondly, the people. People in my cohort are really the top of the top, both academically and socially. They are both future leader and academicst, party goers who also spend their weekend reading papers. I feel like an insignificant dust over here xD.

Nevertheless, i enjoy the feeling, no, I am grateful for this feeling. We are alive when we are struggling to live :). And after I succeed to conquer all these, I believe that I alone could survive nuclear ;)

2009-03-26T00:20:00.004+08:00

Holy Scythe!!! I mistakenly erased my Bandung trip pictures ;__;

I went to Bandung during the long long weekend in the beginning of March, and catched up with some old-friends. We were so outspoken during online encounter, but why it felt so awkward when we met in person?

.....

Lie xD

It only happenned in a minute, the next second, the chemistry came to emerge pretty easily *LOL*

Having said that, I don't think that a digital encounter could deprive a real-life rendezvous!

Sinar Penghancur!!! *pip pip pip*

2009-03-18T12:25:00.002+08:00

To my dearest Agent:

I NOT STUPID!!!! -Error in purpose, don't bombard me

AND YOU ARE THE MOST IDIOTIC AND CRAFTY PERSON I'VE EVER MET!!!!

I read Business Law for one semester, and it went well even for a college freshman. Despite the atrocious English speech, i was a debater too! Don't ever mess around with me with all the bullshits, foxy schemes and fake assumptions, as I am ready anytime to take you down at the court!

On the more constructive note, please furnish your English so as to comprehend the law terms!

2009-03-04T01:29:00.002+08:00

On NTU-stabbing frenzy

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/412450/1/.html

My deepest condolences to David. Hope he rest in peace.

It was around 3 PM when NTU’s President Su Guaning sent email to NTU Community, brought up the concern courteously, referred to such incident as ‘tragic accident’, and consecutively utilized well-mannered dictions as follow: ‘fell of’ instead of ‘jumped’, ‘attacked’ instead of ‘stabbed’, et cetera et cetera. The way he brought up the issues is so noble until I really saw it as a tragedy instead of crime! And he said that NTU will formally pronounce the name of the student right after they have face-to-face meeting with the parents. It is a courteous gesture to respect both the family members as well as the closest friends of David! That’s a decent speech from a dignified man for you .

On the other hand, I am very pissed off toward the shameless and uncivilized Indonesian media such as detiknews.com. They overtly publicized what they shouldn’t, despite the due diligence of press –I wonder if it’s existed in Indonesia though. Detiknews publicized the name before the chronicle is formally announced, as well as openly wrote about the incident over and over (please refer to Indonesia’s cheap celebrity gossip webpage, they wrote it that way). Is that how they supposed to treat their countrymen? Despite the actual facts or the timeliness, I still think that it can potentially create a blunder (as Detiknews is infamously known for) since they write something still doubtful. In the end I found the news became pretty much biased, judgmental and opinionated. Not to mention some harsh commentaries from fellow Indonesians as follow:

1. “C’mon, it’s just NTU, not Cambridge or MIT or Harvard. What do you think if he study there? He’ll carry a bazooka and slaughter people!”

Hey you have not even graduated from school and dare to say that? And if you are really a graduate, which University are you from? Could you stop all the unconstructive criticisms (read: bullshit!) please? And if thou art really a Harvard graduate, pity that you have lost your compassion and are not civilized enough to comprehend such tragedy!

2. “He just brings shame to the country. Now Indonesia’s image has been stained. Thanks to him!”

Hello? Who are you to say that? What have you contributed to Indonesia? -I bet it’s just a random bullshit on the crappy forums. That Indonesian student represented the country at the International Mathematics Olympiad 2006 in Mexico, was an ASEAN Scholar, and worked his ass off to flourish the image of the country. In case thou art really a Warren Buffet-level or Alan Greenspan’s league who are in a capacity to judge him, please understand that every individual is unique, and you cannot force your way of thinking to others!

3. “Suicide is a stupid thing and he is a fool. I bet that he’s not devoted to God.”

Dear Mr/Mrs Preacher, are you a Heaven admission committee? Are you really in a capacity to judge the good/bad deeds? It’s about him and God (and not you in between). I loathe to death if people start talk as if they are the man closest of being a God. It’s super sickening.

Sincerest apologies if I am really in a very bad mood today. But I really mean my words above!

2009-03-03T23:59:00.007+08:00

25 Random Things

Recopy from Facebook xP. And i am not inclined to tag any friends, coz it would be a nuisance.

Let's roll it!

1. I still think Hyde is a sexgod and staring at his live performance evokes visual orgasm =p (puh lease he's already 40)

visual orgasm material xD

2. I am not an early riser, I am a sleeping monster who can sleep everytime everywhere. I have spent a night comfortably at Kobenhavn's Kastrup Airport, Athens airport, Charles de Gaulle airport and fallen asleep at Musee du Louvre! xD

Zzzzzz everywhere

3. One of my biggest accomplishment in life is to be able to watch L'Arc-en-Ciel L'7 Concert in Hongkong in May 2008!

Nosebleed day

4. Due to wrong flightbooking, I spent a night in Paris alone at Charles-de-Gaulle airport. My last attempt to sleep at the prayer room failed, and so did the plan to sleep at the emergency staircase. Finally I ended up sleeping at the departure hall. I got countless eyes stared at me right after I opened my eyes. This was the biggest struggle in my life to sleep comfortably!

5. Berlin as a city always stimulates me intellectually; and keeps me pondering about the fallacy of socialism as well as the jewish's grandeur exodus. I heart the neverending historical dispute between socialism vs capitalism

Reichstag wooo!

6. I am a greek-geek and was a bit dissapointed to find out that Ancient Agora and Panthenon in Athens are just mere ruins ;__; (I WANNA SEE THE REAL THING LIKE THOSE DEPICTED IN SAINT SEIYA PLEASE!!!!)

7. Despite the temperature of just 33C degrees, I got severe dehydration on my 4th day in Greece, and ended up overheated at the hotel room

8. I am prone to injuries. I always hurt myself at least once a day. Be it a papercut or random stumbled upon something. And i am not a masochist! I think I am just... unlucky =(

9. I heart my current haircut xD

so cupu T_T

10. I can be a hardworker when I want to; but most of the time I am an acute lazybone. However, the hardworking side of me only appears once in a blue moon.

11. While Stockholm is probably one of the most safest city, my MP3 Player got stolen there ;__;

12. My all-time favourite anime/manga should have bishounens, boys' love, blood, psychological-thrill, unrequited love, blood, boys' love, bishounens, murders, and did i mention boys' love? I think platonic love is so pretty!

My most anticipated manga, bwahahahaha

13. I cried several times during Naruto's Sasuke Retrieval Arc and Uchiha Princes' grandeur combat (all hail Uchihacest!). I also cried almost 7 times when crybaby Kira has yet to turn godlike in Gundam Seed.

oh divine brotherly love! TT 3 TT

14. I think Lisbon is one of the most beautiful city in Europe

Oh so ancient, and secluded! i lurve!

15. I watched Shakespeare's Othello at Vienna's Opera House for 5 Euro, and cried -while its conducted in Italiano and I didnt understand a word. Sh*t! Why i sound like an extreme crybaby =__=

Tribute to Mozart ^o^

16. My childhood dream is to be a Manga Artist, my secondary-school dream is to be a lawyer and my high-school dream is to be a journalist. Now I am working my way to be a Manga Artist cum Lawyer cum Journalist xD

17. I often spend my Sunday sit comfortably over a cup of latte at the National Library; read random books -ranging from psycho-disorder theme to 'sewing for dummies' xD

a cup of latte costs $3 at Galilea Cafe

18. My friends have countless weird monickers of me, but i like 'Apret' the most

19. I think of my highschool era as the bloody nightmare I can never wake up from. Nevertheless, my high-school friends have been the most important people in my life!

20. I want to lead my life like Luffy does! Do random adventure, and live life to the fullest! Im soo strawhat's nakama wannabe T_T

Future Pirate King!

21. I wonder why Indonesians are so kaypoh. Being a busybody will only injure your self-esteem sometimes

22. I am suck at Maths and Sciences (well, basically at almost all subjects T_T). I am clueless and a slow-learner. If people around me embodied BMW, Audy or Ferrari, then I would take the role of a bajaj. But bajaj never gives up ne? ;)

23. I am not an anti-social, but i find it hard to keep the bonds of camaraderie. I am not good at maintaining relationship -i think im a hi-bye friend =(

hey you all, please be my friends still!

24. Tegar once said that I am fragile and I second this. My self esteem can easily plunge sometimes -even more volatile than the current stockmarket, but it can radically soar up too high. Enough said that I am an emotional rollercoaster

25. I cosplayed gothic-lolita on Singapore Animefest'08 @ Suntec City *LOL*

sakit jiwaaa xD

2009-02-04T01:20:00.001+08:00

"hey, If I must live 23 hours a day so that you would have 25, I'll do it in a heartbeat"

Are you sure?
Either way, thank you =)

2009-01-24T01:09:00.004+08:00

I dreamt of playing survival game at Angkor Watt ^o^

Its time to alienate myself from the hustle bustle Singapore; go to random sanctuary in the arbitrary 3rd world country and desolated windy place where nobody could understand what I speak ^o^.

Sadly, it is too hasty to plan and do itinerary by the beginning of the month, since all cheap airticket has been fully booked *sobs*. Initially I want to go Angkor Watt (Siam Reap, Cambodia), however the budget airticket has been sold out and only left with pricey SilkAir. Same thing happened with Hanoi and Kota Kinabalu or Kuching (graagh I am obsessed with Eco-venture). While Jetstar's service to major city in Thailand was unavailable during the blackout period. If I am still student and have plenty of time, I won't mind taking night bus to the north, but this is ordinary salarywoman we talked about =(.

Finale, we decided to go Kuala Lumpur and Genting Highlands (okay I know that this is way too boring =_=, but nevermind, rather than rotten at home or stuck as usual at the National Library and waste my 4 days holiday).

And so, Happy Chinese New Year! Talk about Genting talk about gambling, boo!!! Who knows I win the money worth return airticket to Tokyo *major LOL*.

2009-01-23T10:56:00.002+08:00

supposed to be Indonesia's Flag at the back =_=

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did so. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” -Mark Twain

=)

2009-01-03T13:18:00.001+08:00

New Year Resolution

I am back to reality and ready to conquer the world!!!!!

... And yes, it's not that I should fly, but I MUST fly!

2008-12-20T00:58:00.003+08:00

All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream

(Edgar Allan Poe)

If that's so, now I am questioning my dream.

To go for it, or not to go

To sacrifice the existing in return of a nouvelle lifepath, or stay with the status quo and be it for ever

To start anew, or stuck with the mundane

Okay, I need to do a Risk Assessment, Cost-Benefit Analysis, ROI, Forecasting, Prospecting, you name it, for this portfolio :( *sigh*

Perhaps, the excitement lies on the process of pursuing the dream -and not the dream itself.

But I really thank the Most Merciful, Most Benevolent for this. Thank you.

2008-12-04T22:28:00.007+08:00

Why Musics and Lyrics Matter

The past few weeks I've been listening to some corny Indonesian songs for the sake of a bizzare karaoke event preparation. The stock market may plunge, the executives' pay may dip, and the consumers' trust may decline, BUT my spirit for karaoke session won't; hence, 'Makhluk Tuhan Paling Seksi' or 'Buaya Darat' have been in my top list recently. I want to break the record and be a legend ^o^!

bimbotic reminder TT 3 TT

However, mission failed since those corny songs were not even in the list during Karaoke session. Well, perhaps that was a blessing in disguise (since I have no inclination to humiliate myself even more TT 3 TT).

Now I am 'back' to normal mode, listening to more modest J-Songs like Bump of Chicken's and not to mention L'Arc-en-Ciel's. An old song from Laruku called 'Yokan' suddenly grabs my attention, and without further ado, I asked Police Grammar to help me translate the lyrics. Here is what we found :

Yokan (Premonition)

I know how it feels to be melting in the tight embrace of the vast sky
little by little, the wind has began blowing, to where I am

In that spring day you let yourself be carried away by the wind
dancing round and round, softly you disappeared to this same sky

yes, you might have been able to see me
inside the heat haze
now, if only the apparition of your eyes would reflect myself for me

TT__TT

I was speechless.

The song is supremely beautiful and leaves the traces of mystery for the listener. It keeps us think of and visualize the premonition repeated within the songs. I really love this song as the lyrics is damn gorgeous, as if possessing handful of interpretation!

And then, with all the mixed feeling of anxiety and curiousity, with all the humbleness, without all pre-judgement and hard-feeling toward Indonesian music, I tried to translate that Indonesian song that I was fond of recently :

God's Sexiest Being

Your brain sexy
Proven by the way you think of me

Your eyes sexy
Proven by the way you look at me

You are God's being;
the creation
that is the most sexiest

Only you are able to
make me
screaming and screaming

O__o

I jawdropped!!!!!

The second one sounds like a cheap soundtrack of a blue movie (or a horror movie about Sadako-look-alike) -pardon my appraisal. If I were the singer, I will be so embarassed until I commit suicide -I am glad that I didnt sing it during karaoke session. How come I didnt realize the song's meaning while it is actually in the perfect Bahasa Indonesia? Oh ah I think I have lost my tastebud O__o. I am fully conscious of my zero talent in linguistic -so pardon me if I have silly judgement; but I think this is very common sense!

I bear no grudge toward anyone and anything. This is just a random review by a random self-proclaimed music observer. So, yes, thank you for reading *runs*.

2008-12-02T22:24:00.005+08:00

Her Other Personalities

For God's sake...

I am just a classy old-fashioned office lady; working with numbers and financial reports and prospects and statistics -in the University. I thought I am pretty conservative and smart enough on not doing stupid things.

The Culprit -could it be, my evil twin???

But these past 2 weeks, a couple of friends reported that they saw a f-ugly girl cosplaying in the Anime Festival Asia'08; with pink overload who is exactly a carbon-copy of me! I am thinking, how can this be happened? As a (seemingly) elegant office lady, I suppose to spend my sunday morning having a cup of latte in the national library, indulging myself with the fabulous collection of books ranging from arts to psychology, finance to literature. But, i mean, this is so surreal. I need to find out who is that other half of me who is menacing enough to destroy my image!

My other doppelganger -behold, they want to burn all the 'sins' in the world!!

Another thing is, other couple of friends mentioned that they saw my other doppelganger dressed up like a frustrated phony preacher who intends to spread the virtues by destroying all the sins and evil in the world -FPI, to make it short. Again, I was wondering that something is really wrong. Do i actually have the evil twin who wants to destroy my Lucy in the sky with diamond-world (who wants to ruin it by the way? It doesnt worth it xD). This is a super big mystery, even bigger than riddles of The Man in the Iron Mask or the Loch Ness mystery.

For the sake of myself, my dignity and my reputation, i'll find out who those counterfeits actually are! (~kupertaruhkan nama baik kakekku xD)

2008-11-10T00:41:00.004+08:00

I Spent Money therefore I Live (???)

These past 3 days I’ve been spending a lot. It is still 2 more weeks to the paycheck, but I think I have spent my monthly allowance on the first 2 weeks. I need to punish myself by not taking bus to work (but going by feet instead xD), fasting twice a week and restraining myself from culinary errands –though I wonder whether it works xD.

*major LOL*

I went to a crazy karaoke session on Friday; in purpose to do ‘check-sound’ and familiarize myself with the choice of local songs. We’ll be having a so-called ‘big’ event at the end of November and some "irresponsible" parties have delegated the noble duty onto my shoulders xD. To be really honest, I had so much fun preparing the event, and I hope everybody will feel the same way too ;).

Quantum of Solace : Wild Bond strikes back -_-

Gastronomic tour ^o^

Next day I saw Quantum of Solace with a couple of friends. This is the first Bond movie that I saw in the cinema –I watched the rest of the films on local television. As I don’t have certain expectation towards the movie, I can’t say much. But I think I have developed certain impressions of the preceding Bonds when I saw the classic Bond movies. Bond is supposedly elegant during the firearm combat and supremely classy when he handles commotion; and on the top of that, he becomes so witty when exterminating his foes. Unfortunately I didn’t see those aforementioned traits in this recent Bond movie. I think killing the enemies by doing a relentless (and careless) chasing here and there and causing major destruction to the vicinity is just uncanny and totally uncool. That won’t make a big difference with any run-of-the-mill action movie such as the Bourne trilogy (though I have yet to see those –just my personal opinion). However, this opinion is rather biased because I am not a devoted adherent of Hollywood movies xD.

Today I had a fantastic chore collecting some stuffs for my cosplay costume. The finished and ready to wear costumes really cost me a bomb, so I had no choice but to sew and design that myself. Wish me luck xD.

2008-11-07T16:57:00.002+08:00

Apratz and The Short Story Chronicle

Warning : This posting is intended to be an ego-booster; hence please read at your own risk

I thought I am just an individual with a mere passion towards writing but not necessarily equipped with the linguistic talent to write; at least that was what I believe since I was young, that my love towards writing is just one-sided xD.

It was still vivid in my mind when there was a short story assignment for my Literature class during my secondary school. I was so panicky since I was not really into writing. My dictions were all dreadful and the choice of words were in vain –and thing is, I ended up writing a short novella instead of a short story *grin*. The theme was pretty much influenced with the material that I read during that specific period of time –kindly take note that I have yet to know yaoi-related themes at that time, as I was still so pious xD. My first so-called novella is about a physically weak violinist and a precocious little girl who both involved in illegal drug traffic – a super corny romantic story, whatever, but good things often start in a corny way *grin*.

Yes this is a crime story about illegal drug traffic xD

And yes, writing a short story (literally a story that is so short) was a pain in the ass, since I am not used to create a discreet storyline or a fragment of a long story. Though I may be a simpleton, my mind is pretty much tangled and twisted –hence this is the biggest impediment to write myself a short story. I used to complicate a small thing! My long lost friend once said that listening to the lyrics of good songs can induce a decent idea of a storyline, and right now I am still struggling to implement what she said.

To cut a long story short, I joined an online fiction writing class in order to train (and to discipline myself) to write on regular basis. Problem persisted when there was an assignment to write a short story about ‘mother’ with the following objective: “Altering a cliché theme into interesting theme”. I was like being thrown into the bottomless pit of the inferno. What should I write, I shivered. To be really frank, what comes on my mind was the portrayal of a female chimpanzee nursing its baby in the zoo (???). I will self humiliate myself and challenge my sanity in case I really write about that. During numerous presentations and project discussion at work, I kept thinking how to develop a theme about mother that is both ‘cool’ and ‘gruesome’ xD.

Prototype idea : about a chimpanzhee mother T__T

And finally, my accumulated intense hatred and frustration towards certain things have driven me to write about a devoted nun, a virgin-Mary-like, an enchanting beauty with the reddish long hair, a tender-loving-caring mother who has a vampire son being held captive in the underground tunnel of a cathedral *fiendish LOL*. Every night, this poor bloody Mary should feed her son with her own blood in order to prevent him to go outside and do random bloodsucking. To my surprise, I got 99.9/100 mark for this assignment, and the tutor mentioned that he was deeply impressed with the short story. I had tears of joy *sob sob* that finally I was able to create a decent short story xD.

Today I just got news that I won the Lip-Ice short story writing competition as Top Honorable Mention and I am so thankful even though I didn’t win cash prize xD. The short story revolved around gruesome (and incestuous?) love between an angelic handsome priest and his gullible phantom son –yes I know that this is bizarre but I am a bitch for the twisted love story. This has driven me to continue my on-going novel that is already 120 pages long –unfortunately I can’t recall the whole concept of the story as this project has been discontinued since a month ago. I need to sharpen my peculiar way of thinking and not to drag this any longer -_-“. Wish me luck.

And the chronicle is still on-going xD….

P.S.
I lurve gruesome and twisted love story in 2D way (plus it has to be aplenty of bishounens inside); BUT I am an acute haemophobia. Yesterday I just made a fuss at NUS Medical Clinic coz they have medical check up for the staffs –and yes, I saw blood, my blood, during the blood-test. I was so dizzy and powerless after I saw my own blood. When I reached home, I need to spare myself 4 hours nap in order to replace my blood loss… argh!!!

2008-10-27T01:40:00.008+08:00

When a bunch of nerds seeking for a new form of entertainment...

... they are not creative enough and easily contented with the cheapest entertainment available. They are all 'home-loving' people, resistant to unnecessary spending and simply happy just to meet up with each other.

Thai-Chinese Food @ Habib

After a decent and modest dinner at Habib (and not to mention the trivial chitchat), they headed back to their secret lair.

And here are what they did :

1) Gaming-Team
They tried every fighting game such as Bleach and Tekken ~it creates thrill by the way...

The Gaming-Team

"I WON!!! I WOON!!!!"

2) Capsa-Team

They played 'Capsa' ~what else can you expect?

they.played.capsa

the piggy played cardgame

3) Football-mania Team

They watched a match between Chelsea and Liverpool ~and that's it

football match -_- (guys are boooring)

4) Independent Team

They simply watch people and got bored very soon *grin*

a pity xD

And yes, we can easily be overjoyed with a super limited budget! xD

2008-10-26T16:18:00.002+08:00

When An Idiot Talks about the Leaders....

I strongly believe that the most suitable person on earth to pilot this world into a better place to live was Lelouch Lamperouge; however, since we live in the 3D world and are sane enough to face reality, the argument is -unfortunately- void xD.

But it's not a while ago that I become a loyal adherent for Mr. Ahmadinejad -the current president of Iran- after reading his daily journal. I think of him as the most noble president/world leader alive...

2008-10-22T21:30:00.006+08:00

SMA X-Alumni Association Annual General Meeting 2008

not many people coming though :(

After the painful long and winding road; finally Bhro is relieved from his 'noble' duty xD. Congratulations Bhro :)

Sasko & Ainun B'Day @ Spize Rivervalley

mirip pendeklarasian 'Partai Jomblo'

And, Happy B'Day to Ainun and Sasko @ 20 October 2008.

The Girls

Sasko's speech about her obsession to own a private villa in Ubud xD

The food was super duper yummy and not to mention value for money (was it? *grin*), and the prata ice cream was fabulous! Thanks for the treat xD. Had a grotesque chit-chat with Edwin and his little sister pertaining to 'the other realm' -that made me freak out all night; next time please please don't ever trigger a conversation about spooky things at above 9 PM x(.

prata ice-cream (looks like 'Lengan Goreng Asam Manis')

For thou who are not really familiar with the Hawker, its called Spize and located in Rivervalley just nearby The Great World City. Let me know if anybody wants to go; i'll be going too ;).

2008-10-21T11:17:00.004+08:00

@#$%^&*())*&^%$$#$#$#@!!!!!!

I am so stressed out lately (and am not emotionally stable). I am a person who'll strive for the best if and only if i follow certain norms and rules; and when those specific guidelines were absent at any circumstance, i'll be totally clueless thus don't know what to do. I really feel like living in the 'Lucy in the sky with diamond'-world x(.

I feel like dying my hair. Any suggestion/comment on what colour to take will be very much appreciated. Muchas Gracias!

2008-10-13T23:41:00.004+08:00

Every cloud has a silver lining, deshou?

Last week I was in a deep sh*t; the score didn't meet my expectation. The verbal score was atrocious though the quantitative was just fine. The awful verbal section brought the whole score down. And yesterday, I just received the full report of the score.

I got 5.5/6 for analytical writing-assessment, which means, placed in >80% percentile of the total test takers for the essay *throws confetti*. So it is actually possible to do well on the essay and bomb the verbal section at the same time *sarcasm mode*.

It was quite surprising since my writing skill has been very horrendous -and its no more a clandestine. I failed my Qualifying English Test; then ended up taking 'English Proficiency' classes for two consecutive semesters. When I joined the English Literature Classes -hoping to be conferred a Minor-, my writing assignments had always been butchered with blasphemous comments written on them. I thought my writing skill was pathetic, since most often I didn’t do proofread, I just write what I think without further ado *sniff sniff*.

However, this essay score won’t stop me to cast upon my vendetta against the @$#@$#%$ test. Let’s see how things go, and I’ll decide later =p.

Run Apratz, Run!

Another thing is, my new office is located just in front of the running track! Then there are no reasons for not exercising regularly everyday. This is my post-eid-mubarak resolution: to run at least 4 rounds each time and minimum twice a week. I’ll retrieve the old days spirit and the old body shape *lol*.

P.S. I watched Code Geass R2 : Finale at night before I took the test ;__;. The 'Geass Aftertaste' was so severe that it brings my actual score much lower than my mock tests. But I won't regret that ;__:. I won't....

2008-10-10T00:39:00.003+08:00

Demoralised to the Extreme

I just BOMBED my last test, was lethally INJURED, almost SOLD to the black market and being DEVOURED with no traces.

Perhaps the result was not that bad, but I am dissapointed with myself. I took the wrong path with less cautious strategy. I loathe to think that people do have limitation -HELL NO! People are extravagant, complicated creature created by God; with all the perfection and subtlety. Hence, I refuse to believe about the constraint of human being's ability. We can achieve what we really want, and that will depend on the sacrifices that we are willing to make!

~I continue to fight!~

One of the people that I respect the most told me this :

I mean, you can be a super duper dumbass, but you're cool with it. Karena orang2 seperti ini extra-ordinary. Yang ordinary adalah orang yang berusaha terlihat seperti orang pintar =p

Affirmative. I am perhaps an extreme airhead, but at least I am cool. I don't try to be artificial; I am just trying to chill and enjoy everything. I am no genius and never intend to impersonate one; hence I am cool because I am contented with what I am =p.

~Everything is bright...~

Then she ended her speech with this :

Dearest sister. Orang orang seperti kita ini adalah ignorant dreamer. After all apa yang kk bilang bla bla diatas may sound like an excuse. So ignorant about kenyataan sebenarnya. But who cares ? this is our life. We dream. We happily chase it at any cost. We defy all the common sense that getting in its way. We fall 7 x times but get up 8 x times. We live our life to the fullest and dont leave any single regret behind. We are ever-lasting dreamer after all!

That's equally as epic as Oprah Winfrey's speech in Stanford Convocation *grin*. I almost forgot that I am not good at giving up. I have faced aplenty of adverse situations which are worse than this, and still survived. This.is.nothing. This is neither life-threatening nor dead or alive situation. I won't die because of this alone -exception if God has other plan =p. I won't give up! I am now an ignorant dreamer who will eventually upgrade to everlasting dreamer! But I will continuously challenge myself to be not only a dreamer but also an achiever! God is in His heaven; I am consistently pursuing my dream; all is right with the world.

I have dreams and I don't care about the world.

Having said that, I will again DESCEND to the earth to settle my VENDETTA! I'll go and CONQUER that again next December. Behold, the immense power of an avenger! *sounds of thunderbolt* Revenge is a dish best served cold!

2008-10-10T00:23:00.004+08:00

Selamat Idul Fitri

1 Syawal 1429 H

Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Batin

~O' God, please give your mercy
~Coz i never skip reading yaoi-related materials even during Ramadhan
~But deep down inside, i am still very green and pure
~nevertheless i am dead sure that You will somehow understand...
~*sounds of thunderbolt*

2008-09-25T23:26:00.005+08:00

The Diary of A Sociable Anti-Social cum Unemployed

Indo-NTU Alumni Gathering @ Marina Mandarin

Superbatch65 Girls

Flatmates^^

Amazed with the splendidly delicious foods by the first class chef ^^. Sadly, not many people that i knew coming.

Neechan's (supposedly) Farewell Party

The thick skinners

Went to a crazy Karaoke session with the bunch of shameless thick skinners. We knew no embarassment! There's no 'shame' word in our dictionary, never! *flip pages*

Movie Marathon in a row

Mamma Mia!

Wall E!

Kurosagi

Watched 4 movies in a week (okay, now i am in total broke) : Hana Yori Dango the movie, Kurosagi the Movie, Wall E and Mamma Mia. Each of them was splendid! Wall E makes me ponder about the future of this world; it's so deep and not to mention scary. Moral of the story : Let's save the world by eating no junk food and exercising, exercising and exercising!

Had a major crush on Yamapi after watching Kurosagi. Yamapi is the epitome of sex! Who can't resist the les miserables bishounen with mysterious aura and the painful past? Right now I am hunting for Kurosagi DVDs and any dorama with Yamapi inside will do!

Turned vivacious after watching Mamma Mia. The movie was so witty and fun to watch! There're a lot of Aunties in the theatre and they started to sing by the time the characters sing -_-". Since we are considered young enough and not really familiar with ABBA songs, we can only name few songs. But overall, the movie was good!

Yixian's Farewell Dinner

Halal Steamboat! coolness!

Tried the halal steamboat along Bugis (no idea where the exact place is). Food was very good, eating until Im ready to puke *grin*.

There're still a lot more... but i am lazy to scrunitize friends' Facebook just to steal the pics.

Moral of the story : Enjoy life to the fullest!

2008-09-25T16:54:00.005+08:00

On the Job and Marriage Issue

And i won't wish you luck
Coz i don't think it's luck
I think you have what it takes
So if you get the job, it's not luck
It's you!
Luck found you the job
Anything else from there is your own capabilities

(Quote Yixian in sometime around August'08)

After 100 years waiting in solitude (??), finally they confirmed my placement at the #1 University in Singapore as Research Analyst. Why Research? Coz i am a Research-whore -_-.

Then i need to give up another position at my beloved University as an Assitant Manager -I am so sorry!

I hope everything goes well with the HR process and all, and can start working on the 2nd week of October. Gee, fasting month has shown its tremendeous blessing of virtue T_T. Thank goodness!

On the bad side, I'll be taking TOEFL this coming Sunday at 8.30 AM in Jakarta! WTF I'm still in Lala-land at that time, it's not funny to be overslept at such a critical time -though i always did it. This iBT is fairly different from the previous test, since they have Speaking and Writing section. Good thing is, I love to speak! Bad thing is, I often butcher the language in the writing test *sob sob*. And nervousness sure can kill! Hopefully i am able to accumulate abundance of self confidence by the time i take the test!

I am still screwed at my GMAT. And i can't really sit down and study at home as there will be myriad temptations whatsoever *sob sob*! The reason why i study so hard its because the fee is bloody expensive, and i won't make it a waste by getting mediocre score report *hurhur* though it is also impossible for me to get the astronomically high score -_-. I feel like doing Self Hypnosis to maximize my ability in the Verbal section T__T.

I'll be going back to Jakarta from 26 September - 4 October 2008, so whoever wants to meet up and fool around together let's kick off (nah this is what i called bloody temptation T_T).

Hari Raya is coming, then family gathering is in front of the eyes. I always feel inferior during family gathering especially when relatives touch on the issue of marriage and family building. I mean, sometimes they had a private chat with me, asking about my progress on that 'issue' -which made me speechless all the way. Well, I am still a normal girl, getting infatuated with Hyde or Yamapi and can't resist Japanese hearthrobs *grin*, but i think it's still a long time to go. I don't think at this point of time I am mature enough to share my life with somebody else 'til death - at least not now. Well, let's see how i can handle this and prepare the politically correct answer during the chat *lol*.

To everyone who are fasting, these are the last 10 days of the month, so don't waste it! :D

2008-09-14T03:45:00.001+08:00

Apratz’ Top 20 (Recent) Random Facts

- I recently feel like crushing myself to the MRT train, jumping into the railway when the train is coming for the sake of curiosity
- I will then make myself conscious by reciting prayers afterwards (??)
- I am paranoid of blood-spilling (haemophobia?)
- I recently think of putting the corrupt government officials in the chamber of gas so that they’ll undergo a slow and painful death
- I am pretty morbid and sadistic at times
- But in fact, I am no fearless at all
- In 5 years time, I see myself as an academic researcher doing a PhD
- I am not good at giving up
- I often overreact toward everything, and make people annoyed afterwards
- I am an extreme headstrong, who won’t hesitate to pester others
- I think I am the most unromantic person in the world
- I think of Facebook and Friendster as a tool to boost up one’s pseudo self actualization
- I respect people because of intelligence above everything
- My mother said that I am the most insensitive person on earth, and I think that might be true
- I hate it when people being a busybody yet I feel like being one for most of the time
- I love Math and Science subject(s), but am suck at them
- If I strike Toto and win $100,000 the first thing I’d do is giving them for charity
- (yet I am never ever interested in trying Toto)
- I am no culinary adventurer and often end up eating the same thing over again
- I hate it when people show their poker face and fabricate their attitudes –I am a strong believer of ‘be-yourself’ slogan
- I wonder what initiates me to do this –because I think this is stupid -_-“

2008-09-11T11:41:00.003+08:00

Emperor Lelouch Owns the World

My beloved Indonesians,

Justice the founder of my fabric mov'd:
To rear me was the task of power divine,
Supremest wisdom, and primeval love*

Abandon your choice for presidential election
No, forget the presidential election!
Indonesians won't be needing democrazy!
Indonesians will be needing dictatorship!

Let me be your one and all ruler
Let me be your Emperor
Emperor Lelouch thereby ordered you to be my slave!
HAIL ME!
HAIL ME!
~All hail Emperor Lelouch!~

-__-"

I wont be held captive because of treason, WILL I? *run*

Oh okay, i'll back to the cave, be a 'good' Hikikomori and resume my study.

(*Taken from Dante Aligheri's The Divine Comedy)

2008-08-31T19:37:00.003+08:00

ANTI-SOCIAL FOR NOW

29th of August marked my last day being a corporate slave. Right now I am officially unemployed.

I need to re-think about everything to re-organize my life, therefore, i'll alienate myself for a shortwhile, being an anti-social, a Hikikomori for the next 1-2 weeks.

Anyway, i got a giant 'thank you' card from my colleagues in my last day. These was written in the envelope :

Dedicated To : A Dreamer, A Japanese Talker, An obsessed anime fan, and a True Human Being

Well, that's 'encouraging' in its own way ^^.

Regards,
Apret
Unemployed
In a search to become a true human being

2008-08-24T01:45:00.004+08:00

WTF man, I'm a novel ESTJ?

Your Expression Number is 8

Driven and ambitious, you have the potential to reach great things.

You're both good with money and good at getting things done quickly.

You are an excellent leader and a great judge of character.

Full of energy and confidence, you undertake projects that seem impossible.

Dependable and determined, you are able to understand the bigger picture.

Even if you are not in a position of power right now, it will fall to you.

At times, you can be very materialistic - and obsessed with status and power.

While this isn't always a bad thing, you sometimes take it to the extreme.

In order to be truly happy, you must balance the material and spiritual in your life.

What's Your Expression Number?

I won't give a damn for fortune reading or numeric chasm whatsoever, but i was fairly shocked when i tried this. It suits my MBTI personality as an ESTJ!

I do believe that people can change -in fact people always change! When i was still in Uni -being a fail student-, my MBTI profile was somehow skewed to ESFJ (a compassionate, caregiver archetype) and depicting sympathetic, warm-hearted and loyal personality *vomit blood*.

As i stepped into a dreadful corporate world, i turn into a very sensible individual, with overt judgement towards something. I used to be very competitive and unsecured over something trivial. I am being quite aggressive and set too high standard of myself -which makes me emotionally drained and blames on myself afterwards. To be honest, i'm getting tired of this. I want my old self to resurrect!

I bought some books about self-help during Jakarta Book Fair about a month ago. The titles revolve around 'finding your success', 'getting back your old self', 'smart and smarter', 'Self Hypnosis', 'Finding your dream', 'Hell at Work' (oops!) et cetera, et cetera. I haven't had time to catch up with everything. I hope I can cover some after i take my bloody GMAT.

2008-08-18T00:25:00.005+08:00

PANIC PANIC!!!

My flatmate and I are currently having GMAT-GRE fever. I once discussed with her about GRE vocabularies this afternoon during crazy GMAT-GRE drill in Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf Holland Village, and ended up mistakenly referring 'prodigy' as 'pedigree'.

And 'prodigal' as 'prodigy'

And 'officious' as 'spacious office' (dari Hongkong! iya gw tau!)

And 'abhorrent' as 'abhorrer'

T___________T

We are so stressed out until the waiter asked us to leave because the cafe didn't favor people studying and hogging the seat while so many costumers are coming. Bah!

I will be taking GMAT in 6 October 2008. It cost me a bomb so now im broke to the extreme. Total panic!! I hope my brain is usable by the time I have the test.

2008-08-07T01:12:00.006+08:00

I AM AN ACUTE NARCISSIST !!!

I had a graduation photoshoot with my hi-school batch who just graduated this year! My Convocation gown has already covered by spider-net and few cockroaches because of the long awaiting! (nay im exaggerating :p).

Esplanade!! Argh hot hot never apply sun-screen lotion -_-"

Gullible 'Angel', heh heh heh XD

His special ability is : Gossiping and taking pics of himself, im just his casualty

'Asal-tapi-koq-jadinya-nyeni' pose

The girls

Im sure that one day if i become a granny, i'll show my grandson these pics ^o^ *corny!*

Anyway, i am looking forward to wear another Convocation gown in the next 2 years; in the different school, different style, different country with more advance 'title'...

2008-08-06T23:30:00.006+08:00

I Need Luck! Aplenty of Luck!

I think every debater will bombard me with 'inconsistency' issue when i start blogging about this. But now i really need luck. Aplenty of them. Please cross your finger. I don't want to be penniless for the rest of the months while staying in a foreign country. I am ugly and fat, I've got no body to sell (wtf *lol*).

I have resigned from my current job. Affirmative. Yet i need to find another source of earnings in order to realize the 'next' step in my life. I once claimed that i intend to do academic research or community development (and no longer corporate), but in the past few days, i got chance to attend interviews for an investment banking company (and a public service company). Did i just say that i dont want to do corporate? Well, money is the root of all evil, and money did talk *evil grin*! There goes my consistency...

I know that the feeling of being jobless and penniless isn't really healthy. It'll eventually consume our positivity and self-esteem, especially when being in here, an (in)famous red dot lifeless land. Even thinking about the rise of inflation and the skyrocketing rent fee make me chocked, since the rate of inflation didn't justify with the rate of increment *lol*. Now i sound like i give up being a dreamer and turn into a loyal realist.

So now im crossing finger. I'm certain that He will always give the best (and therefore grant everything we want in just a matter of time).

Talking about positivity...

When im thinking back the old days, i have been bestowed upon countless of luck as well as 'lucky coincidence'. I used to be adventurous and unpredictable yet my carelessness level is Godlike! (Can you imagine, how frustrating the combination could be?) However, i tried to be positive at all times. I keep ensuring myself that everything will be fine, just chill up and enjoy everything even though as if we're standing motionless in the abyss of gehenna.

These are true story about positivity (and not stupidity!!!). Hope it inspires you (the positivity, not the stupidity coz im talking about positivity whatsoever!)

Giant Anchor embodied decisiveness! (actually pic is a bit unrelated -_-)

1) I have mistakenly booked my flight during my Mediterranean-Bohemian Euro trip. That time i was en-route from Thessaloniki, Greece on the way back to Copenhagen. I actually supposed to take connecting flight from Bratislava, Slovakia while i thought that i'll be taking flight from Vienna, Austria. And i just realized my mistake on the D-Day, 4 hours before departure! For God's sake, Slovakia and Austria are two different countries, and I am ALL alone with zero ability to speak in Slovakian or German. Let's say i can reach Bratislava sound and safely but there's still a big chance that i'll miss my flight. The horror images of 'The Hostel' haunted me by the time I reached Bratislava. Will I make it? WILL I? But fortune favors the bold! I am sure that I can make it! And then, yes, i can make it on time...

"I can make it!!" An Imbecile thinking about the future then suddenly haunted castle comes up (??)

2) Due to a mistake in flight booking again (this time it's my friend's), i need to spend 2 days ALL alone in Paris, France. I haven't booked any hostel while in the meantime people said that Paris is not that safe (and on the top of that, I can't speak French nor read map). So i decided to camp in Charles-de-Gaulle airport! My parents worried like mad, but hey this is the flame of youth! This is the essence of travelling! And in the end, equipped with amazingly dense-positivity i am still surviving without experiencing any pickpocket or whatsoever. Positive, positive and positive always!

Yes i dont want to leave this place but that doesnt mean that im okay with missing my flight T_T

3) On the way back to Singapore from Copenhagen, i ran to the wrong flight gate. Instead of running to British Airways -my actual flight, I bumped into Scandinavian Airlines and almost board the wrong flight and missed chances to go back to Singapore again. But then again, I kept telling myself that I will REACH Singapore for certain no matter what happens *the fire of youth starts igniting*. My actual flight was delayed so I can make it on time. Yes, it was a miracle, and i do believe that being positive is one of the key factor to reinforce it.

4) Et cetera et cetera.

I know that I cannot always effortlessly depend on luck and no others; but in fact i think i always do 'something' to reinforce that luck; I put extra effort like mad and pray like mad and being positive and confident like mad also. So here is the formula :

Luck = Effort + Prayer + Positivity

And it is absolute form of equation and cannot go on the way round! Thus you can't change that into this :

Luck - Positivity = Effort + Prayer

Or this :

Luck - Positivity - Prayer = Effort

Thats epic FAIL!!

After going through the dark tunnel, you'll encounter a very blue sky! ^o^

Hence, for you who already read this up to this point, i am not writing crap anymore. This is serious post even though the way i write is bimbotic (it has been always like that, I wonder). Let the luck emerges perpetually in our life, by doing non-stop effort, praying and being positive!

2008-07-26T01:08:00.004+08:00

NTU 2008 Batch Convocation Day

Congratulations to all 2008 graduates!

Initially I intend to apply for 1 day leave just to attend Convocation Day on Friday the whole day, but I was engaged to a deadline at work. In the end, I only managed to catch the event for Civil & Environmental Engineering and no others.

'Sister' cum 'Yaoi-fangirl-in-crime' oopsie XD

Therefore, I was very sorry for all 2008 batch who happened to read this :(.

Gossip Girls : the idiot-PhD student-pretty financial analyst

Civil & Environmental Engineering Graduates plus wtf guests XD

Superbatch65 Members

Graduation day has always been a vivacious and memorable moment for me even though I am not the one who graduated. Thinking back the old times, 1 year has passed since my graduation day back then in 2007. For me, graduation day is meant to be a commemoration day to acknowledge that we are officially considered as an adult. It’s a new beginning to re-enter the world with a different perspective, wish and expectation….

But did Lelouch just say in the Code Geass 1 episode Finale that in the world of adult, righteousness is priceless?

I am an adult. We are adults! However, I do hope that we are still being righteous (or morally right in that sense) –even though we are all adults.

~basically this is just a random crap -_-; it’s a pity that you still continue reading XD
~~special thanks to yud1 who noticed the typo XD

2008-07-22T23:04:00.002+08:00

From Jakarta with Nu-Haircut and Random Things

Dear Honorable Readers,

Apology for a delay in responding to your comments; as I was in Jakarta last week with limited access to internet connection. History is repeating, I had an awful haircut. This time it is Yzak’s wannabe T__T.

Maybe i should dye my hair gray and cosplay as Yzak T_T

So what I did during holiday?
- Relay Code Geass season 1
- Relay Gundam 00
- Relay Gundam Seed
- Watch ‘Nobuta wo Produce’
- Watch corrupted government officials in corruption trials
- Watch news of murders, senseless killing, death penalty
- Watch news about the energy crisis the earth is facing nowadays

And suddenly, I promised myself to save the world and make it a better place to live! Applause?

Okay, that’s corny. But perhaps those things have more or less influenced me with the decision I’m currently holding on : to quit my job :).

2008-07-22T22:43:00.001+08:00

Truth is on the march, nothing can stop it

“Do you know why I said that to you? I challenge your thoughts!”
“No, you can’t. I’m using my ‘heart’ now.”

I have officially tendered my resignation letter yesterday.

People might think that I am crazy, but I can no longer lie to myself. I often used my brain to choose or determine something, but now I solely listened to my heart. Even though it’s a zero-sum game, I have no regret and I won’t turn back. Life is so short; and don’t make it a waste by doing things we don’t really like.

It sounds super naïve and childish. I know, but devil may care since I considered myself as a conscious working adult and responsible human-being. It’s time to make maneuver in life, do a soul-searching while enjoy life to the fullest. If I don’t get pay by working on something I really like, why don’t I find a way to make earnings?

So what am I going to do next? I got thousands of plans in mind. I won’t let myself get bored and be in despair again. Wish me luck!

2008-06-29T22:47:00.005+08:00

Singapore Toy and Comic Convention : Suntec City, 27-29 June 2008

I managed to catch this event! Even though I didn’t have much time to look around, I have fulfilled my primary purpose : to pose with some cosplayers and take pictures.

Gintama?

SD Gundam Force!

Haruhi Suzumiya! Kawaiiiiiiiii!!!

Kaoru/Hikaru Hitachiin? Kakkoiiiii!

Metal Gear Solid?

this is gosh-darn cute!

these androginy dolls cost a bomb T_T

It was unfortunate that I am in rush, otherwise I can spend couple of hours fooling around in the convention! I really want to browse around some cool booths of local artists as they are really inspiring :)

2008-06-27T00:36:00.003+08:00

The Goblin Awakening

This is a whinning post.

Baru pulang dari KL, dengan keadaan super tepar dengan mood pengen makan orang.

Sengaja nulis pake bahasa indo yang nggak jelas se-nggak jelasnya supaya oknum2 di kantor ngga ngerti, huahaha. Akhirnya jebol juga pertahanan 'ga bakal nulis blog dalam bahasa indonesia'!

Bulan ini, ada empat kali presentasi, empat kali perjalanan bisnis, empat kali lipat penderitaan bikin laporan dan analisa, empat kali bertemu orang2 gila yang menyebut dirinya klien. Oh betapa sudah berapa ember air mata dan darah kutumpahkan untuk kalian2 semua....

1) Apabila mengerjakan analisa dengan baik, tak ada satupun penghargaan mampir
2) Apabila mengerjakan analisa dengan kurang baik, maka badai angin taufan puting beliung akan melanda fisik dan mental selama beberapa hari
3) Apabila mengerjakan analisa dengan SALAH, maka bersiaplah ambil tali dan gantung diri (self service)
4) Apabila ambil cuti lamaan dikit, teror mulai melanda; dari mulai ancaman2 serius sampe ancaman2 super serius
5) Apabila lapor ke bos kalau kerjaan terlalu banyak dan tidak bisa dikontrol lagi, maka didaulat kalau 'tidak bisa kerja!', 'tidak efektif kerjanya!', 'masa kerjain gitu aja lama banget, dasar bego!'
6) Apabila pulang tiap hari jam 10-11 malam, dan sabtu-minggu kerja, tak ada yang peduli, tak ada yang tahu, dan ketika masuk kantor paginya telat sejam, maka semua orang akan tahu dan bersiaplah masuk ke Chamber of Gas dengan bos tercinta sebagai pengeksekusi
7) Apabila bos melakukan kesalahan, kesalahannya langsung dioper ke kita dengan cepat dan rapi dengan konsekwensi berkali lipat
8) Apabila kita melakukan kesalahan, bos tutup mata tutup telinga dan bikin review jelek tentang 'associate saya yang bego itu bla bla bla bla' sambil bersiap meng-guillotine

I am seriously going insane! I want to eat people!

2008-06-23T00:02:00.002+08:00

Hyde's New Solo Project : VAMPS

Ohhh.... i smell intense yaoiness *ogles at my accumulated VAMPS pics*

2008-06-22T23:45:00.004+08:00

So Typical So Boring…

This post is dedicated to my sister who has secured a place in UGM – Accountancy.

Congratulation, Sis – even though I know that you won’t be reading this. Perhaps you don’t realize that I have been so envious of you! You possessed something that I am lacking of, which is perseverance and brain, and ability to conform. Unlike the moron yet adventurous me with tendency to jump prematurely into doing weird things, you can cope really well with your things and finish it smoothly. (inner self : Damn you lucky brainiac! Nerd! Geek! WTF with scoring almost 9 in all subject of the Final Exam and averaging almost 8.5 in the report card? You make me look even dumber! I always took remedial tests for lethal science subjects, and it occurred EVERY bloody semester! Do you think it’s fair? Hah? Haaaahh???)

The Moron and The Nerd

People said, like father like son, like mother like daughter (I made the latest one, whatever). All of my family members have destined to lead the path of an Accountant except for Yours Truly T_T. This family issue has been so typical and so boring for me. With Father being a Public Accountant, Mother has been a Corporate Accountant, Sister being an Undergraduate in Accountancy (and me being a fail business graduate). I think I am the only one going astray. In fact I got admitted into Business faculty by lucky coincidence. Initially I planned to enroll to Art Faculty in Bandung *grin*.

I think life will be merrier if the family composition satisfies the following :
- Father : Bio-molecular scientist experimenting on Frankenstein-look-alike
- Mother : Policewomen in seemingly 'The X-Files'-case department
- Me : Secret Agent cum Gundam Pilot cum Rock Singer (greedy? I am!)
- Sister : Nerd (that suits you, it wont change :p)

-_-“

Okay, sorry, I will wake up.

But seriously yes, instead of doing the same thing everyday, that will only profit gigantic firms and certain conglomerates; I think it’s the time to move on, to give back to the society and the countrymen. Yet, to where shall I jump will be a big question mark. I must get out from this comfort zone as soon as possible. And I am currently trying….

2008-06-15T03:56:00.017+08:00

I was deadly swamped with work and fatigue from business trip in the past few weeks, hence, my sincerest apology for not updating this for a very long time.

Ladies and Gents, this is Apratz’ most anticipated posting EVER!

L’Arc-en-Ciel L’7 Tour Live In Hongkong Report !

Day 1 : Friday, 23 May 2008

Work is getting ridiculous in terms of everything. Clients are very demanding, Superiors set too high expectation, timeline is too tight and I myself have problem in touching up with everything. I am a human too, and not a bulky machinery that can be used as Thou please! Yixian and I worked until 12 AM while we will have a flight at 6 AM in the morning! We almost missed our flight since our body can’t awake that early…

Behold, our eyebags T_T!!!

After so many hiccups, we were able catch the flight. Surprisingly, we noticed so many Singaporeans inside the flight intending to go for L’Arc’s concert too, since some of them dressed in prominent grotesque gothic.

In Bus to Hongkong island. Sleep deprived state!

By the time we reached Hongkong at around 12 PM, we were super duper tired. We rushed to our hostel to get proper rest and recharged our energy for tommorow concert. After just 2-3 hours of so-called beauty sleep, we catched up with Chu Yang (Yixian's friend) in Causeway Bay who treated us very decent Hongkong cuisine dinner. Then he brought us around Causeway Bay area to enlighten us about what to shop later.

Times Square- Causeway Bay

Apratz, Yixian, and the sacred tickets :p

Looks like Hongkong mafia movie in 80's, no?

Day 2 : Saturday, 24 May 2008

D Day!

Intending to go earlier to get limited goods of L’Arc-en-Ciel, but surprisingly; the queue was already damn long by the time we reached Asia World Expo. There’s no way that we wasted our time just to queue for a super costly t-shirt!

DVDs, hehe

In exchange, Yixian and I hunted for cheap Live DVD instead *grin*. They came up sweetly with a special poster of the Hongkong Concert.

This is only 3 PM, while the concert will only start at 8 PM -_-"

Booth selling DVDs and CDs

Yixian signed the banner :p

... then me signing

Cielers from China

With Pam and her sister -facebook friend who helped us grabbing the tickets. Thanks a million!

Bringing camera inside the venue is definitely a no-no in every live concert, and not to mention L’Arc-en-Ciel! Luckily my fangirl instinct saved the day! I hide it somewhere in my cosmetic case so that camera could safely enter the venue! I managed to salvage the camera!

Get Out From The Shell!

The concert is finally started with ‘Get Out From The Shell’, voiced beautifully by our sex god Hyde. We turned into frenzy fangirl mode after seeing Hyde’s effeminate face in the big screen.

aaa visual orgasm!

This is our current exclamation:

What is Hyde? SEX!
What is Sex? HYDE!

His voice is sex! You can feel it through your ear.
His every move is sex! You can taste it though your eyes.
His scream is sex! You can sense it through your heart.

Everything about him is so so so so very deadly sexy! He is so addictive! The concert is totally a visual orgasm for both of us!

He is probably a vampire -too sexy to be true *_*

Creepy things are, Hyde looked like he doesn’t age! He was still the same as the past SMILE concert in 2004 –and looked even hotter! Sometimes I wondered that he might be a vampire who maliciously drained mental energy from the audience in order to gain eternal youthfulness. Who knows? *start fantasizing*

'Revelation!'

I was really thankful that I made the right decision to come for the concert. People might think that I am crazy and wasting money, but hey, I am a conscious working adult, and I paid everything with my hardwork. I have been waiting for 7 years to watch their Live concert, and thank God I had been given a chance to watch them. I am really very thankful :)

Fanservice during 'Killing Me'

I managed to record small part of ‘Driver’s High’ until my body can’t deny to dance and unison with the music! And so I kept dancing during ‘Seventh Heaven’, ‘Daybreak’s Bell’ and ‘Caress of Venus’.

Hyde MCing in Cantonese

Yixian started to pour tears during ‘Kasou’ and ‘Forbidden Lover’. She still can’t believe that she is there, watching them LIVE. It continued with ‘Honey’ and ‘Winterfall’. And they had ‘P’Unk-en-Ciel’ in ‘Stay Away’! They are so damn talented! Bands and singers come and go very often just because they are not supported with sufficient talent, and L’Arc-en-Ciel proved their existence until today not just because of talent and gift, but also hardwork!

Ethereal scene of 'Anata'

We were so high and went mad in ‘Revelation’, ‘Ready Steady Go’ and ‘Link’, but we felt extremely sad when ‘Anata’, the last song was played. This is the end of the surreal feeling. After it finished, we will have to go back to reality and leave this fantasy world.

Oh ah why such a darling face!

The concert ended.

But our heart was still there.

We didn’t want the concert to end! We wanted to stop the time and be in that night for eternity! (Nay, I’m exaggerating, but you should have known my feelings. The feeling of that night is still overwhelming even until now. I’m so happy with just having a slight recall of that night. I am so proud of being a Cieler and I sincerely thank God for everything.

Day 3 and Day 4 : Sunday-Monday, 25-26 May 2008

We went to Sino Center, famous for being Hongkong’s Akihabara, and spent like hundreds for DVD concert and some cute stuffs for gift

It's like small authentic ramen restaurant in Japan

very cheap but super decent Jap food

All in Chinese, I can't read. Lucky got Yixian with me :)

Things we got from Hongkong's Akihabara. Yixian's DBSK stuffs and my L'Arc's stuffs

Central area!

Looks like Singapore's CBD

Met Yixian’s friend in the evening and spotted Hongkong’s magnificent night skyscrapers in Central area.

Hehehe

awesomeness!

Hongkong's famous beefsoup

Gifts and stuffs i bought

Day 5 : Tuesday, 27 May 2008

Time to go back to the living hell. We didn't want to leave Hongkong! Hongkong has huge resemblance to

Japan

–just that the people there are speaking Cantonese! Guys are cute and girls are very fashionable. And everything there is cheap, especially the food! Yes, called us dumbass since we went to Hongkong without even trying Dim Sum coz we went for Japanese food instead.

I will definitely go back to Hongkong If I can. For the guys and for the good food *grin*.

2008-05-21T19:30:00.003+08:00

Internetless and Penniless

I am shifting to another Flat starting from last Saturday, and the most devastating thing is, the new place is still internetless! &^&^&%^%^$^

Anyway, I will be off to Hongkong in this coming weekend to catch L'Arc-en-Ciel's TransAsia via Paris Tour (it's a dream comes true!), and travelling for Business Trip to Kuala Lumpur the week after and the next week after.

Apology that currently I am not able to reply to your commentaries, as I can't open the page in office PC (perhaps blogger.com is considered Not Safe For Work ? :p). Another grief for this week is I am zombified due to overload work (as always). If this thing keeps on happening, i might stand a chance to secure a role in the next Dawn of the Dead movie *sobbing*

2008-05-16T00:20:00.004+08:00

Over-work Makes Your Brain Goes Dull
By : Prof. DR. Apratz

Recent experiment has scientifically proven that overwork (and over-study at the same time) will possibly make you dumber and dumber without thou even realizing it.

Symptomps :
- During crazy GMAT drill, you mistakenly read the word 'subtle' into 'subtitle' due to lacking of anime-time, and almost lost half of your score on the GMAT Verbal section
- You often talked to yourself in every circumstance, and your colleagues always noticed it
- You often show dumb expression during casual conversation ever since you're thinking about work (and anime, and yaoi manga, and increase in rent fees and so on and so forth)
- You often laugh without cause, and make your colleagues frightened
- You will see more and more wrinkles stuck in your face
- You mistakenly saw 6 as 8 and ended up creating wrong cost request that potentially cause a loss for your (dear) company
- Coffees become your best friend ever after
- Your usual dinner came from Starbucks at the ground floor of the office

Based on true story told by an anonymous innocent party XD.

2008-04-26T01:26:00.003+08:00

Accidentally found this group in Facebook :

Millennium Dreamers

In the spring of 2000, The Walt Disney Co. and the McDonald's Corporation honored 2000 of the worlds most amazing kids. These young heroes, age 8-15, represented over 90 countries. These were the young heroes of the world. People who literally stopped bullets, helped cure diseases, and saved the planet. Being among these amazing children is a memory that gives me hope for the future.

Do you know one of these amazing heroes? Get them to join this group. This isn't about bragging, this is about answering the question "where are they now?". The one thing Disney and McDonalds didn't do is give us a way to find out what bigger and better things that the Dreamers have moved on to.

I'm on a quest. Help me find the dreamers.

Orlando, Florida, USA : I was on the top right hand, beneath Mickey's palm

I was 14 that time. I was once being there, becoming an idealist, a dreamer, with pacifist viewpoint and abundance passion to save the nation, desire to stop middle east conflict, eradicate a tribal war in Africa, oppose the power abuse of United Nations, abolish discrimination, fight against poverty in less developed nations (and combat consumerism at the same time), as well as return the blissful smiles of my countrymen.

I am 22 this time. I want to retrieve that passion, and I don't want to just daydream, I want to do something real. I want to befit the title once and for all. I need not pseudo power, I need real power. I want to change the world and make it into a better place to live, and I can't do it (alone).

Let's start from now, from yourself. Lend me your hand. Together we can save the world.

~that was an amazing speech isn't it? XD, but I am serious...
~~this is the effect of post reading 'Confessions of an Economic Hitman' (John Perkins) and 'Making Globalization Work' (Joseph E. Stigltz) and post watching 'Code Geass : R2' and 'Gundam 00'
~~~and I am dead serious XD

2008-04-22T22:49:00.005+08:00

Masashi Kishimoto For President!!!

OMG, this is one of the biggest twist of the year!

"Foolish little brother, I am an angel you know!"

Dear All Itachi Fangirls,

Even though this splendorous brotherly love tastes heavenly, we must avenge our lovely Itachi! Revenge is a dish best served cold! Death for those causing Itachi's death. Swing the axe and OFF WITH HIS HEAD!!!

No, capital punishment is so yesterday. Do it in fangirl way! Make Sasuke as an Uke and rape him! Break him! Violate him! Torture him! Assault him! Until he kneels down painfully and asks for Onii-chan's help from heaven! AHAHAHAHAAHHAHA

~I told you, fangirlsm is dangerous. It costs you your sanity T_T

2008-04-22T22:35:00.004+08:00

This is supposed to be cool, but...

Last Saturday, I had a haircut. I realized that I always had problem in giving instructions to the hairdresser, especially if she/he doesn't understand English completely. As a result, my haircut always turned out to be 'up to you' cut, means that I always said 'up to you' when they're asking what kind of cut i favor.

After had an atrocious moment with Haruhi's and Tieria-wannabe haircut, now I ended up with Lunamaria Hawke's haircut -_-". Well, i know that it supposed to be cool, but when you have ogre face to begin with, everything will turn out to be horrid. Now it is easy for me to cosplay as Lunamaria Hawke's Post Gundam-Destiny war (after her face stumbled upon an astray comet).

2008-04-21T23:57:00.005+08:00

This Post is Super Trivial! I Warned You!

Latest update...

Apratz is easily contented even though her mood often swings like emotional rollercoaster. Right after reading her collections of 'forbidden sweet manuscripts', she felt energetic already, charged her emotional powerhouse to the fullest *yeah!*, and started fantasizing and capturing those 'alluring and gorgeous scenes' in mind. Unfortunately she's still pretty much innocent, so she wasn't able to depict her craziest imagination into aesthetic work. She can only manage to finish this art just now.

My Boss will shout if she found out I am drawing this during working hours XD

Anyway, this moe-fanboy said that I am pretty much influenced by Clamp in terms of drawing style. In fact, NO! I am easily influenced by things that I am currently fond of. At one time, I was really into Kaori Yuki, and suddenly found my works resembling her gothic style. Another time, I was addicted to Yun Kouga's simplistic style, and ended up following her style unconsciously. Now I wonder, who is the manga artist that i am currently copying *grin*.

~ I guess my style right now is heavily influenced by things I am reading. Yes, it is Yaoi manga, not sure where exactly got this style though XD
~~I think being a yaoi mangaka is quite interesting XD *ran apratz, ran!*

2008-04-20T16:16:00.002+08:00

current mood : emo

I've been very gloomy in the past weeks. I have no desire whatsoever to do routine things. And I have no intention whatsoever to continue blogging. My life's been very boring lately.

I wonder if i could jump into a parallel universe and being a bounty hunter, sky pirate, Gundam Meister or Evangelion Pilot. That will truly make us treasure the true purpose of life.

Now i sound like a mix of Nara Shikamaru and Konata Izumi. Whatever *continue to hibernate during weekend*.

~O'God forgive my insolence. I need to be more grateful for all the things in life T_T.

2008-04-06T01:32:00.002+08:00

2008-04-06T00:32:00.006+08:00

Belated B'Day Party

I am officially 22 since 20th of March 2008.

belated b'day party hosted by NTU-ers

I guess it is already too late and i don't expect people to remember, but in fact people do remember *sobbing*.

my gullible secret angel, ahahahaha *bullying mode*

Thank you very much for your kind B'Day greetings and gifts. I am glad that I have bestowed upon so many nice people who really care. Honestly I am a typical hi-bye friend to begin with, as i don't put effort in maintaining people to people relationship. That's why I am a bit shocked knowing that people actually did give me B'Day Presents. I was on cloud nine after celebrating the belated B'Day Party yesterday *sobbing for the second time*.

Sincerest gratitude to roomie, soulmate, flatmates, weirdo, sicko, NaruTaru Fanclub, Superbatch Sixtyfivers, my gullible secret angel, Mr. Obsessive Compulsive, Rumet Abadi, ex. Mortal, those who remember and thou who read this, hehe. Apology that i am not able to mention every name, I think my brain is getting rusty due to too much yaoi recently *lol*.

2008-04-02T23:56:00.005+08:00

This is not an April Fool...

This is not a dream (though I somehow feel that it might still be a dream. And if it is a dream, I hope it comes true and doesn't turn into a nightmare).

Apratz and Yixian managed to grab the tickets for L'Arc-en-Ciel TransAsia via Paris Tour!

Fangirl-ism is dangerous. It can cost you your life!

1st of April. April Fool. The day the ticket starts selling.
That day was really a crazy emotional rollercoaster for both of us. We have been waiting in front of the comp and standby all morning in order to book the ticket via Online ticketing website. We even are not able to focus on work on the whole day. We are desperately clinging for the Online booking page to appear. But then, when the time comes, what said it?

Sorry, online booking for this event is not available. Please call HK Ticketing at31 288 288 for assistance.

(*&*&^&%^%^$^%$%#%$#!!!!!!!!!!

They should have let us know in the first place that Online booking won't be working, and NOT in the selling day. We were almost burst into tears when hearing live report from a facebook friend that people already start queuing for tickets at 7AM while the booth will only be opened at 10AM!

I was thinking, we are already so closed. We have even booked the flight. Everything would've been in vain in case we fail to grab the ticket, and there's no second chance! Never! Honestly, one of my B'Day wishes since i was still on High School is to be able to watch L'Arc-en-Ciel's LIVE.

And then miracle happened. After so many hiccups in here and there, plus some teary moments between Yixian and I, plus some cursing words to the HK tic website, one of Yixian's facebook friends helped us to buy the tickets for us. OMG!

So in the end, we have the tickets. we.have.the.tickets. We are going to watch L'Arc-en-Ciel. we.are.going.to.watch. I'm going to see Hyde live!!!! *major teardrops*.

hopefully there'll be a fanservice like this. cuteness!

2008-04-01T23:41:00.006+08:00

Gundam 00 : Aftertaste… Aftertaste

Warning :
1)This post contains major spoiler for those who aren’t following Gundam 00 series until the final episodes
2) Apratz is the damned Queen of Spoiler, so she will have no mercy in spreading spoiler viruses *laugh frantically*

Last week I had a major agony, a pain that is hardly erased, even until today.

First thing first, my strikingly beautiful Itachi died in a super humiliating way in grandeur Uchiha combat, not because he’s freaking weakened against his hateful little brother, but because he was poisoned! I am seriously damn furious, that is not Itachi! Give me back my wicked and powerful Itachi! Now I feel like cursing the creator *sobbing*.

Second thing is, Gundam 00 first season was already ended! I cannot say that I am satisfied with the epilogue. I still think that it was really worth to be called a Finale, but since I am a crybaby, I don’t want to see some characters died, especially those whom I already had a bond with. Enough to say, I already had sort of emotional attachment with the Meisters. That’s why I will be damn freaking upset if they bid adieu to this 00 Universe. I don’t want them ended up dying; I refuse to believe that they’re all died. Tell me that this is not true! I am very torn when I saw Lockon died. I am super duper devastated when he was vanished with the huge explosion. In fact I was weeping like mad afterwards.

I swear that I won’t watch Gundam 00 anymore if they change the Meisters! I’ll seriously get mad if later on that Neena Trinity becomes the ace pilot for Exia. Please kick my ass if the new-built Meisters team consists of Neena Trinity, Stupid Patrick (without Spongebob), and Saji Crossroad. I am fine with Graham Acre being a Meister, in fact I’ve been drooling over him to join the Meisters team (then they will make perfect Bishounen Gundam-Senshi and wear frilly Sailor Uniform –here comes my secret fetish *grin*)

Hence, for the sake of entertaining myself, testing my analytical ability as a Fail ex-English Literature Minor-student, and giving my creativity a try as a storyteller wannabe, I would like to speculate about the Second Season of Gundam 00, with special highlight in the Meisters’ life (don’t ask me to speculate as a stock broker, I might end up bringing the Third Monetary Crisis in the entire Southeast Asia).

Setsuna F. Seiei

1) Setsuna F. Seiei is still alive

Seriously who will kill the main protagonist of the series? Let’s try to think in this way, can you imagine ‘Naruto’ without Naruto, ‘Gundam SeeD’ without Kira Yamato, ‘Code Geass’ without Lelouch, and so on and so forth? Setsuna is the major protagonist, he has huge resemblance to Heero Yuy from ‘Gundam Wing’ and not to mention Kira Yamato from ‘Gundam Seed’ (and Aoyagi Ritsuka from ‘Loveless’ *pun intended*). Those that I mentioned are eternal, especially our sovereign Godlike Yamato.

Setsuna will still be alive! He even has yet settled his issue with Ali Al-Saaches. As long as the antagonist is still alive, the protagonist will come down to earth and chase after the antagonist. That’s the common rule of typical Pacifist story. Setsuna has yet cast a judgment upon Ali, which will be his raison d’etre- reason to exist. Moreover, he has yet confessed his feeling to the Arabian Princess. That will be his second reason to live.

Hence, all hail Setsuna. He is dead NOT!

Allelujah Haptism

2) Allelujah Haptism is still alive
According to the Finale, Hallelujah, his alter ego is ‘vanished’. This implies that the next season Allelujah will be the modest and sincere one without the alter ego. Therefore, Allelujah still continues to live in serenity without any disturbance from his other half! (The role for outrageous Meister will be replaced by Lockon’s twin =p)

Never forget that he has a crimson thread with Soma Peiris that is being revealed in the Final episode. Their connections are still vague. There’re still unresolved mysteries between him and Soma Peiris whom he called ‘Marie’ as a cliffhanger. From here, I can conclude that I will still see Alle piloting Gundam in the second season.

Tieria Erde

3) Tieria Erde is still alive
There is still major mystery revolved around this rare beauty. Tieria shall not die before his background is revealed. Who knows that he was perhaps a Phantom of Aeolia Schenberg? Or who knows after the timeskip, he will turn into a pretty lady *vomiting*. In fact, one of his goal is to avenge Lockon’s death, means to murder Ali Al-Saaches. As long as Ali is still alive, he will also be alive!

Fortunately, it is already proven that Tieria will still be alive in the second season since he is seen during the timeskip overview. I think Tieria is my favorite character, just because I can’t stop looking at him amongst other Meisters. He never fails to absorb my attention during every combat that he went through. Anyway, I detest his new haircut! Please give back Tieria’s old haircut!

Lockon Stratos T_T

4) Lockon Stratos is still alive…… in your heart *crying a bucket*
I am sure that he is dead *sobbing*, but I am certain that his twin will take over his role and avenge his death. I sincerely hope that Lockon’s twin has a completely different persona with him. In the first season, we have freak Hallelujah amongst the Meisters, and now I expect Lockon’s successor to be the most lunatic one. That will balance the atmosphere amongst the Meisters. I suspect he and Tieria will have lovey dovey quarrel afterwards *fangirl-ism mode*.

I love tender and caring Lockon, but I am eager to see the same face with a very wicked personality.

Major conclusion : our beloved Meisters will have a reunion and attend a tea party (with Graham Acre as the fifth Meister) in the Second season *lalalala ^o^*

2008-03-29T01:58:00.003+08:00

Tribute to Uchiha Itachi

It happens on Wednesday night...

In the midst of work, i occasionally opened Narutofan forum to catch a sneak peak of the newest chapter of Naruto manga : The Uchihas Epic Battle.

And then i saw something that i refuse to believe...

I screamed so loud at once and created quite a commotion since some people were also staying back late at office (then they swamped me with a weird look)

I don't want to believe it.

No, in fact i REFUSE to believe.

There goes my heart. Sayonara Itachi-san, you have been utterly fabulous in 'defending' your Uchiha legacy, you have successfully stolen the spot from that Pedo-Oro, you have been an exceptionally wonderful villain with your artistic genjutsu and soft-spokenness, and you have gradually shifted my 'fangirl-ism overload' from your (bastard) little brother....

Hope you rest well in the Atziluth (or Gehenna?), and have a tranquil tea party with Sasori and Deidara.

Regards,
Apret (crying a bucket)
*with super deep condolences*
**previously i intend to put Itachi's pic in the 'Yaassiin prayer book' to mark his glorious death, but well...

2008-03-09T05:05:00.004+08:00

The Never-ending Desperado Chronicles

Yesterday I've made a mistake at work. A very stupid mistake. A mistake that even an idiot perhaps won't do. And today, I was forced to go back to office to revise that stupid thing. Now i wonder where my brain is actually located, maybe it is there... (yes, there, nothing wrong with the location, just that the actual brain volume might be looked weird, whatever!)

Or perhaps the brain actually lies on the butt? I don't know *crying at the corner*

Anyway, i do really want to follow Homer's advice below. I think it is totally awesome, and even more critical, sinister, realistic (and not to mention much more brilliant) than Keynes/Nash/Smith theories ever...

2008-03-01T03:39:00.004+08:00

For the time being, it’s a dream comes true!

Dear Folks,

This is not a dream, this is not an April Fool, this is a dream comes true!

Apratz will be going to Hongkong from 23^th – 27^th May 2008 and watching L’Arc-en-Ciel Trans Asia via Paris Tour in Asia World Expo Arena on 24^th of May!

OMG OMG, kudos to Yixian who informed me about this.

Today I started working lethargically, turned on the Comp and began to check emails *yawn*, until quite sometime, Yixian came to me and told me about this Hongkong concert. She was a hardcore Cieler who often checked the website to retrieve more info about L’Arc’s activities. Without further ado, both of us have booked our round trip ticket from Singapore to Hongkong.

Unfortunately the concert ticket will start selling on the 1^st of April (and guys, it’s official so it won’t be an April Fool!), and I am so afraid that ticket will be sold out before we manage to grab them *sobbing*. I do really hope that everything will turn out well so that we could watch the live concert sound and safely.

Now I feel like I am more energetic to start my days. I even don’t care that I ought to work this coming weekend due to some outstanding projects that have yet been finished. I am just longing for the D-Day crawling nearer, and afterwards I don’t care of what will be happening.

Thank goodness, this will be a remarkable once in a lifetime experience for me, a very meaningful B’Day present for this year. I thank You for everything you’ve been giving me until this time. Alhamdulillah, thank you =).

2008-02-29T02:26:00.003+08:00

I’m BROKE ! (thousands of exclamation mark)

Today I just bought GMAT (Graduate Management Aptitude Test) and JLPT 3 (Japanese Language Proficiency Test) books along with sinful Godchild volume 8. The first two are worth to be called long term investment, while the latest one only works well to activate my ‘wildest imagination whatsoever’. In short, I am BROKE!

Moreover, parents asked me to go home during Easter break, mainly because my sister is having holidays and she will be coming home. Now I am DOUBLE BROKE! Citizen of povertyland!

Last Volume = Frantic Revelation O_o

Well, leave that issue for now. The latest volume of Godchild was so heart-wrenching, a feeling that doesn’t make you cry, instead makes you ponder a lot about the teary plotline. Now I can truly comprehend the gorgeousness of warmth boys’ love relationship (and I mercilessly forced this pacifist girl to read over the manga *hey girl, make sure you read this -pointing out a rusty blade*).

2008-02-26T23:29:00.004+08:00

Please Don’t Go With the Wind

No matter how much heaven wants you for its sake
Another me will always try to catch you
So that you won’t be disappeared with the wind

These recent months I have been very busy looking for good story that I favor so much. Kindly note that it has to be bloody, angsty, has blatant ‘boys love’ aspect and full of controversy and lethal twist, so I guess it won’t be that easy to find at least one.

And then I am thinking, hey, why don’t I create one?

And so, it has been completed around 60% of total. Initially I planned to submit this so-called novel to one of teen-literature competition back in Indonesia, but then again, I got so pessimistic considering that it might not be suitable with the local taste. Moreover, the deadline will be on the 6^thof March. Well, looking at my current workload that enables me to work overtime until the end of March, I think that is not possible to aim for that competition. Let’s try to be more realistic (if not ‘pragmatic’). Forget that baby, lets make it for the personal consumption purpose instead!

Since I am a geek for those psychological and murder issue, the storyline has been centered around the themes of angsty, murder, unconditional love (and pretty much normal love as well!), not to mention it has abundant of characters having problems with obsessive compulsive, dependent, histrionic, pedophilic, narcissistic, emo =p, split personality disorder, superiority and inferiority complex, suicidal, psychotic, anti-social, and schizotypal (stop right here, otherwise I might end up copying from psychology textbook).

However, currently I am not in the mood to write, as the project has been discontinued since the beginning of February due to my crazy workload. As soon as I am done with office business, I will start writing again.

* pardon the lousy illustration, it was made above a failure report paper during working hours T_T

2008-02-25T00:44:00.003+08:00

Ikastara65 Outing @ East Coast

It was damn-fun, and the food was great! I am looking forward to the next outing ^o^. Apology for not being able to spend a night in the chalet, as I got something to do.

'boi-boi-an' (guys could you create a cooler name?)

Played a frenzy game called 'boi-boi-an' (what a name O_o) and got exhausted after about an hour trying. Not a recommended game for a couch potato like me =p.

Hungry Apratz waiting for BBQ session *humm*

*picture courtesy of Dina, sankyou!

2008-02-24T15:43:00.002+08:00

Getting hooked to Friendster or Facebook is damaging…

… at least it applied for my dearest self. Frankly speaking, Friendster or Facebook (or Blogger or Whatever), are purposedly erected to create virtual social network, for people to socialize with other people even from across the continent. That was a splendidly brilliant idea to support globalization and the idea of making this world boundariless (well, Anita Roddick might oppose to this, but let’s leave her at it is).

Nevertheless, it is undeniable that it works out very well towards people who are longing for acknowledgement from the virtual world (something that she/he couldn’t derive from her actual world). This bunch of people will work their ass off to create imageries of ‘ideal self’ (instead of ‘actual self’) on those medium of acknowledgment. They will publish the fabricated and well-polished self portrait to emphasize on their (pseudo?) physical attraction, make so much hype of their achievement as if those are really a big deal amongst all traits that they have, et cetera, et cetera (sorry, I couldn’t elaborate much further).

I have once investigated this, and found interesting fact. Mostly, the wannabes are amongst the Asians (not to mention Indonesians), and not much of the Caucasians or people from neighborhood continent. Perhaps my random sample is pretty much biased, but kindly remember that Asians are being colonialized since the ancient time. This feeling of being underdog, and incapability to be proud of ‘what they currently have’ trigger them to create more buzz of ‘ideal self’. So here we are, the third world country that is being victimized by the evil consumerism (a no #1 product of capitalism). People are not yet proud of themselves if they don’t wear lavish clothes and consume luxurious brands. People are not yet proud of what they have unless they wear imported goods in every occasion. And voila, we spend much of what we can get.

After swamping all of you with this globalization crap, let’s get back to the Friendster/Facebook/Blogging issue…

In the end, I realize that I might have problem with self-confident issue, so I feel indifferent when seeing so much hype on some individual’s FS/Facebook/blog (either the authentic or the fabricated one). I often feel like I was like a useless retard when I compare myself with those damn lucky talented and high achiever folks on those ‘medium of acknowledgment’. I feel like, what am I doing until now, that I am unable to do something beneficial or significant towards myself and the environment?

Trust it or not, it damages my self esteem so much that I intend to stop involving myself on FS/FB/blog business. Okay, I hope that this underdog mindset only conquers my mind temporarily.

2008-02-24T15:14:00.004+08:00

Warning : This post contains mega spoiler (especially for those who are not reading Naruto until the latest chapter)

What Is The Outcome of Itachi-Sasuke Fight?

I sincerely hope that it would turn out like this (Uchihacest FTW!)

Anyway it is true that I'm a loyal Sasu-tard ever since I followed Naruto, but I just detest him for being too dominant in this ItaSasu fight. I don't want Itachi to die in Sasuke's hand (damn Kishi is giving Sasuke too much hype, i start to hate him since he killed Deidara!).

From now on, I'm thinking to convert to Uchihaters, no, let's make it Sasuke-hater X(.

2008-02-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

This is getting more serious, i mean- dead serious!

I've been sick for the past 2 days when I reached Jakarta. It was not an ordinary health problem -i suppose, since I never experienced that kind of thing in the past (I had weird stomach-pain that makes me hard to breathe and even triggers me to vomit when I start eating). It was until today that I managed to see a Medical Oncologist, in order to find out more about this sickness. The result was more serious than I thought : problems lie not only on the gastric but also liver (and a bit on the bile). I will undergo a holistic medical check up on Tuesday later on.

I guess, this is the result of my bad quality of life that I lead ever since I was a kid, and my current job nature happens to make things even worse.

Now I come to a very serious question.

Shall I quit my current job?

2008-02-06T01:14:00.000+08:00

I am a Devil, yes, the Dorky one!

Managed to find one of my superficially devilish picture in one office party. Here it is :

MB's X-Mas Party @Wine House

this will make :"Pretty Girl, Dorky Devil and Drunken Santa" (picture courtesy of Miki)

FYI, Apratz is a good girl, she doesn't drink wine in there...

Anyway, I will be going back to Jakarta during Chinese New Year holiday (6 Feb 2008 - 11 Feb 2008), so I guess, enjoy your vacation!

2008-02-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

You know what..?

1) It is already 11.42 PM. Midnight. (behold, Cinderella was about to turn back into a poor servant lady!)

2) Apratz just drank 2 bottles of Red Bull (equivalent to Kratingdaeng for those who aren't familiar with). With her determined gaze, she's pulling her hair up and wearing her old-fashioned specs.

3) It's time to get back to work, She feel kinda energized already.

Fact : Due to some dorky mistakes she has done, Apratz needs to redo her work within a super tight and merciless timeline *sobbing*. Kindly cross your finger on Apratz, as she's currently being zombified and ready to devour whoever passes by on her (it seems that she's going to have mental breakdown very soon. For pacification sake, let's call nearest mental hospital before everything is too late).

OSU!

2008-01-30T23:47:00.000+08:00

I am damn-seriously tired...

O' Dear Holy weekend, please come faster....

2008-01-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

I am a.... (what?)

You Are An ESTJ

The Guardian

You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker.

Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them.

You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities.

Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done!

In love, you tend to bring stability to relationships.

You feel comfortable being in charge, and you enjoy being a provider.

At work, you take charge. You thrive in structured environments and don't mind enforcing the rules.

You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective.

How you see yourself: Realistic, stable, and pragmatic

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Rigid, bound to rules, and a bad listener

What's Your Personality Type?

Saw this test in this blog. Last time I tried this test, I was an ESFJ. In conclusion, I have changed from 'Feeling' into 'Thinking' in less than 2 years time =S.

2008-01-24T01:12:00.000+08:00

Apratz’ Tsundere HOST Club

Disclaimer :

Apratz was not in her sane state of mind due to overloaded works (and overdosage stupidity) when she produced these. Hence, there’s no law against abnormal people, agree?
Apratz doesn’t own these characters. She just made them in her working paper in nearly mad state.
All images are courtesy of Apratz!

If perverted fanboy like him and him can fantasize about Meido’s Café or Tsundere Cafe, Apratz can also build her castles in the air by creating her own Tsundere Host Club (applause, Ladies and Gentlemen?). Before moving out further, kindly refer to wiccapedia about the definition of Tsundere.

In a nutshell, Tsundere is referring to cold, harsh, blasphemous-mouthed, and strict girls that can turn out being caring, tender, loving when she’s alone. In Apratz’ Tsundere Host Club, we have boys behaving like Tsundere girls, just that they are guys!

Similar to Ouran High Host Club which artistically classifying sweet, tender, loving, caring guys into some archetypes, Apratz’ Tsundere Host Club does the same flawless formula! So, without further ado, here is the Tsundere boys’ list,

#1 Bloody Brotherly Love : Itachi and Sasuke

Itachi and Sasuke, what’s more can you expect? They love each other, from the bottomest of their heart, just that their ‘way of Tsundere’ makes them much more violent and rough in expressing their love (ex : killing all the remaining clan to provoke ‘foolish little brother’, run into a sick pedophile for obtaining power to get closer to Onii-sama, et cetera, et cetera). Nevertheless, please believe that love is still in the air! (Kindly refer to available pic)

#2 Stoic Tsundere boy : Tieria Erde

Tieria Erde, a mysterious beauty and ultimate eyecandy from Gundam 00. A stoic looking guy who can only say ‘mission accomplished’ whenever is necessary and confront the rest of team in case anything out of plan has happened. He attracted both female and male audience of Gundam 00 (two of them are those perverted parties that we mentioned at the beginning).

#3 Sweet Tsundere boy : Wolfram von Bielefelt

Looking for a Tsundere boy with pink frilly sleeping dress that haunted your bed every night? Then Wolfram von Bielefelt from Kyou Kara Maou is for you! This sassy brat, foul mouthed, charming spoilt little Prince can be very sweet at times, and you can propose him into marriage just by slapping him on face!

#4 Loli-Shota Tsundere boy (or kid?) : Aoyagi Ritsuka

His notorious name is Loveless, and his interest is only older guys (feel sorry for girls). He can be a precocious brat that shouts at you at the first meeting! He can appear as a strong and problematic lad that melts older women’s heart (except his Mom). Yet afterwards, he will suddenly shed tears, being fragile, and in the end asked you to take a picture with him. He is very suitable with Thou with Onee-sama archetype *pointing oneself*.

Do you have any other Tsundere boy in mind? Please kindly tell Apratz, as she will be happy to broaden this insane business, in order to generate profit as much as possible! She’ll need huge amount of money to support her life contingency plan. Therefore please support Apratz, please come to her Tsundere Host Club!

After all these, Apratz realized that she might see psychiatry to test her sanity.

Credits : Bro Aussie and Otaku sama for sharing their insanity.

2008-01-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

I was a CLAMP-geek and have been drooling over at least one of CLAMP's Artbook since I knew CLAMP in Secondary School. I always went to Kinokuniya Jakarta every Sunday just to salivate over them (admire them, dreaming of them), and promised myself if and only if i became quite financially independent, i will sacrifice my first salary to buy one of them. Now that I became a poor salarygirl (I am still 21, thus being considered as a girl), I turned out to be a super cheapskate individual. I realized that money doesn't come easily. It comes with your sweat and blood as a tradeoff (nay, i am a Drama Queen). Especially when Reporting period is coming over like the past 2 weeks, I was so miserably suffered (working more than 12 hours a day is not safe for both your body and mind, trust me!). Well that explains why i seldomly blog. It requires huge opportunity cost at that time. Hence, I was reluctant to spend money just to buy artbooks that can be easily downloaded somewhere on the net.

MAIS, DEMO, ABER, (but)

This ultimate-benevolent guy bought me an RG Veda Artbook with case (featuring Ashura and Yasha as the front cover). He was in Japan right now (and after hearing much of his story, i decided that Japan is my top list destination for my postgraduate study in 2009 ^o^). Finally I owned one of CLAMP's divine Artbook! Argh I must be one of the most fortunate person in the world *sobbing*.

Front-Ashura

Back-Yasha

To Bro Ndityo :

Thank you very much. Obrigado. Xie-xie. Hontou ni arigatou gozaimasu. Tak skal du have. Merci Beaucoup. Shukran. Gracias. Grazie. Danke Schon. Terima kasih. Dank u wel. Efharisto. Děkuji. (that's all phrases I know XD, all thanks to my Eurotrip).

2008-01-21T22:19:00.000+08:00

MB Singapore

presenting

COLOURS OF THE WEEK

Credits : Thanks Yixian for initiating this (as well as sending reminders in the end of the day on what colour to wear for the next day), thanks to Client Service Dept. who participated *grin*

Monday -Bloody Red

Sending a strong signal during Monday Morning meeting *bloody!*
I forgot to wear reddish stuffs =(

Tuesday -Horizon Blue
Feeling out of the blue, since it is STILL tuesday, 3 more days to weekend *grin*

Wednesday-Traffic Green

Finally we came in the midst of the week, feels so-so
I was fallen sick, didn't attend work X(

Tuesday -Cherryblossom Pink

Yatta, friday is almost coming, (pink's depicting overflowing cheeryblossoms in mind XD)

Friday -Morbid Black

OMG OMG OMG deadline is coming, time is running out, noo.. arrghhhhh *dead*

It was fun. I am looking forward into another event XD.

2008-01-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

WTF!

My sister is still studying in high school (note : It is a boarding school quite remote from civilization, though once was distinguished as the best multiracial and national school in the entire Indonesia –I didn’t say that school is a hasbeen, though I want to-). She’s always asking for iPod Nano, latest Digicam, most recent cell phone, as well as up-to-date laptop when I am home, and keeps saying that most of her friends already have it thus bringing it easily to school.

I was like… WTH.. WTF… **&*^&%^%^E$%#$#$!!!!!

Did teenager nowadays have even a little bit sense of crisis? Did they really need a super advance laptop while they probably only require Ms. Office or Adobe Photoshop as their most necessity? I just don’t get the point. When I was on high school, I always went to the nearest internet café in order to do a project or homework, coz I didn’t see any urgent need to own a Notebook, or digicam while I was still on High School, especially on a boarding school that I mentioned above in particular.

Numbers... Money... But they're not yours XD

I realize that it must be hard being parents in today’s era, whereby cost of having the kids is skyrocketing (hence some people prefer to be a single or married without kids). I mean, what is the normal wage for a medium income family in Indonesia, minus the monthly household expenditure, minus the tuition fee of kids, minus income tax, minus transportation, minus recreation fee, minus this and that, and how much will we get as a monthly saving? Oh, did I mention the cost of e-goods and clothes? And now, kids / teenagers are sometimes brainlessly spending money out of nothing, and it doesn’t even worth to be called ‘an investment’ (I didn’t point out bluntly to all teenagers, just some, though still that many).

Having been working in a consultancy firm, sometimes I was wondering with the Indonesia’s statistical economic data above the paper, depicting the middle to high purchasing power of Indonesian consumers, for any branded or luxurious good. Some random data from a research firm (citation needed, but I forgot :S), Indonesian citizens are ranking the 2^nd in terms of likelihood to shop (the 1^st rank is Hongkong people, I left with no wonderment :p), it shows that Indonesians ARE affluent. In fact, when I was going back to Jakarta, I realized that things didn’t look that smooth. There’s still countless of people living under poverty line, and they’re outnumbered the percentage of middle-high income for certain.

And this was my conclusion why there’s no flawless research methods, as the data cannot tell you the 360 degrees of truth : the discrepancy of the affluent and the poor are getting wider and wider as time counts. The rich is getting richer, and the poor is becoming poorer, thus the soaring high earnings from the affluent party have constructed the National Income to be higher in number (but less representing the real welfare condition of the citizens, as the economic gap is so high). From the time being, I do believe that we can’t easily depend on qualitative approach, but also quantitative study at the same time, in order to get a better understanding of both macro and micro insight out of everything.

Anyway, I should have read over spoilers in Narutofan forum, why did i even bother to write things like these :S?

2008-01-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

Paris Van Java

Fatty Apratz (due to Holiday), Juniors and Alumni counterparts

Boohoo, lousy title for a super lousy girl *whatever* , anyway, I spent last weekend on December vacationing in Bandung West Java. My family owned a restaurant namely 'Kedai Urang Bandung' in Jl. Supratman 45 Bandung, and Mom asked me to create a menu-card as well as food display for the sake of this F&B business. Henceforth, please do stop by and indulge your culinary lust in there (and enjoy my art too *grin*). Frankly speaking, the naming was tasteless -or so to speak-, if i were a Bekasista, then my tavern-to-be will be kind of 'Warung Anak Bekasi', which is so blatantly uncreative! Next time If this will be my parents legacy in the future, I will be pleased to name it "Akatsuki" and let the waiter and waitress dress like Akatsuki Member XD.

A Maiden in Pirates' Den, no actually it was on the Parking Slot

Anyway (again), it is a total coincident that SMA TN Rendezvouz for West Java-ers was being held there. I was surprised to meet high school friends as they are already changed too much until i myself cannot recognize *_*. Honestly, I am always oblivious to keep in touch with old friends, thus I am typical of person who can't afford to maintain sustainable relationship with people. But I was happy to find that I still have chance to meet them :).

Factory Outlets (I didn't shop, but I did windowshop)

So what did I do in Bandung? First and foremost will be shopping, regrettably, those dresses that I was yearning of cost me like 200,000++ so I decided not to buy (my budget for clothes was like less than 50,000 only XD). On the other hand, I found super cute plush dolls of Deidara and Gaara *yatta* which cost me like 30,000++. I was so happy remembering that I've been salivating over those two plush dolls since I started watching Shippuuden (even I intend to bid on ebay for those items, unfortunately the shipping cost went up like crazy : USD 10).

Deidei plush ^o^

Gaara plush ^o^

Bandung is really a student-friendly place. I want to taste a "real" campus life like those in ITB (yet I don't think that I can pass the SPMB considering that I am super brainless while in High School :p). Sometimes I tend to blame SMU X for making me suffering that much when I was there. I was never ever into study when I was on Secondary School, yet I always got the second highest (if not the highest) grade in Math. When I was on High School, things seemed to go upside down, I was studying like hell, working my ass off just to pass the remedial test, but report card always went awful. Even having such nostalgic feeling makes me suffocated *fainted*.

I really did enjoy my time in Jakarta. I don't want to come back to Singapore for work, though I want my salary (who don't?). Today is my last day working normally, as starting from tommorow onwards, it is a crystal clear that I will have to work overtime *_*.

2008-01-02T21:25:00.000+08:00

Welcome 2008!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

Our slogan for this year :
Seize the day, Embrace the Night, Living for today, Yearning for afterlife, Carpe Diem, Memento Mori!!!
*how i love being contradict -_-"*

2007-12-19T12:45:00.000+08:00

Zombified, Mummified, whatever

I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is there anything I can do rightly?

Anything?

2007-12-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

Beginning of 20s Crisis

Apratz is still alive, safe and sound! My deepest apology for being completely vanished in the blogsphere, If anyone cares by the way. Do you care? Do you?

Anyway, work is really overwhelming. Recently I was totally zombified by overloaded tasks. Well, it is not that job is redundant; it is me who did it super slow. I myself is an utter slowpoke *sobbing*. I wonder how long will it take to familiarize myself with this business.

Quite sometime, I feel like loosing senses in certain things. I become less sensitive to others, thus reluctant to spend more times to meet counterparts and friends during weekend. I worked wholeheartedly during weekdays, and when weekend comes, I feel like spending time for myself only, and not others. I will be sleeping throughout the whole day, watching anime and reading anything worth all by myself, which made me a sucker in social life,

I realize that I can’t let myself entirely buried by this routine. Working is my x-priority, yet it is my current obligation since I need to payback the Tuition Fee to the Government by working 3 years in here. There’re so many things I want to accomplish in this super short lifespan. That’s why I don’t want to see myself doing the same thing all over again in the next 10 years. Frankly speaking, girls has less responsibility compare to guys in terms of life contingency plan, so I should say, 3 years working is more than enough.

Hopefully I can get enough capital when that time comes; afterwards taking Postgraduate study will be my choice in order to support my life contingency plan. Then easier said than done, I will build up my own company in Indonesia to support community development as well as being a University Lecturer at the same time. Life is so perfect on the top of the paper, but still every second that just passed needs to be fighting for.

Now I sound like I am in the midst of 30s :(.

2007-11-24T14:46:00.000+08:00

Taken For Granted

Ok, I was getting tired of all this.

I was always there, when people need me to lean them a shoulder to cry on. I was –in most occasion- trying to give people the best possible outcome that I could do to lighten their troubles. I had always been a good listener for most of times, a caregiver, a provider, and sort of things (that sounds like a self-proclaimed but devil may care for this time around!).

I do believe that good friends must always be a solution oriented, a constructive minded individual who always express their help in a more realistic way, not just a daydreamy being who always sugar the problems with comforting words. I just try to be a good friend (according to my own perception of ‘a good friend’).

And now, I think I was being hated because of that.

2007-11-20T00:20:00.003+08:00

Sasuke-kun Doushite?

Enough with Gaara, now my issue is Sasuke. Pardon my wild imagination, but honestly i do think that Naruto is overflowed by invisible shounen ai aspects in here and there.

The first scene involving Naruto and Sasuke is the kissing scene, then moved to Haku and Zabuza (and please notice their uncanny relationship), then came to Lee and Might Guy (sort of admiration at the beginning but my instinct told me more than that *grin*, afterall they are not my cup of tea), afterwards it was Gaara and His attendant (forgot his name, pity!), then Sasuke and Itachi's grostesque relationship (boohoo, it is forbidden love!), next was Sai and his brother (gee, why there're so many boyxboy relationship? in fact it works well to attract fangirls *grin*), et cetera et cetera and finale, Sasuke and Naruto!

"Wake up Naruto, or else I kiss you!"

Even though there's almost zero improvement in SasukexNaruto relationship, i still can satisfy myself with Narusasu doujinshis or fanfics that scatterred around the net *happy*.

2007-11-19T23:54:00.000+08:00

Joy to the World, Weekend Has Come!

Last friday I catched 'Stardust' in The Cathay after working hours. I went with couples of abnormals -typical stressed over work and stressed over exams people-, except myself by the way. I wondered with some guys who still had exam period by next week but they (as if) committed suicide by going for a movie. Fortunately exam for me is so yesterday *laugh frantically*, instead, I need to do neverending projects everyday *turn laugh into tears* .

these are the Freaks

'it is here', 'it is there', 'it is cold!'

Anyway, for thou who hath seen Stardust and played Final Fantasy series, I want to share something (not so) interesting. If you notice the Sky Pirate in Stardust, did it resemble the Sky Pirate in Final Fantasy XII ? And what's wrong with the Captain character, he is soo Balfear (minus the freaking scary fetihism of course). Afterwards the shape of the ship really embodies the flying ship in Final Fantasy IX. These are solely my commenting, done without any research, so please don't bother to make rebuttals. I think Neil Gaiman himself is an RPGamer :p.

Please don't try this at home!

2007-11-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

Hair-Extreme Makeover

I just had a hair-extreme makeover when I was in Jakarta. Recently most people commented that I do look alike this guy *grinning widely*, especially the hair :

Anyway, thank him for the inspiration *giggle*.

NB
For Thou who hath seen me, admit it XD! I feel like taking over the role of Haruhi in Ouran TV Drama (as if it exists) or the girl-disguised-as-guy tipe in HanaKimi Drama *being throwed by thousands of kunai*.

2007-11-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

A Slowpoke’s Grief

Have you ever encountered this problem?

Colleague : What do you want to eat for lunch?
Apratz : Oh I am going to washroom very soon.

Or…

Colleague : What do you do during weekend?
Apratz : Yes, I know weekend is two more days!

Okay, that’s true story indeed. I noticed that I am very slow to catch what people asked (I perceive different things of what people perceive, that’s more accurate way of saying). No, actually I always perceive the wrong things of what people said! This is beyond communication problems, this is brain damage ;_;. I have no idea what to cause this, in fact this bothers me a lot especially during conversation at work (in fact, though I don’t really give a damn regarding casual conversation, it still makes me sad somehow T_T). Moreover, I hardly catch up with works though boss and colleagues are super nice. I always make mistakes in every report I have done! If you have the best colleagues and manager, then you will even give your life to not disappoint them.

I think there’s something wrong with my ear (perhaps I need to wear hearing aid? For God’s sake I am still 21!), or does it lie on my brain? (Maybe I have too many unconnected brain cells or is this derived from family bloodline? *stabbed by shurikens*). But thanks to friends of mine, now I realized the causes of all this.

1) If you are working with numbers, and numbers, and … (did I mention numbers?), while you are not number crouching typical of person, then most likely you will encounter this problem, which is simply called ‘Lethal Unconnection’. We used to call it ‘kaga nyambung’ amongst the Martians up there by the way.

2) If your work is overloaded, and you are still not expert enough to maintain your tasks, while you think of newest episodes of Naruto or Gundam 00 everytime you go for work, then this suffering belongs to you.

Most bloggers always claimed that blogger ought to write something positive or at least advantageous for the readers, instead of just writing lovey dovey story or self proclaimed achievements that make readers vomit thus want to kill the writers. If Naruto said ‘This is my way of ninja’, then I said ‘this is my way of blogging’ *lol*. I do express something beneficial to all of you! Sounds super corny? This is my way of blogging… blogging… blogging… *echoing*.

Meanwhile, tomorrow is Monday *sobbing*. Overloaded work has called me and waited to kill me T_T.

Ergh, what is with this post?

A slowpoke, but it doesnt grief...

2007-11-07T13:49:00.000+08:00

Hi Everyone!

Apratz will be having a sudden short-holiday in Jakarta, starting from Wednesday nite to Sunday nite (7/11-11/11).

Reasons mainly because, work is overloaded! I have had enough with work overtime (and even I use my Holy Sunday to learn and study the research materials!) graaaahhh I am stressed over them! I need blood *turns into werewolf XD*. Luckily office will be closed due to renovations and Deepavali holiday. My company rocks ^o^!

So I guess, enjoy your days as I will be enjoying them too for certain ^o^.

Regards,

Apratz

2007-11-06T00:21:00.000+08:00

What Naruto boy has a crush on you and what do the Naruto characters think of you?

Gaara has a crush on you! In the exams he hated everyone except there something special about you!

Here is what the characters think of you:
Sakura: I met her once she seemed nice, but later on I learned she can be a little nasty at times. Lee: Full of Youth! But she gets annoyed easily.Tenten: Hm, I guess she is cool.Neji: I don't mind her. She doesent say much though.Shino: She does not mind my bugs so shes ok.Kiba: I don't really know her that well.Akamaru: Bark! (Shes fun at times)Hinata: I don't mind her, she seems nice but she is a little mean to me about not speaking up..Itatchi: ...Who?(The rest of the akatsuki don't really know you either) :(Ino: I like her! We gossip ALL the time! I just did not like it when she said that I looked "fat" in this outfit! Sai: We joke all the time about Naruto. Suprisingly, she gets along with me!Kakashi: She is a wonderfull student and is always focused on her goals!Gai: She is very talented! However, she could lighten up on the insults of me and my spandex!Asuma: She is a good kid.Sasuke: I like her. We talk sometimes and she is like me, but thank goodness she is NOT obessed!Kurenai: I like her, she can actually keep my students in line when I'm away!Tsunade: I like her, she reminds me of me a little.Jiriya: ..I can wait untill she is 18.Orchimaru: Heh, Heh. I have plans in stored for her..Iruka: Shes a smart kid! She always got As on her tests and quizes!Naruto: Ugh! I don't like her at all! She has a lot of nerve!!Shikamaru: I don't really care for her. She always is with Ino and they look at me then laugh!Choji: I don't like her! She is mean!Gaara: I like her a lot! She is pretty cool and just my type. She makes a lot of pain go away.Temari: Well, I don't mind her and Gaara has some feeling for her.Kankuro: She is kinda nasty! However, when ever she is close by Gaara seems to lighten up a bit.
Take this quiz!

Madness, madness, it seems that I will be a Tsundere type in anime/manga female characters, but this result is super interesting XD *grin*